If I didn't write, I'd probably kill more.

Another week another 2 people ghost me FFS. Am I such a CUNT? #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth £80 a month is all I can afford so 2-3 hours a week Don't even need to read the fucking scripts Post script to website Take photos of pages 1 and 2 Post to instagram Wait for 5 minutes When post appears on Facebook timeliness, share to Facebook page Post to twitter Post to tumblr Drink coffee, chat on instagram and Facebook, make friends, talk my scripts up. I can teach you You can tell me you have better ideas I'm so FUCKING frustrated with this shit. I could do it myself but if I think social media is get stressed and don't write. Help meeeeeeeeeeeee Peter (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBfjl1oFjDV/?igshid=9gbxt57je9tx

ASSUME = ASS of U + ME #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill So angry this morning Proverb = he who chases two rabbits catches neither. I write comedy but writing NEEDS social media. I enjoy talking to people but I can't promote me. I need help I need an ordinary person Not a genius Not a superstar Not am "A" student Not a top of the class Not someone who can get any job I just want to be introduced to a real person Someone who can read Take a photo of themselves Post read script by Peter LMAO or Pmsl or rofl or some other shit Read script at Www.patreon.com That's all I need and that's what Asia was going to do until Jane stamped on my bullocks I ranted but still turned it around I finished scene 1 Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org Love and peace (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBTlTGBgTuS/?igshid=1iwz3bcm0ml4g

Silent scream of frustration #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth My balls have just been stomped on. So for months and months I've been looking for someone to cover some social media work and finally I thought Jane at Stockton council had the perfect person. An ideal person, Youngish Limited experience Not too confident Willing to learn We'd talked on Zoom and it was brilliant Now Jane contacted me today and does what every one else does, make suggestions that are not suitable and totally ignore the fact I have mental illness and no confidence. I'm so angry and frustrated and the familiar pattern of the last ten years keeps going, another fucking failure of one of my ideas. Jane's suggestions: Student of media - tried and failed And I don't know any teachers at 6th forms Social media company These people cost lots of money and have confidence I was a person willing to learn who needs confidence and a job opportunity and a reference not some A grade student who will get a job or someone who has masses of confidence. I want an ordinary person who will read my scripts and post a picture on instagram with the lines Read Peter script for dice with Death part one pmsl go and read it at Www.patreon.com/smogsvilleproductions Why do people feel they can tell me what they think I want when they don't know my fucking personality Arrrrrrrgggghhhh Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org Let's smash ATOS (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBQrq0xAQUN/?igshid=cihphanhs5oj

I think about suicide a nearly ever day but I score 0 on PIP. #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy Let find out who decides on whether you get PIP or not because I'd be great in any nursery. Hey children in hope you are okay cos I want to die... Yes I could work without stabbing someone Employer: how would you resolve any issues with an unhappy customer? Me: stab them in the FUCKING face and laugh as they died Employer : can you start Monday? Let's unmask these cunts #dontgiveatos Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBLbg1fDuXz/?igshid=utvf5qkeew4c

Don't mistake intelligence for confidence #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy So yet another person mistakenly believes that because I have a degree in must be confident. No I'm not. I believe I'm a piece of shit, on a good day. Let's unmask the people at ATOS and Capita who decide who gets PIP and who doesn't. I want to know who these fuckers are and I want to know where they live #dontgiveatos Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBLarshjZyR/?igshid=1gts0vdxnqm9d

Are ATOS employees conditioned? #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #ATOS Okay so Rosenhan's first experiment may have been fake but what about his second Rosenhan told staff at a well known research and teaching hospital that over 3 months he'd be sending various imposters to trick their way into the hospital. Out of 193 patients 41 were identified as imposters That's an incredible 21% Here's the real brainfuck for you... ROSENHAN DIDN'T SEND A SINGLE PERSON, NOT 1. What this shows is that if you inform staff At Independent Assessment Services (ATOS) and Capita that they have to spot people who will be faking, just the mere suggestion that a person may be an imposter, a massive 20% of people who need PIP will be denied...even though they are ill and cannot work Disgrace Call out ATOS and Capita Call out people who work for these companies Call out the assessors Call out the government Call out the health secretary, he's a twats anyway Let's change the system Who assesses for ATOS? Who assesses for Capita? They live near us They live in our streets They live in our towns ri cked staff into falsely identifying . https://www.instagram.com/p/CBLBQ5-DQxm/?igshid=1k6e1ucfi6sov

ATOS employees going through training #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy #ATOS #pip Really FUCKING angry In the UK thousands of people with mental illness are denied money they need because they are viewed as fakers and malingering by employees at ATOS (independent assessment services) and Capita. These two wonderful companies employees are behaving like volunteers in the famous experiments on obedience by Stanley Milgram in 1963. They are weak minded scum. https://www.instagram.com/p/CBK-oUGDWwE/?igshid=pf7fsx3otqqf

Adios...for a break...Solution focused brief therapy in action. #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy On the verge of crashing, mood has been dropping over last week, angry and frustrated at constantly looking for collaborators turn to shit. Feel very, worthless. I need some good news. Please don't send messages of support as they will make me bitter (yes like that's likely) People volunteering at charities where CEO's put their FUCKING snouts in the trough and take out over £100,000 yet no fucker with lift a finger to help me and I've not earned any money in 10 FUCKING, miserable, empty, meaningless, unfulfilled, pointless, worthless, shit filled, cancer filled fucked up years. I need coffee and a lie down Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org Support these groups and let's make the world a fairer place. (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CA49gEnA_fk/?igshid=e5zveszaqrtt

Solution focused brief therapy - again #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy Watch the video get in touch if you need to... I'll do interviews, podcasts and questions, send hugs, kill your enemies and hide the bodies. Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org Love and peace (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CA46YRNgqSW/?igshid=6r0rcuzceqk

Solution focused brief therapy #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth Helps 1- identify small change in mood and feelings or situation 2- how did this happen? What have YOU done to affect the small change 3- self praise So many people with mental illness are extremely thinkers, black/white Always/never Nobody/everybody Cure/failure Solution focused brief therapy helps you identify the smallest changes Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.org (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CA23LaTgXre/?igshid=1bqerp9wibnid

Solution focused brief therapy #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth Solution focused brief therapy is not a cure but a great tool for: - noticing small changes in your depression - understanding what you have done to make that change happen (smallest action - cause) - praising yourself for making the changes and noticing what you did - praise is important as you are more likely to remember what you did. Ask questions Peter supports; Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.com Take care (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CA0Yo1BA_cy/?igshid=1oodfxqj4zr1m

I ask for volunteers no response but... #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth If I'm a big organisation where the CEO gets paid £200,000 inundated, why? Why won't people volunteering to help small businesses set up yet will jump and volunteer in their thousands to help huge organisations where top brass take the piss. Frustrating Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.com See I'm lovely (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAz51WKAwsW/?igshid=19u72ff6nk4au

Restrained emotion of BPD. #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth After months of banging on about how social media commitments eat into my writing time the wonderful @reiki_jane at Stockton council may have answered my prayers...bad news for the world as I'd given up on praying upstairs and had taken to sacrificing virgins on a full moon...in Teesside as well, have you any idea how hard it is to find a virgin? Being screwed in the head, BPD means I'm trying to keep the emotions in adult instead of running round my studio like a scouser who just got away with punching a nightclub DJ and claiming it was self-defense.... Name of Liverpool footballer removed on legal advice. Its so crap being BPD after 10 years of no money to keep calm....I'll keep you posted. Jane's job title is YEI, Y and E stand for Youth Employment, no idea about the I, Competition entries by 9.00 pm on Monday1st June, terms and conditions apply. Love and peace (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAxmyamjfaF/?igshid=1ctcy7dclk2me

Oh lovely BPD #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentallyill #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth So I've just had a zoom chat with a lovely Lady who may help with my social media....trying not to get too excited as 10 years of false starts and people not coping with my moods... Oh so much fun not being able to control my brain.. Transactional analysis and a little solution focused brief therapy...oh and coffee Peter supports Alltrials.net Badmedicine.org (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAus7UYDFrB/?igshid=jq1xeq0xwl0c

Solution focused brief therapy #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth Brief therapy should be used by everyone with mental illness Great technical Fast Building block for all other techniques Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.com (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAp2IICA6Ly/?igshid=1o0msabcr6rch

Creativity and mental illness #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #artistsformentalhealth #art4happy West as a society are pushed towards being average, being normal and not to stand out... If you have talent you are dangerous so you get shunned or bullied. . I want to stand out, I want to push boundaries Become part of something that doesn't settle for average...if you ever think "there is nothing on the telly" You're can continue to channel hope and watch shit or you can help me... Your choice conform and know you are a sheep or join me and evolve Fear they want you FUCKING scared...it's so they can control you. Peter supports Alltrails.net Badscience.net Babymilkaction.org Adbusters.com (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAp1mA0AW-i/?igshid=6n11t6sorexy

Bullshit jobs #depression #anxiety #bpd #bpdawareness #eupd #eupdawareness #Mentalhealthawareness #Mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentallyill #arttherapy #art #art4happy #artistsformentalhealth Research has shown that people stuck in unfulfilled jobs development mental health issues, lack of creativity and low energy Work with me for 1 hour a week, share my dark comedic writing on line, be paid and feel like you are actually making the world a better place. Laughter IS the best medicine (at Stockton-on-Tees, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CApxCX-A-BT/?igshid=rfdpcldx7ewk