بُشرى

I am speaking about myself and my thoughts. Sometimes, when you're far from Gaza and don't know much about it, people assume you don't care enough, or that it doesn't hurt you as deeply.

But the truth is, I cried almost every day in the past months. Sleep eluded me as I lay awake, tormented by neck pain and pounding headaches from the relentless stress.

I spent every waking moment, every minute, every agonizing second, glued to the news, not even knowing the street names or exact locations. I had no idea where Ezzideen lived precisely, but I scoured every report about Jabalya, desperately waiting for a text back.

I remember one morning, waking up to the horrific news that the Shehab family had been martyred. I couldn't reach Ezzideen. That day haunts me, and every time I recall it, I break down, crying from the depths of my soul. In those moments, I thought about what would happen if I lost Ezzideen, and the despair was unbearable.

I know it's not about me, but I want to tell anyone in Gaza that we care deeply. Maybe we can't fully grasp the nightmare you endure, but we try our best to understand.

You are not alone.

@blackpearlblast @loonarmuunar - @sar-soor - @appsa - @akajustmerry -

@annoyingloudmicrowavecultist - @feluka - @marnota

@el-shab-hussein - @sayruq - @tortiefrancis - @flower-tea-fairies -

@tsaricides - @riding-with-the-wild-hunt - @kyra45-helping-others

@vivisection-gf - @belleandsaintsebastian - @ear-motif - @ibtisams

@fallahifag - @animen - @kordeliiius - @communistchilchuck -

@brutaliakhoa - @raelyn-dreams - @troythecatfish -

@the-bastard-king - @tamarrud - @4ft10tvlandfangirl

@northgazaupdates2 - @90-ghost - @baby-girl-aaron-dessner

إلهي، يُؤذيني أنّني أينما نظرتُ أرى وُجوه خلقِكَ في الشوارع شاحبة بعظام وجنتين بارزة من الجوع، هذا طينُك يا الله .. ألا يُؤذيك؟

@blackpearlblast @loonarmuunar - @sar-soor - @appsa - @akajustmerry -

@annoyingloudmicrowavecultist - @feluka - @marnota

@el-shab-hussein - @sayruq - @tortiefrancis - @flower-tea-fairies -

@tsaricides - @riding-with-the-wild-hunt - @kyra45-helping-others

@vivisection-gf - @belleandsaintsebastian - @ear-motif - @ibtisams

@fallahifag - @animen - @kordeliiius - @communistchilchuck -

@brutaliakhoa - @raelyn-dreams - @troythecatfish -

@the-bastard-king - @tamarrud - @4ft10tvlandfangirl

@northgazaupdates2 - @90-ghost - @baby-girl-aaron-dessner

My name is Ezzideen, and I am a 28-year-old doctor. After dedicating a decade to my medical studies abroad, I returned to Gaza just five days before the war erupted, eager to celebrate my graduation with my family after ten long years of separation. Little did I know, this would be the last time I would see many of them.

For ten years, I was haunted by the fear of being trapped in Gaza, unable to complete my education. The Rafah border was an insurmountable barrier, a gate that only rarely opened. After years of waiting, hoping, and praying, I finally made it back, only to have my dreams shattered.

In the blink of an eye, I lost 72 beloved family members.

As difficult as it is for me to ask for help, I need it now more than ever to support my family, to heal, and to continue pursuing my dream in medicine. I need assistance to further my medical career and complete my specialty training. Every hard time can be overcome with some help and patience. I believe that with your support, we can make it through this darkness and emerge stronger. You can now follow Ezzideen on X to keep up with his daily life and story!

@blackpearlblast @el-shab-hussein @fairuzfan @kyra45-helping-others @ibtisams

Here in northern Gaza, we are facing real starvation.

We have flour, but nothing to accompany the loaves of bread we make.

Can you imagine eating only bread for months, especially after being deprived of it for so long before?

The only things available, in very limited quantities, are canned goods, which we consume just to survive. Our stomachs have grown weary of the same monotonous meals.

No vegetables, no fruits, no cheese, no eggs, no meat, no chicken, no yogurt! Believe me, since the beginning of this war, I haven't eaten any fruits at all except for a single apple.

The despair and hunger are unbearable. Written by Abeer Shehab

@blackpearlblast- @sar-soor - @stil-lindigo - @fairuzfan - @ibtisams

- @fallahifag - @vakarians-babe - @plomegranate - @tamarrud-

@fancysmudges - @el-shab-hussein - @thenewgothictwice -

@edwordsmyth - @houseofpurplestars - @kyra45 - @sayruq -

@bignightengineer - @the-lady-maddy-2

It is now 9:44 PM. I’ve been wrestling with an idea that has tormented my thoughts for days—the grotesque power of time to revolve and mutate. Yet, the deafening roar of warplanes obliterates any semblance of peace, stripping away the luxury of thought, the solace of writing, and even the clarity needed to make decisions.

This harrowing sound is no stranger; it has been our relentless shadow, haunting us day and night. But now, at this very moment, it feels as if it erupts from within my own skull, a cruel symphony of despair.

Oh, this wretched head, how much more can it bear? When will this lunacy end? When will the world cease its insatiable bloodlust? When will humanity shed its cloak of arrogance and avarice? When will we awaken to the profound truth of our equality? When will the death of a single soul compel us all to halt, to mourn, to honor their existence with a moment of shared silence?

These questions weigh like a dark shroud, a relentless reminder of our collective fragility and the desperate, urgent need for compassion in a world teetering on the brink of its own undoing.

Ezzideen Shehab

@blackpearlblast - @sar-soor - @stil-lindigo - @fairuzfan -

@ibtisams - @fallahifag - @vakarians-babe - @plomegranate -

@nabulsi - @fancysmudges - @el-shab-hussein -

@thenewgothictwice - @edwordsmyth - @houseofpurplestars -

@kyra45 - @sayruq - @bignightengineer - @the-lady-maddy-2

It is now 9:44 PM. I’ve been wrestling with an idea that has tormented my thoughts for days—the grotesque power of time to revolve and mutate. Yet, the deafening roar of warplanes obliterates any semblance of peace, stripping away the luxury of thought, the solace of writing, and even the clarity needed to make decisions.

This harrowing sound is no stranger; it has been our relentless shadow, haunting us day and night. But now, at this very moment, it feels as if it erupts from within my own skull, a cruel symphony of despair.

Oh, this wretched head, how much more can it bear? When will this lunacy end? When will the world cease its insatiable bloodlust? When will humanity shed its cloak of arrogance and avarice? When will we awaken to the profound truth of our equality? When will the death of a single soul compel us all to halt, to mourn, to honor their existence with a moment of shared silence?

These questions weigh like a dark shroud, a relentless reminder of our collective fragility and the desperate, urgent need for compassion in a world teetering on the brink of its own undoing.

Ezzideen Shehab

@blackpearlblast - @sar-soor - @stil-lindigo - @fairuzfan -

@ibtisams - @fallahifag - @vakarians-babe - @plomegranate -

@nabulsi - @fancysmudges - @el-shab-hussein -

@thenewgothictwice - @edwordsmyth - @houseofpurplestars -

@kyra45 - @sayruq - @bignightengineer - @the-lady-maddy-2

Yesterday, after what felt like an eternity, Ezzideen and I finally spoke for nearly an hour. Despite the lack of good internet, phone calls are working again!

We talked about everything, just like we used to before the war.

I am writing this because of something that left me feeling utterly devastated, sad, and helpless yesterday. While we were talking, there was this incredibly annoying and ominously close noise. It was terrifying, making you feel like death is lurking nearby. You don’t know if you’re going to lose someone you love in the next moment.

I was terrified and asked him if that noise was normal. He told me it was totally okay, that they had gotten used to it. No need to worry, he said.

It was the sound of a quadcopter!

I am trying so hard to understand what people in Gaza are going through, but even if we spent our entire lives trying, we could never truly grasp their suffering.

I am doing everything I can to be supportive, but the situation is beyond crazy.

Please, help me get my best friend and his family out of Gaza as soon as the border opens. It is more urgent than we can even comprehend!

@blackpearlblast - @sar-soor - @stil-lindigo - @fairuzfan -

@ibtisams - @fallahifag - @vakarians-babe - @plomegranate -

@nabulsi - @fancysmudges - @el-shab-hussein -

@thenewgothictwice - @edwordsmyth - @houseofpurplestars -

@kyra45 - @sayruq - @bignightengineer - @the-lady-maddy-2

@void-botanist is raffling off digital commissions!To be entered donate €5 to Ezzideen’s fundraiser and send the proof of donation to this account. €5 will get you one entry, €10 two entires, etc. Once you send proof of donation, your url will be entered to win this commission and winners will be randomly chosen on July 31.

Please see below for commission details!

General Raffle Guidelines

I will draw:

humans

furries (especially dragons)

robots

other fantasy species/weird creatures

clothes designs

fanart (some things I'm familiar with are Dungeon Meshi, BG3/DnD, One Piece, Demon Slayer, JJBA, HxH, BOTW/TOTK, MP100, ATLA/LOK, Gravity Falls, a lot of different webcomics)

I won't draw:

real people

spiders if it requires a reference pic

gore (abstracted gore (e.g. wires) is fine)

detailed backgrounds

stuff that’s racist, anti-queer, etc.

hi all, i wanted to post another raffle being hosted to benefit ezzideen shehab's fundraiser. it is being run by @boshradaoud but she is having some issues with her tumblr account so i am posting it to try to get some more eyes on it!

[ID: a poster for a raffle titled "Thobe Raffle" with the Instagram handle Ezzideenshehab at the top. There are pictures showing off two Palestinian thobes with intricate embroidery.

Text: Ezzideen and his family need our help more than ever due to the current situation and the severe starvation affecting the north.

I am offering a chance to win a traditional Palestinian dress for two people who donate or share and fill out the form!

Below the text is a QR code linking to Ezzideen's GFM campaign. end ID]

click here for the form to get your entry counted for the raffle! there is no minimum donation amount, so donate whatever you can and fill out the form for a chance to win!

Without their help, we wouldn’t have been able to collect that much.

Join our Heritage Raffle and get a chance to win a collection of authentic items from Ramallah! For every donation of €5 or more, you will be entered to win a special package that includes:

• Premium olive oil

• Wild thyme (Za'atar Barri)

• Sage (Miryamiyya)

• A traditional Kufiyah

These items come from my family's land in Ramallah, where my grandparents originally hail from.

Your support not only gives you a chance to enjoy these unique and culturally rich products but also helps preserve our heritage.

This raffle is open until June 25, 2024. After donating, please fill out the form to enter for a chance to win this special box from Palestine.