this sucks

https://bartholomewgoop.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-but-dreams

wrote a song bout mah mom

woke up today, sick

the kind of sick that

sits in your wine belly

and stuffs up your nose

hoping to find some loose bread

to distribute to the birds

but that woulnt work

hopeing to find some change

id go spend it all on hard candies and cigarettes

waiting on the announcement

that will boom over loudspeakers saying

name number your turn

does this mean

survivor?

i didnt notice before.

does this mean

the rainbow on my breast pocket,

lined up perfectly with that song line

i didnt notice before

does this mean

we are an acceptable pair?

does the universe shine on us happy laughing blue?

you are so blue

you are so so blue

i think i am on fire

utterly captivated by the love the life the loss the trials and victories.

today is the day that i work all day and then drive all night