🐝Bee🐝

Do you ever get when you hear a song and can't help but think of someone? I miss you all, as people and as friends You stuck by me for longer than anyone else, you knew me better than anyone else I know I did wrong but I never meant to hurt anyone, you never let me explain, you just assumed my actions were in spite but I was just lost, more lost than I ever had been I didn't want to disappear but what good would it be in a group of friends to have one person you blatantly ignore? Would that not hurt them more? I wasn't happy because of a lot of things, some of you were trying to help but others couldn't see where the problems were even if I spelled them out I just want to talk to some of you, to know how life is going, to ask about your parent(s), to tell you about mine, I miss curling up to any of you on the sofa, I miss the late nights and even later mornings, I miss the echo of guitar and singing through the neighbourhood as we sang our hearts out, I miss the way you all loved to hear my sadness so you could help me shine through it And above anything else, I'm sorry

I know I’ve made a god damn lot of mistakes in how I’ve done things but I really only want someone to be proud of me, and I miss the people who were.

Midnight comes, Didn't realise how early it is, Midnight is early to me That is. 1am is long but I get through, By blankly staring At a screen too bright to use 2am comes and passes by, Just as lightning forgets the sky. 3am drags and pulls at you Only to reveal the truth, I pour my heart and soul into Leaving this distress Behind in youth 4am shows and presents The world brighter But not me, oh no My muscles tighter My feet no lighter 5am rolls into the clocks And the dusky shadows Climb the blocks, I finally find peace In my old little box.