BPD Problems Ahead

Love when everyone in my life confirms that i am indeed an asshole on a SINGLE day

My parents keep yelling at me about falling being on household chores... I am literally passing all of my classes (I have not missed one), I’m on the speech and debate team at my college where I’ve been placing and winning, I’m working on my mid term papers, I just started working at a new job, I’m trying to be there for my family, and on top of all of that I’m trying not to kms.

It’s really hard to explain and justify the high highs and low lows when they’re back to back.

I cried so hard last night that I had a headache that lasted the whole day 

Well I just proved to myself I’m a toxic friend. A while ago I had a realization that I’m the problem not other people. And this caused me to distance myself from everyone. I guess I did it so much that one of my friends said she was stalking my moms Facebook to make sure I wasn’t dead. She also just showed up to my house randomly to make sure I wasn’t dead. She tried to reconnect and in a positive way I basically was like sorry no. And she said that she’s going to keep checking up on me but I know if I keep holding out she will eventually move on. I just need everyone to move on from me. I’m so tired of being the villain.