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VegasPete + petplay text posts for @petesbubblebutt (pt. 33/35)

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In Ep 11, when Pete tells Vegas he’s not eating, and Vegas asks him if he thinks he can choose, and Pete’s response is “I’m not choosing, I’m just not eating” …

Despite all the food = relationship/connection/nurture metaphors salted through their entire storyline, It just hit me that this conversation is a metaphor for what Pete has been doing EMOTIONALLY all this time. Even back with the main family. Possibly for his entire life, the whole time that - he’ll admit in Ep 13 - he’s been feeling empty and useless.

He’s not choosing. He’s just not feeling.

Until he grabs Vegas’s face with both hands the way he grabs that bowl of noodles with both hands. Until he lays back and offers himself up during sex like he slurps down those noodles while making ecstatic little noises. Until he’s reminding himself of Vegas’s touch while weeping into his fucking dinner.

Vegas is the one who makes him feel something. Vegas is the one who feeds him, on 376 different levels. And Vegas can’t force that. He can’t force Pete to feel something any more than he can beat him into eating. It’s only after Vegas reaches back across the chasm to meet Pete’s offered hand (because Vegas is starving emotionally, too) - the way he proves the noodles aren’t poisoned by taking the bowl back from Pete and eating out of it - that Pete’s willing to eat.

VegasPete + text posts for @sapphicblight (pt. 31/35)

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