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ok so its the end of my time with R, we had an event with school that i really didn't think he was going to but, turns out he was there! genuinely as soon as he walked in we locked eyes what the hell i had planned to give him a card with my number or something but i really didn't think he was coming :/ a friend that was there with me begged me to talk to him so i let her and she told me he spent the whole time talking about me and wants to keep in touch buut i have no contact or him so idk :p

had a dream he was mean to me and it ruined my day

today he was kinda really mean :^( he was sort of picking at things I hadn't really done wrong and i said "why are you being mean" and he said he wasnt being mean he was just being tough, and so i said (because hes always calling me mean) "so its ok when you do it but not when i do?" and then he said "but you're mean all the time" i literally do not know where he gets this from i have never been intentionally been mean to him the entire time ive known him :(((( i just feel like im doing something wrong all the time when im around him

what to do when u want to fuck ur tutor and hes invited u on a private 1on1 fuck fuck fuck

I’m so cooked he started asking me about how I feel and I said I didn’t wanna talk about it cus it’s too personal and we’re in public and so he said he wants to talk to me in private fuckkkkkkkkk

Flown too close the sun and now I’m having a private meeting with him on Monday fuck

feel awful all i want to do is talk to R and i dont see him for ages

Am back at schl the next time I see him is next week Wednesday 😢😢😢😢😢

is it normal to feel disgusting every second of your life

i bet if i asked him he'd hug me