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Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

Absolutely clueless as to how many things you do that offend, or are dismissive, or ableist. We endure all the bullshit of being made to feel small, or wrong, or being made to be the problem time and time again.

You have no idea how often we tell ourselves that y'all "probably didn't mean it that way" or put it down to a lack of sensitivity, or not sharing the same experience.

You have no idea how dismissive you can be of our challenges and how unwilling y'all are to actually TRY to understand our mannerisms, means of communication, or intent.

You have your perceptions and that's all that matters.

But we have to adjust ours CONSTANTLY.