death that feeds new life

@appreciaterey | Types of Love Event

The greatest teacher, failure is. We are what they grow beyond. That is the true burden of all masters.

Tomorrow we’re getting “The Rise of Kylo Ren” #3 and I’m so nervous and excited! (And also pained but well that’s what happens after TROS when you like Ben Solo, extra pain is included sadly)

I kept doing some comparisons on the part of TLJ with Rey hearing voices in the mirror cave of Ahch-to and YUP it definitely doesn’t sound like younger Rey’s voice *grabs the popcorn and looks at the TFA novelizations with the “strange boy” appearing in Rey’s vision and staring at her*

I swear if Ben had been having visions or dreams with Rey across time/space (or the both about the other) when they were little kids I’m going to do the loudest “aww” in existence, because it’s been a headcanon I’ve had for a long time and it’s one of my fave things to imagine honestly

And damn… the preview pages of TROKR #3? *chef kiss* Knights of Ren in a bar? Unexpected, but I like it. Ren being pure beef and a god of manspreading? I love it. But the most important thing: Ben. Ben being Ben. A sweet boy. A good boy. The best boy

Hopefully besides Ben’s background they’ll touch a bit more the one of the KoR, even if it’s broad strokes, because I like these dumbasses and I wish they would’ve been more important overall

I’m still on my thoughts that Ren could be Ben from the future or another timeline. But regardless of if he’s or not, it’d surprise me if Ren wasn’t who Ben had to kill to offer “a good death” to the KoR to join them after what we’ve read. Given the fact that in that interview in the official SW page Charles Soule and Will Sliney talked about how Ben seemed to have admiration for Ren, I can see why he’d end up being the “good death”—unless Ben killed no one to be accepted in the group and he got in (maybe just a “show” of the “shadow” would make them change their mind?)

… If my brain could stop offering me very cursed theories about Ren (the former leader), though, I’d love that

Also, how I made myself cry internally thinking of the meanings of “Ren”:

this one I knew it already, but for some reason I never got around to talk about it. “Ren” is a Japanese name that apparently means “water lily”, “lotus flower” and “love” *stares at Padmé* I mean, it can be coincidence, but if it’s not, either they went with the “since these are deleted concepts for Ben let’s call them Knights of Ren for a parallel with Padmé and her doubles”, or there’s more to it

… this one’s very feelsy, brace yourselves. According to the ancient Egyptians, the soul had many different parts (Ren, Ba, Ka, Sheut, Ib), being “Ren” the part meaning the name given to a person at birth, the “secret name”, the identity of the person. They believed it was a part of a person’s soul that would live for as long as that name was spoken or the person remembered

That Egyptian meaning, I swear— *muffled crying against a pillow*

But well, moving forward, this preview panel that Charles Soule posted on Twitter is curious. I think it doesn’t happen in a fight against the Jedi trio of Luke’s temple, but about Ben and Ren, but we’ll see (in some hours asdbflfg can’t it be out already?):

ALSO the last panel of the last page?? Ben… Such a little angel… Must protecc… *crying intensifies* I mean, look at it for yourselves (and goodness gracious every time I look at that girl in the last panel I can’t help but think she looks like kid Rey and I’m feelsy about it):

Can we all agree that he was so fucking close to her. I want to see all the scene, because he was not that close before the Stormtroopers came on screen. Wtf! I mean, in the book :

“ Shutting down and belting his lightsaber, Ren contemplated his immobile captive. Reaching up slowly, he touched her face.”