ok I wanna make a new pin / intro post cause I think this blog is sorta shifting
Hi I'm Ron! At least for now I'm considering picking a new guy name but Ron works for now cause I dislike my fem name. So yeah I'm questioning detransition but I'm also really into Detrans Kink it's rlly hot, but it's really helped me shape who I am I think. So yes expect to find detrans kink here that ain't stopping, but also expect actual sfw detrans content and detrans questioning, cause I think it genuinely might be helpful to some of the kinksters out there to see this stuff + I need a place to talk about it.
So, where am I at with the whole detrans thing now? Physically, not too far. I've got some men's clothes and have talked to my gf, she said she would still love me if I was a cis man which is such a sigh of relief. I've been really inconsistent with hrt and as of writing I haven't taken it in 6 days. I'm debating if I do detrans continuing hrt cause I kinda like it's effects but I do want full penis function back I think. undecided here.
Mentally is... way more complicated. When I fully reflect on my experience I think the only logical conclusion for a label would be Genderfluid. I genuinely enjoy being called and thought of as a man. But there have been times this has been true for woman too. I think when I initially transitioned it was because I felt I wasn't "allowed" to engage with feminine things so I became a girl so I could. And I enjoyed a lot of femininity. I did experience what I referred to as "dysphoria" but only after transitioning, and I think it was mostly just shame for not passing. Anyways so while genderfluid might technically be the right label I just, I don't wanna. I wanna be a guy. I so deeply and fully just want to be a guy. I've really been enjoying being a boy online, and I just want it. I'm scared as hell, detransition seems hard. I hope none of my trans friends think I'm weird if I do. I love and fully support my trans friends they're awesome. I just... I might be a boy
