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The topic we need to talk about this time is about seeing the bright side of things. I must admit I'm somewhat pessimistic, but I'll do my best to sound positive on this blog anyway.

Let's start by talking about what I think about English. Personally, I feel it's an easy language to learn, or at least not very complicated, for that reason, many people learn it and can communicate with others in other countries, which is really good. There are many benefits to learning English besides the one mentioned before, but that one stands out the most to me.

Speaking of benefits, being positive also has its own benefits. According to what Google told me when I searched for information about the benefits of being positive, it has both physical and mental benefits. I could give examples, but I don't want to make the blog too long (no more than it already is XD)

Finally, the one time I was optimistic and it worked out well was when I had a project for a subject (I won't say which one) that I had forgotten about and I finished it on the last day. I don't know if that really counts as being optimistic, but I'll count it as such.

Well, that was all <⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>

A place I would like to travel to would be Japan, specifically Osaka.

I would like to travel there because there are a lot of amazing places to visit, and also quite a few activities in which to spend a lot of time. One of the places I would especially like to visit would be the Osaka Castle and Kuromon Ichiba Market, although personally the market would be a more entertaining place to visit than the castle (but maybe I say it now because I got hungry lmao).

Osaka, according to what I searched on Google, offers a deep immersion in culture and local life, where visitors can explore history, enjoy the food, and immerse themselves in art. The city is also famous for its Tenjin Matsuri Festival that celebrates the god of wisdom, Tenjin, and is one of the largest and oldest festivals in Japan. In my opinion, it doesn't sound bad at all to go there to learn a little more about the culture of a part of Japan.

And speaking of learning about the culture of another country, I personally think that traveling and learning about other countries allows us to see the world in a different way, better understanding the perspective of foreign people, besides it helps us improve our communication skills.

Maybe we should all learn more about other places, of course without forgetting where we come from and our own culture, but that is just in my opinion.

This semester we were given the opportunity to write a blog; I hadn't planned it and probably wouldn't do it in the future, but it's something new.

I wouldn't know what to use what we write for in real life; I don't use English for anything other than watching streams on Twitch or YouTube and commenting on them. Perhaps I'll find a use for it after I finish this project, but I couldn't say what it would be at this precise moment.

I suppose writing this has helped me improve my grammar, but honestly, more than that, it's given me breaks from my personal projects, I don't like putting those things on pause but it's good for my health not to just focus on them, so thanks to those breaks.

Regarding whether or not I find it difficult to express myself in another language, no, I already have experience with that; it's simple, it's just an unusual activity. Well, maybe it's not that simple; I have trouble finding some English words that I frequently use in Spanish, but other than that, I think everything's fine.

Well, this last bit is just to say that yes, I need to put more effort into these blog posts, but I'm more focused on personal projects like: drawings, my own stories, and my favorite, which I've put the most effort into lately, creating a community on Discord focused on just the things I mentioned before.

Anyway, it was fun, an unusual activity, but thanks for forcing me to take a break from those personal projects, I needed it (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

My dream job was to be a kindergarten teacher. It just seemed fun to me, but if I have to talk about that job, aside from the fact that as a child I didn't see any other option and that it seemed like the best option, the idea of participating in someone's early education didn't sound easy at all, and as a child I loved challenges...not anymore, but I did back then.

Kindergarten teachers incentivize the social, emotional, and physical development of children through games and routines, they monitor the individual progress of each student, keep records, and hold regular meetings with parents. Now that I'm looking into it, I realize it doesn't sound as fun as it did back then...

To achieve my childhood goal of becoming a kindergarten teacher, in addition to finishing my studies, I would have to be very responsible and disciplined. To be a teacher, I should be someone with patience, I wouldn't want to yell at my students for every little thing, and I get angry easily, especially with children.

I currently think it would be very difficult to reach that goal, besides, I have another job idea at the moment. It's not what I dreamed of, I don't dream of it, it's just the easiest option for me, But yeah, I wish I had continued with that dream, it didn't sound so bad, but oh well, I still have a year to think if I really want to continue with the easy option or go for what I dreamed of as a child.

I haven't changed much from my point of view, but I've been told that I really have, and I can't do anything but believe them. I've been told I was more introverted before; in 2021, even with the option of making a call, I preferred to send messages. I didn't like people seeing my face, even though they already knew me, and I looked tired all the time. They tell me that by 2024 they still had trouble recognizing my face. Even when the face mask was no longer necessary I was still wearing it, and they could barely identify me. I used to feel safer like that, hidden behind a mask.

My routine back then was to study, eat, sleep, and wake up the next day to do the same thing. The only thing that fascinated me during those years, and I have to admit it still does, is the Minecraft series, my biggest obsession in the world. No one can't blame me, so many worlds and character development impressed me, of course I also watched less complex series with less development, but those also had a story even if it didn't seem like it.

I can't say much about myself during 2022 to 2024 other than that I was, and still am somewhat, a total obsessive about those topics. I shut myself away into that because reality seems, and seemed, boring to me.

I also can't say much about my family and friends other than that they have always treated me well, they support me in everything and they scold me when necessary, that is when I don't want to sleep or eat. It sounds bad, yes, but it's not as bad as you might think. Besides, it gave me the opportunity to meet incredible people online, the opportunity to create my own community on a Discord server, and much more.

I'm still learning to separate reality from fiction, but I can say that I've made a lot of progress since 2025, yes, it's been a year since I made a big leap forward. My goal is to keep improving that and finish improving it before I finish high school. I know that it has affected my grades and my social life.

My greatest desire is that everyone can see another version of me someday, one less focused on fiction, because of course, there's no way I'm going to give it up for anything, only reduce the hours I invest in it lol.

I hope to see results soon >u<

An event that definitely changed my life forever was undoubtedly the departure of a loved one, the most beloved to me, my grandma.

I don't remember the exact year this event occurred, but I perfectly remember the day I had to say goodbye to her. I was at my paternal grandparents' house (it's important to clarify that the person who passed away, whom I'm going to talk about in this post, is my grandmother on my father's side, may she rest in peace), just a normal day in my life at that time. I was in elementary school and I always insisted on watching movies on a DVD player we had in the bedroom I used to share with my parents and younger sister when I got home, and that day was no exception; I even remember the movie I was going to see.

I was trying to watch The Jungle Book, the live-action version, we had a DVD of the movie and I loved watching it; it was my obsession at the time, but there was a problem, I couldn't reproduce anything, and since I was a child and my parents weren't there, I went to my grandparents who were in their room. I went inside and what I saw was my grandfather trying to wake up my grandmother, he seemed agitated, even sad, which was strange because he was and still is a very serious man, as soon as he saw me, he sent me to get my little sister and to go to my cousins' house, which was on the second floor.

All I remember from that time is being at my cousins' house. I don't visit them anymore except at Christmas or New Year's. I don't like going, not because I dislike them, I love them very much, but going to that house makes me want to cry. Getting back to the point, we were there, night fell, we were watching cartoons, we had very vivid imaginations, we thought we were cartoon heroes, and just as we were planning our "next adventure", my uncles arrived and told us we had to go to the first floor.

We went downstairs, there were a lot of people in black, I didn't know it then but it was a funeral, and it wasn't long before I found out what that was. We went to a room and there was the coffin, open and with my grandmother inside; it was a horrible experience for such young age. My cousins and I cried a lot that night, they fell asleep after the funeral was over, but I remember staying up all night thinking about what would happen to me when I died.

I try not to think about it now; years have passed since that event. I've been to many more funerals than I'd like to admit, but none of them affected me as much as that one.

If I remember correctly, I had to write my opinion about whether money would make me happier, I would say no. If there were anything in the world that would make me happy, it would be to go back to my childhood and live a normal life, like any other child, not to think about when my time to die would come.

If I had to choose any words to describe myself I'd say I'm a versatile and flexive person who can adapt to almost any situation and find a solution, at least most of the time. Within the school, my personality probably changes a lot, different from what I believe is the "original" one; however, I make my best effort not to change too much and to show the most genuine version of myself to everyone, although I may need to try harder.

Outside of school, what I like to do is play video games, mostly RPGs. I also enjoy reading books about fantasy, mystery, suspense, or horror. Listening to music while I write is another thing I enjoy doing in my free time. And finally, as the people who know me already know, drawing, although lately I have lost the desire to do it.

And since I'm talking about myself, one thing I absolutely can't stand is people who discriminate others over things that I consider trivial. That, and maybe something a bit more "common," is that I also can't stand staying still for too long, even though most people know me for being quiet and always being isolated, I don't enjoy not doing anything for to long.