Why was it worth fucking up my life,

I know my mom wasn't bad enough to cheat on,

To ruin it all,

And i look at my son,

I could never ruin his life,

Take his chance at a real home,

And i know there's no real answer,

Beyond selfishness,

Why it happened,

But i just wish it hadn't,

Because I didn't need to have such a hard time,

When im rocking my son to sleep in the dark,

And its quiet,

But im just so tired,

And uninspired,

The sun melts my cold cuts,

And im left here melting in the rain,

If only you'd see it,

Would you dare to believe it,

I feel like I've outgrown this pain,

So Take me down to where I used to be,

Back when the painting of me,

Was so easy to see ohh,

I used to have so many shades of red,

But now its hard to find a reason instead.

Who am I now,

Cancel massage membership?

So tired,

I find myself in bed,