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Right before the pandemic started I had a 3 year relationship die on me and had to quit a job that was making me physically and emotionally ill. Good thing is I am at a better job now that isn’t trying to kill me, and I am a lot happier. We did remote learning throughout the pandemic, which was great in some ways and really sucked in others. I was really lucky to be able to be salaried and work from home during the majority of it. Also started another relationship, that got too intense too fast and that’s too flitted out. Good thing is I got to experience a bunch of new things, and even though it ended very poorly, I am learning to establish boundaries, take care of myself, and generally like myself more.

In the summer of last year, I lost my grandmother who I was very close to. She was my mother in several respects, so it was, and is, very hard. More recently, I lost my grandfather, but I am at least very grateful that I got to say goodbye to him before he passed. I cut all contact with my narcissistic mother, and grew closer to other family members that I didn’t have strong relationships with before because of my mother. I have been able to build trust in people because of it. I also hung out with my biological father for the first time ever as an adult, which was weird but interesting. Lots of alsos here, but I ALSO moved from living on my own to living with a good friend in a much nicer apartment WITH A STOVE!! And I got some sick new tattoos last week. I get to be the alt girl of my own dreams.

I am really working on myself and trying to heal from all the trauma that I’ve been avoiding. Bad news is it SUCKSSSSSSSS, but it’s better in the long run. And aside from losing my mind in what seems like a new way every day, I am learning to say no, read more books, go out more, and try to actually cherish living instead of just surviving all the time. Would’ve been really embarrassed to write something like this on tumblr dot com 3 years ago, but whatever right!!! At least you don’t see me writing 28 connected tweets so it’s all win win here babey