I Am Alive

One thing about depression is the discomfort you feel all the time. Not sure if its physical, emotional or both. But you just feel like somethings wrong all the damn time and its scary how you end up getting used to it.

hey guys I made a quiz to see which of the 4 BPD subtypes you are!! 

I hate being hyper-vigilant and anxious. I hate thinking that everyone hates me all the time. I hate that I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hate that I'm constantly tired. I hate that I flitch when you're angry. I hate how stupid I am. I hate myself.

I dont want to do anything bc I am embarrassed. Im embarrassed of everything. The way I look. The way I talk. The things I say. What my eyes are doing. The clothes im wearing. Even my thoughts are embarrassing. It doesnt matter whether or not people can tell what im thinking, they do and im embarrassed of it.

I’m really bad at conversations sorry if I’ve ever talked to you

ok but do you understand how exhausting it is for me to never get a break from me

who was i before sadness and stress