Bryan's Blog

Reminders for the Anxious/Depressed Creatives

Doctor Who: S12e06: Praxeus:

Does Go have Spark on a leash!!? LMAO

I don’t want someone who doesn’t want me completely. I don’t want to just have sex, yeah fucking would be awesome, but not if that’s all someone wants from me. I want someone who tries to figure out my mind and wants to see the beauty I see in the world. I can’t have someone who only wants a part of me, I need someone who remembers the little things I do or tell them; someone who thinks the world of me. I want to have all the things that I want to give someone else.

WHEN MY FAMILY DISCOVERS I DO NOT LOVE THE WAY THEY TAUGHT ME TO LOVE When my mother asks Are you gay? I tell her I am sorry. When she asks How can you possibly love something that looks just like you do? I wonder how long she has hated herself. My sister shakes me by the shoulders and says: Mom will never be the mother you need her to be. She cannot give you the love you deserve to receive. This is something I am trying to accept. My mom insists she doesn’t mind the glitter, just the mess it’s left all over the house. She doesn’t mind my sexuality, just how it sticks to the furniture. She is not angry at me- just exhausted. Now, there is so much to clean before we have company.