oh honey

being alive is so fucking scary but god do i love to love!!!! i love to love!!! i was put here to love. so much of life is so uncertain and unpredictable. but my love will be constant if i let it.

oh i get it now i made mistakes that made my life fundamentally more painful so that i could be more devastated by poetry

grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

you lament how it hurts to be misunderstood, but do you realize how frightening it will be the moment you are understood. are you ready to not retreat when it happens

stop playing it cool, just be passionate and intense and insane and whoever sticks around is meant for you