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Willow, vampire Willow, and ensouled-vampire Willow are introduced to the larger gang. Debates about identity ensue.
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The door opened and Jenny emerged, still in a black robe, with a black mask covering her face. Everyone turned, expectantly.Â
âAllow me to present,â Jenny declared, a little sardonically, âthe Willows RosenbergâŚâ behind her, two versions of Willow walked in, and for a moment Buffy couldnât tell which was which. It wasnât just that they looked physically identical, even down to matching hair. And it wasnât even that their clothes were both equally Willow-ish, one in jeans and a striped T-shirt, one in dungarees and tie-dye. It was that their faces, their movements, their whole demeanour finally matched: both radiated the sweet, shy, kind-heartedness that had made Buffy want to protect Willow from the very first day they met.Â
But it only took her a moment to identify the vampire: the girl in the dungarees was slightly paler, slightly stiller from the lack of breathing or heartbeat. And something in Buffyâs gut told her: enemy. But she had none of Carmillaâs languid menace â in fact, the vampire looked, if anything, like the more shy and nervous of the two, more in need of protection, more like the Willow Buffy remembered from three years ago.Â
âHi everyone!â The Willow in the jeans waved awkwardly. âThanks, um, for waiting. Iâd like you to meet,â she swept her arm towards the other Willow, who also waved awkwardly, âmy good vampire double, Laura!âÂ
There was silence. Wait, were we supposed to clap? Nobody was clapping.Â
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So, continuing to think about our three Slayers, now that Faith is here, I wanted to sort of talk about how I see their skills and capabilities comparing.
(I know that calculating comparative power rankings is the lowest form of fanwank, but sometimes itâs fun, darn it.)
So, how do the Slayers stack up against each other?
With Kendra we immediately confront an oddity: in her first appearance, she seems very impressive (tracks down both Angel and Buffy, defeats Angel and fights Buffy to a standstill, matches Gilesâs knowledge of the supernatural, defeats Patrice the assassin and seems to hold her own against Spike). But her second appearance is a bit of a let-down: in the battle at the library she manages to dust one vampire minion but seems to be struggling even before Drusilla arrives, and then she seems unable to match her either physically or mentally. Moreover, nobody seems to see her as the natural candidate to take down Angel, including her: if Buffy fails, their last hope would apparently be non-Slayer Willow.
To some extent we can account for this by drawing inferences about her opponents. Drusilla is more powerful than Patrice, sure. And souled Angel might be an easier fight than soulless Angel, if heâs either not trying so hard for the kill, or weaker from his vitamin-deficient all-animal diet.
But I think we can also draw an inference about types of combat: I figure Kendra is best at single combat, where sheâs tracked down one specific opponent and can focus exclusively on them. She struggles in the library fight because 1) she immediately has multiple opponents, 2) the situation is chaotic, with all these civilians to protect, and sheâs not good at managing that chaos or improvising.
Throw in her stalking Buffy to âtest her reflexesâ, and I think you can read her as almost a sort of "assassin" archetype: her preferred slaying methodology is to track down a target stealthily, wait for a good moment, and attack when theyâre not expecting her and she can focus all her attention on them.
By contrast, Buffy is often complimented, including by enemies watching videos of her, on her flexibility and ingenuity, navigating fluid environments with both lots of allies and lots of enemies. In her conversation with Kendra in âWhatâs My Lineâ she talks about both imagination and emotion, by contrast with Kendraâs rigid control.
(Ironically, this suggests that Kendra and Buffy should have swapped roles in âBecomingâ: Buffy would do better defending the gang in a chaotic melee, while Kendra might have been in her element stalking Angel, a known target in a specific location, and fighting him one-on-oneâŚ)
I like that this suggests they have complementary strengths, rather than either being strictly a superior Slayer. Buffy has two more years of Slayer experience, but conversely Kendra has many extra years of training. And while I do think Buffyâs exceptional, and I would probably bet on her coming out ahead in the end in most head-to-head matchups (for hybrid-Doylist-Watsonian reasons: itâs her show, but the reason she gets a show is because in-universe sheâs an exceptional Slayer), I donât think that means sheâs always going to do better at day-to-day slayage.
Out of combat, thereâs similar complementarity: Kendra is clearly much more learned about the supernatural, but Buffyâs much more socially and emotionally intelligent. And while Kendra might have a more honed ability to sense the supernatural like a compass (for being dispatched to random cities and tasked with hunting down some unspecified great evil), Buffyâs likely better able to spot subtle clues and figure situations out intuitively. If they worked as a team theyâd likely get a pretty even split of moments in the spotlight.
With Faith, we have more data on direct matchups: she fights Buffy three times in season 3, with the first two (in âRevelationsâ and âEnemiesâ) both being interrupted before resolution, and the third one won by Buffy. We get multiple indications that sheâs sort of the anti-Kendra: all emotion and instinct, no planning or discipline. And I feel like she often seems to do well in multi-combatant brawls (when she doesn't get too distracted by punching one particular guy repeatedly), though I havenât re-watched all her episodes with an eye to that.
She definitely seems like she has that tenuous advantage that you get when you can and will do bizarre and stupid things in a heartbeat - harder to predict and sometimes the crazy plan turns out really well. But the flipside is you might want someone more around for when they don't.
(Iâm inclined to think that Buffy would eventually win a rematch with Kendra, just as she eventually won against Faith, by having the optimal blend of emotion and discipline⌠though I'm also inclined to think maybe if Kendra suddenly got a lot more emotional or Faith found a source of discipline, that would throw her off enough for them to win. (By âinclined to thinkâ I actually mean âplanning to writeâ.))
We also know that Faith has both less Slayer experience and less training than either of the other two, though itâs implied sheâs spent a fair amount of her life surviving under fairly unstructured and dangerous conditions. She might do better surviving long term in an unpredictable and hostile environment than either of them, and I headcanon, for whatever vibes-based reason, that sheâs the fastest runner. She just has that Da Share Zone âjust walk out/you can leave/cops if youâre quickâ swag.
The mechanics of Slayer strength are deeply opaque; we see Buffy training a lot but retaining a distinctly waifish physique, and we can get into the gender politics of that another time, but I sort of figure it's like, she's not necessarily stronger all the time, so much as she has this reserve of supernatural strength she can draw on at will (this can hopefully help to explain the fairly inconsistent depictions of her strength in early seasons) and so when she's training she's drawing on that and getting better at accessing it, but because she's using the supernatural reserve it doesn't change her physical muscles much? Anyway, my reason for bringing this up is that Kendra and Faith might have more tangible muscle because they were either training hard, or running around jumping off rocks, before being Slayers. Though obviously how any of that translates to actual effective strength is going to be complicated, and depend on who's more able to access that Slayer Strength reserve.
Overall, I end up thinking (or just wanting to think) that they're fairly evenly matched, with contrasting strengths and weaknesses that would make them a good team. They might be able to bicker endlessly about who is The Superior Slayer but never definitively resolve it.
Starting a new section of Fix Her Eventually, with vampire Willow finally getting that soul they've been threatening her with.
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âOk look, Carmilla, Iââ that name sounded so wrong and so familiar, but the other Willow must have seen how she flinched, with a strange laugh in the back of her mind, and she corrected herself, âI mean Willow, you just have to listen, I know this is all very strange and scary but I can explain everything, I promise. I have diagrams!â
She held up a pad of paper, on which were some very detailed and complicated looking timelines.
âOk.â She managed to squeak out a response. She liked the idea of seeing a diagram. That might help.Â
âSo, first off, uh, magic is real. I know itâs hard to accept at first.â Willow nodded slowly. Yeah, actually it explains a lot. There had been a giant praying mantis at school, and a box of infinite spiders at city hall, and there was⌠something wrong with this this Kendra girl that she couldnât quite remember. Plus, of course, there were two of her.Â
âAnd, um, due to a spell going wrong⌠or rather, uh, two different spells both going wrong and the, uh, the interaction, plus the amplification of the Hellmouth, uh⌠you got duplicated. So thereâs two of us.â
This all sounded⌠sort of right? Like it was connecting with memories she still couldnât fully process.Â
âSo youâre really me? Not, like, a shapeshifting impostor?âÂ
âYeah! Of course Iâm really me!â The other her looked cute when she got angry, the same way Willow had sometimes been told she looked cute when she got angry. âWe just, uh, we sort of lived divergent versions of the last three years or so.â
âOkâŚâ She thought she could see the exit, a narrow opening in the rock over there. Something in her head said we can make it out of here...Â
âOh, and, as part of the divergence, one of us got turned into a vampire.â Willowâs eyes widened.Â
âYouâre a vampire?â But of course it made sense that this was her as a vampire: more confident, more in control, dressed in black robes like a creature of the night, and radiating, now that she thought of it, an almost palpable sexual magnetism. And that must be why her merest touch produced such intoxicatingly nightmarish visionsâŚ
But the other Willow was shaking her head apologetically.
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On my recent Buffy rewatch Iâve kind of discovered that I am a Kendra fan. Before this I always thought Kendra was alright, I didnât have anything against her, but I also didnât really notice her. At least not beyond thinking that it was cool that there was a second slayer. Iâm not certain why rewatching it made a difference, but now I really like her. I appreciate her more as a character, and wish we had more of her. She was only in like four episodes, right? So, anyway, I was thinking about why it was that I didnât really notice her absence, why I didnât miss her as much.
Bookmarked this a couple of weeks ago and wanted to come back to it during a break in the rewatch. I think I'm on record as thinking Kendra and Faith would potentially connect very well, even while also contrasting very sharply. I think the basic link is that even though they're very different from each other and from Buffy, they share a basic worldview (we're here to slay vampires, that's pretty cool, let's do it and do it well, everything else is an add-on) that they could each see the other fitting into.
In that regard, in some ways, they're more similar to each other than they are to Buffy, who has a more conflicted relationship to her Slayerness - not just in feeling it as a burden because of how it contrasts with the happy 'normal life' that she expected (and that neither Faith nor Kendra was raised to expect), but also because that outside perspective gives her an anchor from which to question and challenge it, with the vampire boyfriends being just one instance of that.
(Note that when Faith blows off the Watchers, it's largely without any worked out plans or policies or values in mind - she just says "we're the Slayers, we have the power, we make the law". We don't see Kendra break bad and crash out and go rogue, but you can imagine that for her, similarly, it would be sort of chaotic and nihilistic, because she's never had to develop principles independent of authority)
(Though "Kendra rejects the Watchers' Council" might be a great plotline for season 2 of "Kendra the Vampire Slayer", if @badwolfwho1 can get it renewed...)
I think you might argue that this basic affinity between Faith and Kendra is the natural result of them both having the same fundamental concept, to mirror Buffy, by exhibiting a Slayer who replaces her ambivalence about Slaying with enthusiasm.
They differ in how exactly they do that, accentuating different aspects of Slayerhood, and by extension of the supernatural half of the show - Kendra the ancient traditions and quasi-religious discipline side, Faith the raw emotion and bloodlust side. Both of which, of course, are also two sides of how the show presents vampires themselves, reflecting the underlying sense that being a Vampire Slayer makes Buffy not entirely unlike a vampire herself.
(And they also differ in how seriously the writers take them: I argued during the rewatch of season 2 that Kendra's character is sort of built out of superficial inversions of everything about Buffy, resulting in a bunch of unresolved contradictions that could be turned into an interesting character but aren't one yet. Whereas Faith, thankfully, is given an actual arc, a fairly clear set of internal conflicts and a trajectory that makes dramatic sense.)
This is also making me wonder about whether there's a parallel question to ask about two characters who, just as Kendra and Faith mirror and intensify Buffy's slayerhood in contrasting ways, but never meet, instead mirror and intensify her girlhood in contrasting ways, but never meet. Namely: would Cordelia and Dawn get along?
Had to euthanise a stray who had become a good friend today. He was a very sweet boy but untreatable FeLV turned his mouth into a mass of ulcers and he was starting to waste away from not eating.
To quote Joyce Summers: âgood-bye, stray cat who lost its way. We hope you find it.â
Final chapter of the Lavender Terror, Willow tries to outwit and take down vampire Willow. Next task: restoring her soul...
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âAlmost got me that timeâŚâ Carmilla had come a stop in front of the wall of photos, gazing thoughtfully at all the different Willows up there. âI guess you are becoming more like meâŚâ
Willow swallowed, and decided to advance The Plan.Â
âI really am.â Carmilla wheeled around in shock as Willow stepped out, wearing her almost identical outfit. Except mine doesnât open down there⌠she tried to keep her eyes on Carmillaâs face as it shifted between alarm and hope.Â
âWillow⌠you found me.âÂ
âSure did.â They smiled matching, odd, uncertain smiles at each other. Like a second first meeting, just on equal terms now. âI guessed your door code too. Just had to, uh,â she stepped closer, and Carmilla mirrored her, âtake the old me, and flip her upside down.âÂ
âWhat are you doing here?â The smirking sardonic predator was almost absent: Carmilla looked open, hopeful, vulnerable. She looks like me. And behind her, Willow could see slow, cautious movement, but she dared not focus on it. Even the slightest movement of her eyes might give Kendra away.Â
âIâve been thinking about⌠all the things you said.â She bit her lip. âThey've been running through my head and, and maybe⌠maybe youâre right. Maybe you and me, and the others, should justâŚâ The joy in Carmillaâs eyes made her feel guilty, but she was saved from having to keep lying because then Carmilla kissed her.
Itâs just like in my dreams. Except the dreams had been real, many of them, and this was real too, lips exactly like her own, even a matching temperature now, warmed by her exertions running here, soft and sweet and hungry. Her own hands on her head and her hands tangled in her own hair. For a moment, it all felt ok: maybe we really can just run away togetherâŚÂ
Then the foot came; pain in her fingers and pain in Carmillaâs voice and the impact that shook her but sent Carmilla sprawling. Kendraâs kick had achieved perfect surprise, and now she was lunging, seizing Carmilla, pulling her arms up behind her back, holding her tight.Â
âYou tricked meâŚâ Carmilla seemed dazed at first, but as she realised what had happened, she glared at Willow. The betrayal in her eyes hurt almost as much as Willowâs fingers, which she was shaking and massaging in the hope that Kendra hadnât accidentally broken them. She had to back away to avoid being caught by Carmillaâs flailing legs.Â
âYou really are becoming more like me.â Then she stopped struggling, twisted her head around (Willow still didnât understand how she could be so flexible in such restrictive clothing) and tilted it back, angling her mouth up towards Kendraâs.Â
âOr maybe you just brought a friend, because you wanted to shareâŚâ
Anyway I know nobody asked but my personal headcannon is that Faith Lehane is specifically bisexual and homoromantic.
Because throughout the show, Faith has (and talks about) a lot of sex with men. And obviously it could just be comphet, or course it can, but I do think she gets a kick out of it. However, we are told in the text itself that she does not take the relationships with those men very seriously, she doesnât have feelings for them, etc etc. So I think that Faith is bi and has been bi and has never had romantic interest in or wanted relationships with the men she had sex with, until she met Buffy Summers, who she then immediately and completely fell in love with, opening to her the fact that she Can experience love and romantic interest, but only towards women.
So I guess one more thought on "Beauty and the Beasts", which adds fuel to this question of Faith's sexuality. She's dismissive of men ("all men are beasts"), but it's clearly not been enough to stop her having sex with them fairly regularly. So "bisexual and homoromantic" makes a lot of sense.
That said, I guess I waver in my personal headcanon, because... so, I'm not asexual, but Faith is one of the people who comes to mind when I think about the idea of "sexual desire without sexual attraction."
Because it's not just that she doesn't take them seriously, it's also that she seems, so to speak, "driven towards them" by arousal rather than "drawn towards them" by the attractiveness of them themselves. They don't seem to make her horny: slaying makes her horny, and then she grabs the nearest man (e.g. Xander) because she's "ready to pop."
And obviously it's super unclear what exactly is going on because there's all these layers: she flirts with everyone including Giles and the mayor (probably as a defence/control mechanism?) and she's probably got layers of sexual trauma that only rarely escape containment (see her interactions with Riley when she's body-swapped) but I find it interesting to read her as a lesbian who sees men as a useful sort of massage chair - something that can help relieve the strong physical urges she often gets, but which doesn't inspire such urges or make her want to have the urges so that she has the opportunity to relieve them.
(Either way though, I do think there needs to be a conversation post-S3 or post-S4 or post-S7 where Willow Buffy and Faith figure out how they're the same and how they're different. They all have Sapphic desires but I think Buffy is genuinely attracted to Angel and Spike and other men, sexually and romantically, while Faith is DTF but not genuinely attracted in the same way, and Willow is... well there's a whole other discussion about Willow's lesbianism and how she does/did feel about Oz but I just think it would be fun to have them each assume the others felt basically the same way they did, and then be confused (and insecure? depending on the fic...) as they find out that they don't...)
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Part 2 of the plan to capture vampire Willow, now from Faith's point of view as she springs the ambush. [No more oral sex, but mind-controlled kisses and magic torture amulets used for interpersonal problem-solving.]
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The nearest vampire thought she was unarmed, but Buffy was slipping a stake into her hand right as he leapt over a table at her, right onto the stakeâs point. Then two more were coming at them from the side, and over behind them she saw Angel wrestling a third while Giles guarded his flank, and behind that Carmilla was slipping out the door, except that suddenly she bumped bodily intoâ
âNobody moves!âÂ
It was some guy in a suit who looked like a Ferengi, and two cops, who suddenly had guns out, pointing them around the room, trying to cover all of the nine other people present.Â
Nobody seemed to know how to respond to this. Even the vampires froze, looking at each other as if unsure who to take orders from.Â
âI knew you kids were up to something.â
The snide little man took a few steps into the room, with Carmilla yielding space a little.Â
âSnyder, get out of here.â Buffy sounded worried about him. Snyder. That rang a bell - a teacher? Someone in over their head, it seemed like.Â
âYou're not giving orders, young lady. I suppose you're going to tell me I won't find drugs if I search you and your various⌠associatesâŚâ
A note of anxiety was creeping into Snyderâs voice as he took in the fact that most of the people in this room were not students. And had visible fangs.Â
Then he looked at Carmilla, taking in her outfit and finally recognising her face.Â
âRosenberg?â Now he was looking into her eyes. Big mistake, buddy.
âSnyder, this is above your paygrade.â His eyes bulged in shock at being talked down to, then narrowed in anger, then slipped into a blank stare. âMore importantly, you wonât remember any of it.â And Carmilla just strolled past him, out the door.Â
Fuck that. Faith started towards Snyder and the door. Then everything went crazy at once.
Thoughts on Rewatching S3E04, âBeauty and the Beastsâ: This time it's not your boyfriend who's the cold-blooded jelly doughnut...
So my recollection from the first time I ever watched the show was quite liking this episode, and not minding the flaws Iâve since become more sensitive to (partly because everything with Angel coming back seemed so weird that I just stopped thinking much about themes and implications).
And the big thing I liked was that itâs just sort of neat to plot out a situation that will get three (3) different monsters, each of whom follows from their own independent plotline, and each of which is in some respect a mirror of the others, running around the same location on the same night and colliding with each other. Just, at a level of monsters and plotting I found that kind of satisfying. I also like the fake-outs and detective work: at different times we get hints that the killer is Oz, Angel, and even Debbie, and we get glimpses of how the characters would react to these different possibilities.
And to be honest I still am fond of it: I wonât say this is a good episode but for me at least itâs far more fun to watch than, say, âDead Manâs Partyâ. I do think it mishandles the domestic violence plotline in a way that ends up coming across as unpleasantly victim-blaming, and more broadly sets itself up to say something about boyfriends being a type of dangerous animal without really having a clear thing to say about that. And I think bringing Angel back is basically a bad idea, and it manages to feature Oz heavily without really characterising him much, and Debbie and Pete being longstanding friends of Scott is sort of a weird choice given that he will seemingly have completely forgotten their brutal deaths next episode (as @coraniaid says, itâs recreating the Jesse problem). And yet still I sort of like this episode.
So I guess this post, which I hope I can get posted in one go before I go insane, will be a (qualified) defence of "Beauty and the Beasts"?
Ok so I guess Iâll start with the bad bits. I think there are sort of three actively bad things here (as opposed to missed opportunities to do something better).
Three Bad Things
One is Angel coming back at all. Partly itâs just, havenât we had enough of this guy? Heâs been a big deal for two seasons, whether or not to kill him was a huge plot point, he got his flashbacks and his chance to end the world and his climactic dramatic moment. Itâs a lot more than most characters get! And now heâs back. Maybe this is just me but Iâd have preferred all the time and energy he sucks up to be distributed to other characters or monsters. It also does cheapen all the drama and tragedy of âBecomingâ and the last few episodes and the summer in between⌠itâs like with Jesus, if he was only dead for 3 days/3 episodes, the grand sacrifice suddenly doesnât seem quite as grand.
(And the attempt to give it back its weight by suggesting that he was in a hell world for âhundreds of yearsâ is just transparently cheap, and never mentioned again.)
But that said, I prefer the feral version of him in this episode to the version we get later in the season. If heâs going to come back, at least make him a mindless ravening beast for a while. At least until âRevelationsâ! Let the whole gang see feral Angel being kept as Buffyâs pet, let them wrestle with whether to be scared that heâs out of control and dangerous or sympathetic that heâs so broken after what heâs been through.
(Iâve seen people say that itâs weird to have him turn up to âsaveâ Buffy from Pete, though from where Iâm sitting it doesnât look like Buffy was losing. Pete was getting some hits in, but the bad guys always do, right before she beats them. If anything, Angel just saves her from the moral quandary of what to do with Pete, by killing him brutally during a convenient bout of frenzy.)
Instead they bring him back and very soon heâs talking and walking and being his old self again, and that feels like the worst way to do it.
(And! As @badwolfwho1 says, he did just kill a teenager. Plus⌠at least one other person? Thereâs blood on his mouth when Buffy first meets him⌠I guess everybody figured it would be rude to bring that up later⌠but seriously who's blood is that?)
(Actually, now I think about it, a version of âRevelationsâ with feral Angel would actually be really fun, because Willow and Xander get to see vividly the effects of their joint dubious interventions - Willowâs soul spell and Xanderâs lie. And I sort of feel like the writers contrived both âRevelationsâ and âDead Manâs Partyâ to maximise angst on Buffy in particular, when I think spreading it around a bit would be more interesting. To me at least.)
Ok so thatâs one problem. The other is Pete and Debbie. Pete is so consistently horrible to her, and then Buffy is so brutally harsh, and then sheâs murdered by her boyfriend. Itâs unpleasant to watch and the fact that 1) our very protagonist was calling her âbrokenâ shortly before her death, and 2) everyone has forgotten about her shortly after her death, between them mean thatâs no particular sense of catharsis or tragedy about it.
And this feeds into the third problem, which is a bit broader. The episode has this threefold mirroring among beast-man monsters, but of course theyâre not just beasts: theyâre boyfriends. Violent, destructive, monstrous boyfriends whose girlfriends all, in different ways, go out of their way to defend and exculpate them. It throws in lots of meta-commentary drawing out those parallels as well, readings from âthe call of the wildâ and Faith insisting that âall men are beastsâ and so on.
All of which really really sets it up to deliver a Message, Lesson, Moral, or something. About domestic violence and the girlfriends who defend their violent boyfriends. Which is a tricky and sensitive topic, and the episode⌠doesnât actually have anything coherent to say beyond âdomestic violence is badâ?
I sort of feel like it doesnât have a coherent message in part because itâs stuffed in so many mirrors and woven together so many quite different creatures. It's too rich to be coherent, we might charitably say. Angel and Oz and Pete are very different, in multiple ways, and so there isnât really anything sensible to say about, e.g. Willowâs relationship with Oz that would also apply to Debbieâs relationship with Pete. And then Buffyâs relationship with Angel is so many different things that it just complicates further.
And of course one way to read the episode is that the differences are the point. Despite the mirroring, Pete and Oz are opposites (hence the scene of Oz being concerned and gentle with Debbie), and Angel is ambiguous between the two at this point (hence Buffy doesnât know if sheâs being more like Willow or more like Debbie). Maybe this is the point of Gilesâ âtwo types of monstersâ speech: Oz and Pete and Angel all have a monstrous side but Oz sees his as something he needs to redeem and compensate for and control, while Pete actively embraces his and wants to use it to control Debbie. Angel pre-Surprise was seeking redemption, Angel post-Surprise was actively rejecting it, and Angel now is ambiguous.
But I think even if this is the intention, the episode bungles it, in two ways. One is just that I donât think it manages to get any clear message to come across, with the frenetic action and multiple sudden reversals. But the deeper problem is that this is a terrible way to think about domestic violence. The âgood boyfriendâ is absolutely not the one who is apologetic and tortured about what happens when his âinner beastâ comes out, who bewails the violence theyâre capable of but asks plaintively for your help in controlling it. Thatâs just the bad boyfriend shifting tactics to get you to stay with him. Itâs a good model for a werewolf! But men are not in fact werewolves, and it is in fact possible - indeed easy - to just never be a physical threat to your loved ones at all.
Like, I think it was ultimately just kind of a mistake to make the âuncontrollable beast withinâ episode and the âdomestic violenceâ episode be the same one. It has the effect that you end up either saying âPete is basically like Ozâ or âhereâs how Pete is different from Ozâ and both of those buy into the bad framing.
(Or, if you wanted to have both of those themes here, I think it would actually have been better to go with âDebbie drank the serum and committed the murdersâ, but otherwise keep everything the same. Pete is still an abusive POS but heâs the only one who really is, as Buffy puts it, not under the influence of anything except himself.)
Anyway so thatâs the problems, and I think theyâre significant. But what about the good bits? Again I think there are three big ones.
Three Good Things
The first is that, despite everything I just said, I feel like there is actually a pretty fun and coherent theme here. This is the episode about keeping your loved one as a pet.
Like, I find the first scene fun and charming, with Willow keeping her boyfriend in a cage and giving instructions on how to look after him like a parody of a millennial âcat parentâ (read him stories but leave out the parts about rabbits, he gets too excited!). As I said, I think Angel is more fun in this episode than in the episodes before or after. Itâs a lot of naked people growling and getting chained up or caged. Thatâs a fun topic to explore.
(You might be tempted to draw inferences about my... proclivities from this. And yes, those inferences would be entirely correct! But this isnât purely a kink thing, so much as⌠I like thinking about relationships and power and control, and situations where those things are pushed to extremes are fun and interesting to me. YMMV, of course.)
Itâs just that unlike domestic violence, human pets are not a real thing. There are no real situations where the right and appropriate thing to do is to start treating a rational human being like a dangerous animal while also still loving them like a precious pet. Itâs a pure fantasy theme, like mind control or Doppelgängers, and while you can try to suggest real-life parallels (as this episode does, in a way that I've said is a big mistake) you can also treat it as a sci-fi hypothetical to run with, or a fantasy to enjoy, or whatever else.
From the perspective of this theme, the question for Buffy is whether to keep her boyfriend as a pet or euthanise him. The episode isnât super explicit about this but I think you can absolutely read the last ten to twenty minutes as her getting ready to make the hard decision to put him down: talking to Giles about how anyone coming out of that experience would be a âlost causeâ, the tearful confession to Platt, the semi-self-directed monologue to Debbie about how people are dying and you have to stop protecting him. I mean, imagine the angst! She has to kill him again? And itâs better because now she knows heâs at peace but still⌠And she just wants to do it and get it done before anyone finds out because she canât bear a second round of everyone else weighing in on what to do with him and blaming her for not already having done what they want her to do.
But then at the end he says her name and gets himself moved off the euthanasia list. I sort of like this reading although it feels like it would work a lot better if spread over a few episodes.
(I think you could also, maybe, read the lesson for Debbie as: if your pet has aggression issues, the responsibility is on you to take control of it. This boyfriend thinks heâs in charge and that puts you and him and everyone else in danger - you need to enlist Slayers and cages and tranquilizers and whatever else to keep him in check. Put a collar on that boy and teach him to heel. Which, uh, I personally find a fun message but I know isnât really applicable to real-life abusive relationshipsâŚ)
Um ok so thatâs one thing I liked. A second thing, noted above, is that I just enjoy this type of plotline: multiple monsters, open questions about whoâs behind a given killing, investigation of suspects, at the end the monsters fight one another. I donât think this episode always has the most watertight plotting but I also donât think itâs done egregiously badly.
@coraniaid points out that itâs sort of weird for a lethally dangerous werewolf to be locked up in a cage that apparently Hyde-Pete can break open, with only one person watching them, inside a public school. And does Oz really not have any family he can involve? Whatâs going on with baby Jordy? Why does Pete apparently have a secret lab thatâs just a⌠place in the school? Why does Pete kill his first target in the woods? How does Angel find Buffy and Pete? What exactly does Buffy tell everyone about Peteâs death? (An extremely convenient death because with that werewolf bite, he was about to become some sort of Jekyll-Hyde-werewolf-combo thingâŚ)
But I guess those donât seem especially problematic to me, the way that (e.g.) I complained about the unrealistic choices in âPassionâ undermining the episode. There, the whole theme was about whether people were making sensible rational decisions, or giving in to passion, so having so many people running around with the idiot ball was a problem. Here, it feels like what weâre shown is an acceptable approximation of a realistic version of what theyâre trying to convey?
Like, with Ozâs lycanthropy, the basic idea is: Oz recognises it as a problem that requires him to submit to unusual restrictions and monitoring by his friends; they pitch in good-naturedly to do this, the system largely works when not interfered with (e.g. by a Hyde-strengthed opponent actively trying to break him out), but sometimes leads to scares due to unforeseen complications. This works as a contrast to Pete (and people like Veruca), itâs interesting, itâs presented with a certain cobbled-together casualness but thatâs sort of par for the course in the âhigh school students save the worldâ show. Realistically it probably wouldn't be exactly like this but I actually think it would be pretty similar - there would be a tendency for people to get lax once it became habitual, a risk of unforeseen complications that create scares or allow people to mess it up, that's just life.
(And I actually don't think Angel finding Buffy is that hard to explain, he's probably imprinted both on her smell and on whatever mystical ring-link pulled him out of hell...)
The final thing I really liked is Mr. Platt - whoâs so charming and pleasant that Iâm not sure if he or Buffy should be considered the titular âbeautyâ. Their first conversation is fun with the layers of irony (âdemons can be foughtâ), but more importantly he clearly does succeed in offering Buffy something she needs because she comes back and says specifically that she canât tell Willow or Giles (was there ever a time when Xander would be on that list?) and needs his help. Itâs pretty hearbreaking, as well as creepy, when she realises, from the cigarette, that heâs dead - a very effective scene and a meaningful advancement of the "Buffy is being ratcheted closer to clinical depression every few episodes" plot arc.
Miscellanea
Ok let me also just list random funny lines of interesting observations or just odd things:
This is not a very good werewolf costume, is it? I donât know whether I choose to pretend Oz always looked like this, or headcanon that the exact degree and form of transformation can vary and shift, and so this version is him transformed a little bit less than in âPhasesâ, a little bit more human and a little bit less wolf.
Platt warns Buffy against becoming âloveâs dogâ, in four episodeâs time Spike will proudly declare himself âloveâs bitch.â
Another odd paralleling is that Oz storms off and tries to explain that heâs doing so when Willow stops him; in âDoppelganglandâ Willow tries to storm off and has to explain that sheâs doing so when Buffy stops her.
âPoker? Not your game.â
âClearly itâs a depraved sadistic animal.â âPresent.â
Then the callback to Willowâs doughnuts: âI may be a cold-blooded jelly doughnut but my timingâs impeccableâ
Oz does get a lot of good lines this episode. We even get a bit more emoting from him!
I am a simple person, âtimeâs up; rules changeâ gets me.
Faith is around a lot, as a general source of music, careless punches, and âgood down-low ticklesâ. I am not the first to point out that the very first thing we see her do is wander through the graveyard with Buffy, her fellow teen, and ask âsay, do you think teens have sex in this graveyard?â
Giles getting shot in the leg accidentally by an ally for a second time is funny, and the delivery of âbloody priceless!â is excellent.
Ok but I guess just to dwell briefly on the interdimensional stuff:
âThereâs no record of someone returning from a demon dimension once the gate was closedâ
Itâs sort of odd Buffy doesnât mention having been in a demon dimension just a couple of weeks ago? I mean, sure, the gate closed, itâs not like she returned post-closing. But the gate didnât seem like a big deal, it seems like people can make them pretty easily.
In my discussion of âAnneâ I suggested that small temporary one-demon gates are probably not that hard to make, and the thing that called Angel back closed as soon as it spat him out, so⌠the only real challenge would seem to be getting the gate to be in the right spot for Angel to go through. And it seems pretty plausible that demon-summoning gate-opening spells might work off of emotionally-significant objects like the Claddagh ring, so what Iâm building up to here is⌠maybe there is no missing grand explanation of why Angel came back or what grand power of good or evil is responsible?
Maybe someone in Acathlaâs dimension just got tired of him being around and made a quick portal to toss him through, and he landed on top of the Claddagh ring because that was the most salient location in this dimension? Like lightning hitting the tallest point?
Or⌠maybe Buffy just inadvertently performed a summoning spell: thinking of him, and leaving the ring there, in the specific location where he vanished, maybe during a chance fluctuation in the interdimensional solar flare radiation levels or something, happened to be just enough to create a little vortex that pulled him through. Maybe interdimensional portals are just messy like that?
The gang initiate their final complex plan to trap and capture vampire Willow! Spread over three chapters, this first one from Buffy's POV as she tries an initial subterfuge in the high school cafeteria. [Ends with mind control and oral sex, quelle surprise]
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âWell, this is exciting, isn't it?â Carmilla sauntered out into the moonlight that came through the windows, in that iconic corset. God she looks good, Buffy tried not to think. She had to stay focused. âClandestine meetings by dark of nightâŚ. feels like we should all be wearing trench coats.â
âI just want to make a deal.â
âRight⌠Unless this is just a ruse!â Now she pretended to look scared. âTo, to draw me out so you can c-, c-, capture meâŚâ
Carmillaâs look of fearful innocence was pitch-perfect Willow.Â
Buffy tried not to give anything away. âIf it was, youâd be stupid to walk right into it, wouldnât you?â
âIâm not completely unprepared, you knowâŚâ Carmilla reached behind her, and pulled out a handgun, tossed it casually from hand to hand. Buffy stiffened. She had dealt with gun-toting vampires before, it wasnât impossible, just⌠less forgiving. Canât afford to be slow. She tried to sound confident. Â
âLook, you want this orb? You can have it, if you get out of town and never contact Willow again. This obsession is destroying her.âÂ
Carmilla slid the gun back into her waistband and kept stalking forwards. âOh, I see. Youâre jealousâŚâÂ
Buffy scowled. âIâm worried. Sheâs a wreck and everyone else is at each othersâ throats. Weâve got an Ascension to stop, we canât afford all this⌠this drama.âÂ
Carmilla cocked her head thoughtfully. She was on the opposite side of the table, studying Buffyâs face closely. Staring deep into her eyes. Sheâs going to try it. Buffy braced herself, and felt the tug at the back of her mind, the fraying at the edges, like her psyche was trying to cast off awareness like a snake shedding its skin.Â
âNope.â She blinked, tightened her mind like a fist. âI killed your daddy, Carmilla, and he was a better hypnotist than you.âÂ
Carmilla smiled, calculatingly. âI can see why Willow was so obsessed with you...â Buffyâs gut clenched. Sheâs trying to rattle you. She decided to try rattling back.Â
âWhat do you mean âwasâ?â The calculating smile flickered for a moment, then resumed.Â
Kind of a random thought as I keep trying to get started on my fic but it strikes me that Xander's hatred of Nazis is very likely at least partly because his best friend is Jewish.
It's not a huge plot point but there's a swastika on the wall in his nightmare in season one. He talks about hating Nazis several times.
And sure, it's common to hate Nazis (unless you happen to be a billionaire techbro or MAGA I guess) but he's pretty protective of Willow and it'd make sense to me that his intense hatred and fear of Nazis is tied into that.
He even says "Nobody messes with my Willow" in The Pack, after saving her. I'm sure that extends to Nazis.
Like I said, it's not even close to a major plot point but there are several mentions throughout the show. Nothing definitive that it's directly tied to Willow but it wouldn't be surprising if his love for her played a part in it.
I totally headcanon this now, but also I think it speaks to the contrast between them - when Willow mentions being Jewish it's generally *not* about Nazis, it's about omnipresent cultural Christianity (not celebrating Christmas, not teaching her symbolic egg "Christian values", etc.), but Xander focuses on Nazis because he wants there to be a bad guy to defeat, a physical threat to stand up to rather than a complex framework to analyse. It's still very endearing but it's filtered through their different worldviews...
Fic update: Research leads to a breakthrough in understanding why vampire Willow can enter Willow's bedroom uninvited, and suggests a way to turn it against her. Also more BDSM.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
âHere.â Kendra pointed at the page, and the other two crowded around. âIf this translation is to be believed, a Bodhisattva travelled backwards through time to repair the damage caused in an earlier age by his previous incarnation as a vampire.âÂ
Willow stared at the English annotations beside the Pali. âIt⌠it says that he was surprised when the vampire entered a house where he had been staying and slew all the inhabitants.â She glanced up. âWait, are Bodhisattvas real?âÂ
âAlmost everything is real, almost nothing is fully understood,â her master replied, âthese annals are probably 50% accurate records of what people at the time thought was happening, but if we believe them then it sounds like by inviting him in, they also invited in the vampire.â Â
âRight,â Willow was nodding thoughtfully, âbecause they were the same person, just time-displaced.â
âSo it is indeed a result of her status as your Doppelgänger.â Kendra concluded.Â
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Thoughts on Rewatching S3E03, âFaith, Hope, and Trickâ (3/3): We could fit right in here. Have us some fun.
Ok, scraping in just before watching the next episode, I wanted to say a bit about the villains in this episode, and more broadly about the⌠the plight. The menace. The ambient situation of imminent peril. How are life and death, in general, in Sunnydale, at the beginning of season 3?
But letâs start with the tragedy of Mr. Trick. Seasons 1 and 2 both make a point of introducing both a second Slayer (Kendra/Faith) and a self-consciously modern vampire (Spike/Mr. Trick). It is somewhat aggrieving that in both cases itâs the White one who survives to season 7 and beyond and the Black one who dies after only featuring in a few episodes.
But the thing about Trick is that he does actually get to show off his distinctive skills a few times, theyâre just not very spotlight-grabbing. In this episode, he assures Kakistos that heâs checking records in order to find Faith⌠and a little bit later Kakistos turns up at her door. In episode 5 he succeeds at putting at least one Slayer exactly where he wants her to be, for other people to ambush. In episode 6 he brings in Ethan Rayne to organise the whole baby-stealing distraction. I think we can probably assume that heâs the only reason Kakistos was even able to follow Faith to this particular town. He knows how to handle information and put people in the right place at the right time. But in none of those cases is he front and centre, so his role can be easy to miss.
What this brings out is that heâs a schemer, not a heavy-hitter. Schemers need heavy-hitters to go out and hit things, but his problem at the beginning of this episode is that the heavy-hitter (Kakistos) is in charge, and so the schemer canât properly scheme. Trick needed some heavy-hitting minions, and he never really got that: instead he swiftly falls into the orbit of the mayor, another schemer.
And the other part of why Trickâs arc in season 3 feels sort of disappointing is how it ends. His boss (who clearly would prefer a more simple-minded heavy-hitter, see how much he loves Faith) panics and mismanages him, sending him after Two Slayers at once as if heâs a heavy-hitter. He manages to work some scheming into it - he almost takes Buffy out because he managed to hit her with a cargo crate before ambushing her with a band of minions. But ultimately he dies acting like a minion. Which, honestly, is a waste.
And (if itâs not overly woke to accuse mass-murdering immortal sorcerers of racism) you could definitely look at this as: old White dude falls victim to stereotype and fails to make proper use of his intellectual Black underling, instead treating them like a muscle bound goon.
(Alternatively, you might think the mayor was being very deliberate - a too-smart minion is a potential liability, who knows what too-smart ideas he might get into his head, so send him on a suicide mission. I guess this is an exculpatory reading of the mayor - rather an âI can excuse treachery and murder, but I draw the line at racismâ moment...)
Either way, he dies, and because heâs stayed in the shadows so effectively, the protagonists donât even see it as a big deal when they kill him: itâs secondary to their evolving situationship.
Anyway, focusing back on this episode, Trick is a lot of fun to watch even if he doesnât quite go anywhere: ordering diet soda and then eating the worker is funny, likewise I love the sun-proof glove for pulling delivery guys through doorways. Heâs also a great foil for Kakistos, whoâs like an exaggerated dumber version of the Master. A vampire so old even Giles recognises his name!
I will say though, I feel like I remember him being a bit bigger and more imposing than he actually turns out to be: heâs big, sure, but⌠hmm. I think I somehow got the idea he had horns?
(Also I continue to be unsure what sort of wounds vampires can and can't heal from - presumably Angel's chest isn't still riddled with holes from Darla's bullets and Faith's crossbow bolt, that sort of thing heals up, but then why is Kakistos's eye wound unhealed?)
But also just to zoom out from these particular vampires, itâs notable that this is the first time in a while that Sunnydale has had no big boss vampire around - until now itâs been the Master, then the Anointed One, then Spike, then Angelus, and now finally itâs no-one. The Scooby team over the summer were specifically trying to âkeep vampire numbers lowâ, suggesting that they are in fact low. So this seems to be a relative lull in vampire numbers, at least.
(Not as low as immediately after âProphecy Girlâ: Xander says in S2E01 that the vampire that attacks them is the first one theyâve seen since the Masterâs death, though admittedly Angel later in that episode says that the Anointed One âhas been gathering forces somewhere in townâ.)
(But lower than in the mild lull between season 3 and season 4 - Buffy comaplains in S4E01 that âIt's been a very slay-heavy summer. I just haven't had a whole lot of time to think about life at UC Sunnydale.â)
So in terms of vampire numbers, this might be the most depopulated the townâs been in a while - there are a few around, but with no-one to lead them, actively recruit/sire more, or help them hide and build up strength undetected. So right now this might actually be a relatively easy place for Kakistos and Trick to move into and take over.
Except that there is a big boss, in the form of the mayor⌠except that he was mayor during the last two years too, and that didnât stop vampire bosses bossing the vampires around. So my read is something like: the mayor prioritises secrecy first, stability second. When thereâs a boss vampire, that both provides a way to stabilise and monitor vampire activities, and also makes it more costly to intervene - fighting them for control would draw too much attention. When thereâs no boss vampire, then taking direct control is both easier and more necessary to maintain stability. So for the last few years heâs been happy to manipulate from the shadows, but now this year he steps in to take more direct control. And as the Ascension approaches he's more willing to take risks to secure control. Maybe if his Ascension clock had been pushed back by one year, we could have ended up with a season of Mr. Trick as the boss vampire?
(This also raises some interesting questions about the shift you start to see in this season, with less danger from vampires and more from obviously inhuman demons⌠much to dwell on for an aspiring diablo-ecologistâŚ)
A few other loosely-connected thoughts:
Joyce hates knowing that Buffy is in near-constant physical danger and has temporarily died. Youâd think she might also be a little worried that her friend Pat also died and didnât even properly come back, and that she lives in âzombies might crash your partyâ-dale. As Mr. Trick says, the murder rate here is exceptionally high, and âain't nobody saying boo about it.â Which is in some ways a cheap shot about the overly-episodic nature of the show, but also does sort of get to the heart of the issue. Buffy being the Slayer in itself doesnât add any danger to her life: it removes danger (it lets her defend herself when zombies crash her party). What adds danger is going out to hunt monsters, and the reason she does that is to reduce the danger that random Bronze-goers and regular women like Pat (and Joyce!) would otherwise be in. The danger doesnât come from Buffy, it comes from the fact that there are monsters everywhere, and thereâs something a bit blinkered about Joyce ignoring that to focus on the danger that falls specifically on Buffy.
Which⌠again, to some extent Iâm just pointing out that an episodic show is episodic, Joyce has to be somewhat blinkered and overly-protective to play her appointed role. But I also think this is sort of going to be the tension between them all season, that Joyce sees monsters and vampires as a Buffy thing, and latently as a Buffy problem, rather than adjusting her view of the entire world and then recognising Buffy as responding rationally and responsibly to that (utterly utterly terrifying) new world. Which is pretty relatable, actually? You make people aware of a systematic problem, and their perception is that you are the problemâŚ
But maybe, Joyce suggests, Buffy could hand over the responsibility of dealing with that world to Faith? (As Buffy said after meeting Kendra, âmaybe I can say, Kendra, you slay, Iâm going to Disneyland.â) I think this is a really interesting idea, and thereâs both a logic to it - Faith âlovesâ slaying, Buffy often complains about it - and a fairly ugly undercurrent. The nice middle-class girl shouldnât have to put herself in danger - she has college to go to! Wouldnât it make more sense for the girl from the broken home, with the storied past and the loose morals, whoâs not going to college anyway, to do it? Isnât she more suitable, more⌠dispensable? Of course thatâs sort of the ugliness of the whole Slayer gig, she dies so that others donât, but at least there youâve got a mathematical justification for it: one Slayer can save many many lives. When itâs just one life for one life it does convey a lot more about whose life matters more, and of course Joyce can be forgiven for prioritising her own daughter's life butâŚ
And I sort of wish that Faith had heard more of this planning, at some point, because I think she would pick up on that undercurrent and⌠i donât know if sheâd be enthusiastic (replacing Buffy!) or resentful (doing Buffyâs dirty work!) or both, probably it depends on exactly what state sheâs in when she hears it.
Um, this is getting long. Acathla is still around. I feel like I should have something to say about that but I sort of just like it, "yeah that statue in Gilesâs garden could end the world but we have more pressing things to worry about right now." I had fun in this post imagining some minor villains getting hold of it and falling apart arguing over who is or isnât âworthyâ to awaken it, but instead its role in this episode is a prop in Gilesâs little ruse to get Buffy to share what happened with Angel. Which, for the record, I do really like, itâs an excellent little sequence and so much nicer than having Xander at a party lecturing her about âboy troublesâ and what she âput her mom throughâ but no, I am not going to think about Dead Manâs Party, it is a bad episode. Instead I am just going to post this and immediately go and watch âBeauty and the Beastsâ, because that is⌠hmm⌠well.