vent/mental health tracking blog. tw for most things. more information below but that's mostly for me keeping track of myself, may show it to a therapist someday but i would have to translate all of it lol.
possible disorders/conditions: bpd (suspected since 2023? been showing symptoms since 2019), autism (suspected since 2024, been showing symptoms since childhood), depression (suspected since 2024, been showing symptoms since 2020), hyperromanticism (suspected since 2023, been showing symptoms since 2022), asocial behavior (heavily affects my life, probably caused by autism, became aware of it since 2025, been showing aspects of it since 2022), poor memory (affects my life less than everything else listed, but it's still prominent, probably caused by depression, became aware of it since 2024, been showing aspects of it since 2021).
unhealthy habits: self harming (more specifically cutting, last time i did it was 15/03/25. started cutting since 13/12/23), drinking (always has been done around friends that have taken care of me, huge lightweight though i only realized that the second time, last time i did it was 7/02/25. started some time in 2023), complete avoidance of people (i'm counting this since it never really helps me with anything but make me feel worse, don't remember the last time i did it but it may have been around 2024, started since 2022).
tags: #mr - stream of consciousness when i need an outlet or just regular posts, #solace - things that bring me a sense of comfort and/or that make me happy, may vary from day to day experiences, art by other people and more, #rb - reblogs of posts not made by me, will vary in contents.
