When someone knocks you down, you get back up right? Right, except when it’s your mother knocking you down because she doesn't approve of a certain dream of yours. Once I graduated high school, she was more open to this dream, mainly because she can’t do anything to stop me and I’m living on my own now. Being raised in a strict environment is tough but now that I’m on my own, I’m ready for my next adventure.

   My ultimate dream is to become a Victoria Secret model or even become an Angel. Not only will it be fun, it’s going to be hell. The self-discipline involved is insane. Talk about working out twice a day and dieting hardcore. It takes a lot of commitment to be a model in general, but to be Victoria Secret model? Personally I know a girl who is a model for Model and Images. From what I’ve seen on her social media it takes a lot of discipline. Recently Victoria Secret had their yearly casting calls, where you audition for a spot on the team. They have bras in all sizes, same with undies and heels. You walk down the runway in that and do your thing, while the judges ask you personal questions. Then you have a interview and I’m sure you at lease have a robe on for that, in front of the cameras. Looking and being good on camera is a must! VS models do a lot of camera shots and being on tv as they walk the runway.

   The models ride on private jets, have some awesome fun, and crazy schedules but they all are beautiful and glamorous. I can’t say it enough, that VS models are Angels. (see what I did there) Most have husbands, boyfriends, or even kids! The ones with children get so big during pregnancy and then they lose it all pretty quickly and soon enough they are back on the runway or at least doing seasonal clothing shoots. To me it’s absolutely amazing how the human body can even stretch that far out and then be normal again.  

   Instagram or any social media keeps me up to date on Victoria Secret. I myself follow several of the main runway girls, they post a lot on social media, keeping all their followers up to date. Some of my favorite models include Romee Stride, Candice Swanepoel, Alessandra Ambrosio, Adriana Lima, and Behati Prinsloo. It’s fun to see they have lives outside of modeling for Victoria Secret, like attending art shows, music festivals, etc. The main VS account on Instagram is always posting videos of new clothing or lingerie. Sometimes there are pictures of a previous shoot somewhere in the world, or a video of some of the models talking. I’m not gonna lie, it’s a pretty expensive store. The sales are amazing though, 5 for $20 or 5 for $27?! One pair of undies is usually $9.99 or lower, and you’re getting 5 for less!! When that sale is going on you grab your bff and head to the nearest mall.

  There are several blogs out there in the world on the internet about the diet and workouts of a VS model and how crazy it is. Buzzfeed had two girls do the workout challenge for a week, (volunteerly) and they loved the results. Two workouts daily, one in the morning and one in the evening/night. Most of the models workout with a partner or buddy, lifting weights, yoga, boxing, basically anything that gets your blood pumping. There are some people who do the diet with a friend for fun, and are astonished by how their bodies feel so much more alive, and happier. One blog I read, a lady did the workouts and diets for a whole month! As well she loved her results and continued to eat on that diet after the challenge. So obviously it can’t be THAT bad. There’s a lot of protein shakes involved so don’t worry it’s not like you have to go vegan. Think of it kinda as a detox for your whole body.

   Self-discipline, dam it sucks. I can barely get myself to commit working out everyday, and I have easily plenty of time on my hands. Maybe I just need a partner/buddy to go workout with. A helpful friend always makes things much much better. Not only do you get to gossip and make memories with this person but you both get to improve mentally and physically. Who doesn’t like to succeed at something with someone else? “We started from the bottom now we here.”

   Can you just imagine late nights overlooking a New York City skyline with a glass of champagne in your hand? With a nice looking man on your side? Just make sure to watch your alcohol intake! Photo-shoots on top of the Empire State building. Ah... I can see it now, I’ve always been able to picture it in my mind. No, I’ve never been to NYC but my sister lives there so that’s close enough for now. There are thousands, millions, of pictures of NYC skyline at nighttime or daytime and every single one of them is absolutely beautiful. Even though I’m not there in the flesh to see it with my naked eye, I can definitely feel the adrenaline and city rush. Most movies or tv shows are based in or around NYC so I’ve got a pretty good taste of what it’s like. The smell of bakery shops and coffee, fast food and dine in. A nice sexy/casual outfit with a pair of heels. Cameras flashing in your direction as you step out of the taxi. That’s it, I wanna be famous. I want to be a role model for younger girls, and I want to be famous for a talent God gave me to use. I do tend to get jealous of girls who have a fit body and just workout for fun and everyday life and don’t do any modeling. Then I think to myself. “Why are you getting jealous? You have a perfect fit body too, just not AS fit.” It’s gonna take some serious work till I get that Victoria Secret body.

    Mmmmmmmm Victoria Secret (insert hear eyes emoji) What a dream come true. I know that you know that I know they are absolutely stunning humans. Most are from out of the country and most have that certain gene. But they all worked for it, and rightly so they deserve it. Sexy fit bodies, fresh look, nice smooth skin, long luscious hair, trendy clothes, heels, good positive attitude, and that great happy personality. Let’s be honest THEY ARE LIVING THE DREAM.

   Support is key. I’m sure all those models have support from their family and friends back home. They have support form their fans too. If I decided today to start working out and eating right like a model should, would I myself have support? Absolutely! I live in a house with five other girls and we are all very supportive of each other in everything we do. I feel that my family would have my back and my siblings would push me to my best, and my mother... My mother would eventually come around. That’s what I love about her, she’s stubborn, like me!

   Criticizing the models is no way to live. They are not anorexic and they are not starving themselves. All of them are unique and special in their own ways. I’m sure they don’t all eat the same way, not every body is the same. It takes a lot of hard work to be a model and I wish people gave them more credit. They’re doing something that they love and enjoy. Be happy for them, they’re happy. Stay humble, words can hurt, be kind, they have enough pressure as is. There’s always going to be haters, and they gonna hate strong. Karma’s a bitch though.

    Crowd is cheering, stands are full, concession stand line is backed up, bright lights light the field, the cheering continues yet its’s getting louder, the announcer comes over the intercom, drums beating a chant, popcorn is thrown up in the air, balloons released, smiles and laughter spreads the stands, horns blaring, our team just got a touchdown. The amount of excitement from that one touchdown will last the whole game. In fact it’ll be the talk of the school the following Monday. Nothing beats a small town football game. There’s so much adrenaline, as the ban marches during halftime, the color-guard girls twirl their flags in the air, then a spirit walk way for the football boys, and the roar of the students and kids cheering on their team to win. Sunflower seed shells spread across the dirt and track, free shirts launched in the stands, everyone’s singing the school’s fight song, with those little boys in the top right of the stands pretending they’re the boys out playing on the field. Football games bring small town communities together, everyone wants that feeling of intense adrenaline where you can hear your own heartbeat and feel like you belong. 

     The morning after a late night of football is usually filled with a rush of excitement, as you remember the big win the night before. Some might not remember the night before and some might not remember the game at all, usually due to illegal activities. There’s really no safe place for teens to hang out after a big game or a late night. Almost anywhere you go with friends will most likely be a party or an act of illegal activities. It’s considered the “cool” thing to do. If you’re not participating the peer pressure will start, and it will usually not end till you finally start participating. Cliques will start talking about you and starting rumors, just so you’ll feel bad and want to do what they do. Reputation is a lie. Some are smart and avoid those people all together and never have to deal with rumors floating around town about themselves. Some hang with bad influences once and get a bad reputation for the rest of high school. Sometimes news floating around town is good, in times of need, when the community needs to come together. If there is a car crash and someone dies, or an accident leaving someone in critical condition, a house fire, or anything that impacts the entire town. Food is made and delivered to specific families in need, clothes and blankets are brought to their needs, money is sent to the family for help with medical bills. But most importantly prayers are always sent. 

     Religion makes up a small town. You’re either Catholic, Christian, Methodist, or Lutheran. There are some other churches in town to give a variety, but you won’t find those parking lots filled on a Sunday morning. Maybe Easter or Christmas services, but rarely every week. Sunday’s are the quietest days of the whole week. You could hear a pen drop on the sidewalk and not stir a single soul. Almost everyone is in church and the streets are dead silent, only the birds are out, and an occasionally a dog barking. The town starts to be more alive shortly after noon. Churches are getting out, some people are just getting up for the day, activities are starting, and there are more vehicles out on the roads. Growing up in a small town you see that almost every house has a truck along the street or driveway. It might be a beat up truck or a brand new truck, as long as you can go mudding and star gaze in the back tailgate your good. The older generation loves to show off their cars form when they were teens. They’ll drive them around town on a bright sunny day, smiling and waving like a king and a queen. The amount of respect the teens/children have for the elder generation is so powerful and huge. You were raised right if you respect and appreciate your elders. It’s not a hard thing to do, and they won’t be around forever. There’s always someone in a small town correcting your manners or making you apologize. Even if it’s not your kid people will correct you and you go with it. It’s because the community cares about you, they want to see you healthy, well mannered, a civilized human being, and making the town proud. Unfortunately there are some not raised right, who are usually outcast/invisible at school or in public, sadly. But people will still wave at you no matter what. 

     A typical driving position is with one hand on the wheel and other on your knee or lower part of the wheel, just hovering. Country music blasting in your speakers, or rap, mostly country, and sunflower seeds and gum in the middle console. Even if you don’t smoke, you could probably find a lighter in almost every vehicle. The wave... one finger or tow, just lifting to the car or person, the whole hand, a hat tip, or a arm out the window wave. Just acknowledging the other person out of respect. It comes almost naturally and once you go to the bigger cities/towns where it’s not so common to wave at every vehicle passing it comes as a shock at first. You suppress the statement “how rude” when it’s not a big deal at all. 

   Rain is a good thing. The whole town is surrounded by wheat fields, soybeans, corn, cattle, horses, milo, or anything farming wise. Sunsets can be seen from every direction in town, you only have to drive about three minutes to get to the country, where the best views are. Just go to snapchat for a look at the sunset when you can’t see it, it’ll be all over snapchat stories. When there’s a full moon it lights the whole town, owls and bats rule the night sky, and every so often a vehicle drives by with blasting music, breaking the silence. It’s impossible to get lost, it’s more fun to take the back roads all the way to the next town, you know every back road from cruising late at night to the early mornings. You’re friends with all the cops in town, they’ve pulled everyone over at some point and you usually see each other in church. Those trucks that speed down the main roads late at night, drag racing for bragging rights, showing off their trucks who are their pride and joy, trying to get a hot date for a movie the coming weekend. Staying out late on a school night, waking up early and rushing to the nearest gas station for coffee. All four gas stations are full, being late to class because the parking lot ran out of spots, so you made a new spot. 

SO i haven't been writing lately but that's okay!!

Anyways I've decided that im going to start eating healthy and working out more than i already do. Since im not in a sport right now and the only thing i have going on is school and orchestra.... Ya i think i need to workout and stop coming home doing chores (which i'll still do), and then watching tv shows and eating lots of junk food. So now this is the new routine:

1) get a good/healthy breakfast 2) get to school early (not 3 min. before bell rings) 3) concentrate on my schoolwork 4) go home and do chores 5) eat a healthy snack 6) do a workout 7) on Wednesday go to the Wellness Center. 

Yep sounds good to me. 

I really need to try to do this cause i want to be ahead of everybody in track when it that season comes around. Oh and i'll be working at my job:))) so i'll be pretty busy i guess...

i need to stop eating at fast foods, (there okay but only like once a month or every two months), eat more salads, if still hungry after a meal eat a carrot or something healthy. No more pop:(( ik that really sucks but if i stop drinking pop then i'll be great and set to go!! I seriously need to workout and get in awesome condition for track/field season.

For, four reasons... My goals this track season are....

1) letter (again)

2) break the record in girls triple jump

3) get my P.R. in long jump

4) Make it to state track

i really wanted to make it to state last year but i scratched out all 3 jumps at regional's:( i was too nervous i guess...

Thank You to all the Veterans out there today. 

Both my grandpa's are my heroes even though i don't know them, i will in heaven. You both served well, congrats. Love you both!! <3 

Hey:)) so im today im going to write about dance. I love watching dance videos of people all time. My all time fav. dance team goes to York Town dance team. 

What im about to say next is an answered prayer almost.. so 4 girls from the dance team at my high school quit. And there's going to be dance tryouts a week from today. I'm so excited i want to tryout sooo bad. But of course im afraid of messing up when their judging me. My best friend is on dance team so she's convincing me to be on the team. (or at least try out) I love dancing, i literally dance like, oh, about 1 1/2 every day. Usually right before i go to bed. (idk why) I also love dancing outside. Last night was a full moon and guess what i was doing? Yep you guessed it! I was outside dancing. I love dancing! Have i not said that enough? Dancing is where you can express what your feeling in your actions, just the way your body is moving and the expression on your face is absolutely where everything counts. I guess you could say i watch a lot of dance tv shows. Like SYTYCD, ALDC, AUDC, DWTS, all of them i love. 

I think since i started to dance more (not only at my house but when im out with friends and where-ever) I've become more confident in what i wear to school, (like yesterday omg it was so cool) more confident dancing in public, and just things like that. 

Most people take/have been taking dance classes since they were small and younger. But not me. I kind of taught myself i guess. I would play just dance w/friends and then started looking up how to etc. on YouTube. And i guess that's where it started... I wanted to be on a dance team so bad. A way that i could express that i have a talent, that i want to dance, that i love dancing, that im compassionate about it. I want to show my high school that im not only good but also that i have a secret talent.(behold it's dancing!!) I think about dancing all the time. 

When-ever im cleaning, doing homework, at school, walking through the halls, chilling with friends, doing sports, i always am dancing. That or i picture awesome dance moves to a song and then when i try to do it myself (fail) lol but that's alright. Music is what i like to call my bff sometimes. Especially when im dancing. I love dancing to any kind of music. 

Someday though.. I would like to learn Tango, Waltz (old fashion), pretty much all those complicated dances they do in DWTS. I taught myself from a video on YouTube how to hip hop and i know now at least 3 different routines to hip hop. And then of course i make them up too. 

So yes, i love dancing and i know i always will too. My grandmother loved dancing and my parents tell me all the time that im just like her. That she always loved to dance and that she made all her children take dance classes. I guess you could say, my dad did not like dance classes! But i love dance. And i know my parents are a little ify on this whole situation with the dance team and tryouts but i really want to tryout for it. And if i don't make it oh well, next year. 

I could go on, on, and on, and on, for hours explaining but i really gtg clean the house. Oh and dance while im cleaning!!! :) so goodbye 

So i don't know how to start this out but Hey, im gonna express what i think about the TV show "Chrisley Knows Best". So overall its a great show but, every show has its pros and cons.

Chrisley Knows Best is does Todd (dad) really know whats best? Sometimes i thought so but, then i didn't. Example #1- He hovers over the teens (Savanna & Chase). He would never let them do like anything, they were always confined to the house. And if they left or tried to leave he would catch em. I'm not trying to sound like i don't like Todd. I mean i do. #2-He had control over their cars and phones (OK all electronics). What i mean by that is, when he would pull up their text messages and see what they were looking at on their laptops. Like when Chase was looking at naughty stuff (lol) and all he did (instead of yelling at him (which he did) and taking the laptop away for awhile), he yells at him and throws the laptop into the pool. Like Why? Also When the family goes to lake for the Grandmas surprise b-day and Todd takes all the phones and iPad away. Did you (you will) see the expressions on there faces? They were depressed like seriously that's way to much overboard. And his son Grayson (whos 8) had an iPad?!! Like what is this world coming too? And then Grayson said "Who wants to do that" as in hang out with family, when the teens really just wanted to stay on their phones. Wow.

When i watched this show it was precisely 5 days ago. I started season 1 and got to season 2 in the same day. Yep that's obsession there. So i listed my cons and now its time to list the pros.

So i loved the way that Todd would yell at Chase and they'd get mad at each other. Then they would talk and Todd would say some encouraging things and i just thought that was great. Also when Savanna and Chase would get in trouble and lie/cover up for each other i just thought that was pretty funny because the dad can tell your up to no good. Which kind of related to my own life. I mean i cover up for my bff (who is basically my sister) and my parents or her parents always (usually) figure out the truth. But, i also like that at the end of the episode the whole family (well except for Kyle and Lindsie) would all gather (usually) in the parents bedroom and discuss things. Usually it would with Chase saying "see you'all in the morning" which was pretty funny with the parents saying "Nooooooo". 

But anyways that's my blog on the TV show Chrisley Knows Best. I sometimes type the first thing that comes to my mind so if some of it doesn't make sense, sorry! I least i tried. I think i did pretty good for my first blog.