Author's Note: the ways ben loves you
✧･ﾟ:ben doesn’t really understand what love is. He’d never felt it before you. He probably won’t feel it after. He just knows that whatever to annoying fucking gooeyness in his chest is, it comes from being near you, and never anything else.
✧･ﾟ:you’re the best fucking thing he’s got. He’s got no plans to let you go, not anywhere he can’t follow. He knows if he lost you, he’d fucking lose it. He’s half a man when you’re not at his side. A quarter of that if he ever makes you hate him. It would be like making a big, wet eyed kitten cry. He’d rather watch fucking glass.
✧･ﾟ:he’s not good at affection. Or comfort. No one ever taught him how that shit works, but when you kiss him or brush your fingers through his hair, he feels bigger. Better. He wants to make you feel like that, so he mimics it with sudden touches and gifts. Ben pulls you tight into his chest, crushing you between his massive arms just to keep you close. You tell him it’s called a hug, he says he doesn’t fucking hug, then holds you closer.
✧･ﾟ:ben doesn’t know what the fuck girls like, so he gets you more of shit you already have. You’re almost out of the coffee you like, so he buys more. Your fancy shampoo is low, he can match a bottle in a grocery store. You complain once about your favorite lip gloss being out of stock, and he didn’t rest until he found you more. He shoves the gifts into your hands then kisses you stupid. That’s how he does most things.
✧･ﾟ:he starts to clean, because he might not be some kind of fucking maid, but you like things better when they’re clean. He’s a grown ass man, he can carry the trash better than you anyway. And he likes how you climb him like a tree, after he grumbles that he already put away the dishes. If that’s the price he has to pay for some pussy, he’s about to open a bank.
✧･ﾟ:ben used to fuck most things that move, but now it’s just you. Only you. He rolls his eyes whenever someone’s surprised by it.
✧･ﾟ:“why the fuck would I stick my dick in something else,” he mutters. “When I got a girl with heroine in her pussy?”
✧･ﾟ:you have to tell them he’s speaking metaphorically. They sometimes look a little worried. But you’re not complaining. You do get all of Ben to yourself. And he’s very good at sex.
✧･ﾟ:mind-blowingly good. So good, it’s made you wonder if you’d ever actually had good sex before him. The dirty talk alone is a sin. Dirty little girl and pretty fucking slut and good job, baby, whine for me just like that.
✧･ﾟ:his massive fingers split your cunt better than a toy. Pushing right against that soft spot, his thumb working your clit until you’re gasping for air. He eats you out like his favorite meal, with his whole face pressed into your core and tongue flicking your clit into a frenzy. When he fucks you he holds you in those strong arms, whether it’s up against his chest, pinning you to the mattress and forcing you to take it, or in a headlock as his cock sliding in and out of your dripping cunt. You cum all over him, wet and loud, and he laughs until you’re burning with a mix of shame and pleasure.
✧･ﾟ:it’s after sex, that he shows he loves you the most. His kisses get softer. He takes care of you without even a grunt, cleaning and making sure you’re totally, happily fucked out. He lights up a joint and wraps an arm around your shoulders, telling some story you’ve heard a million times as you doze off. You smile. You know he does it because you like it. The steady sound of his heartbeat, and soothing rumble of his voice.
✧･ﾟ:before you’re out, you can swear you actually hear him say it. “Love you, doll.”
✧･ﾟ:it doesn’t matter if you actually do, or if it’s just a dream. You feel it, either way.
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✦Author's Note: i don't care what he does in the show they gave me a sexy old man he's mine now they're writing the fanfic not me and eric kripke himself can't stop me.✦
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