bread + butter

“Rindu ku memang untukmu. Tapi aku tidak akan menyerahkannya begitu saja. Rinduku, rindu mahal. Yang hanya dapat ditukar dengan ijab qabul dan mahar.”

Dear person reading this, 

Feel it, understand it, overcome it.

My mother taught me the power of tahhajud since I was a little girl. She told me that when life gets hard, the last third of the night holds the keys to my ease. Til this day, I race fajr by a few minutes to soak my palms and my feet- and come to You in desperation and need. I tell You my secrets though they are already planted in Your knowledge. ‘My Lord, I am aching. My Lord, I am breaking. My Lord I have wronged you. My Lord, I have wronged myself. Please take me back. Please don’t leave me. Oh Opener of ways, open for me a path out of my self inflicted despair!“ And surely enough, my mother’s wisdom and Your infinite mercy saves my undeserving soul from self destruction.