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too tired to care

Okay to be honest I’ve thought about this question a lot, like, why can’t I ever just treat people the way that they treat me, but I’ve figured out a bit of it. 

When I was a ‘little blog’. No one knew who I was, or my blog either. I think I had around 500 followers or something. Well, one time I saw a blog with 5000 followers and I just really admired them. I loooooved their edits, and I couldn’t believe how it was possible to make perfection. Well, it took me a lot of courage to message that person off-anon. I think I said something like I loved their edits, and that I just really liked their blog. And I got an answer like: Thank you.

Nothing else, just a thank you. And I was so disappointed because I thought that they didn’t want to talk to me because of my blog that looked like crap. I’m sure they thought that, But it’s just that, when someone else wrote the same thing to them but they had a better blog, the blog owner got really happy and responded with big letters and hearts. And I just was really sad, because why did it matter what kind of blog I had? I’m still a person. Well they didn’t treat me the way they treated other people that were famous. After that I was sad and I wondered what was wrong with me and I tried so hard to talk to the big blogs, because I thought they maybe were kind. I got ‘chopped’ of a few times, and I just realised that no one with a famous blog wanted to talk to me. They just talked to each other, and they looked down at me. Now, I’ve a lot of more followers then they do now, and I still know who they are. So it’s like, I showed them bitches that it’s not okay to treat other people different. Now, sometimes I get messages from them, a lot like I sent to them. They say: You’ve such a pretty blog blablabla and such, and of course I answer them the same, but I still remember how they treated me.