Hallo! My name is Fawn (they/she/fae), I’m a lesbian artist and writer who loves everything morbid, especially creepypasta. You can find me elsewhere here:
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I am the creator of Lexi Kills and her home CRP AU, Para-Archives! All relevant links, characters and projects are listed below.
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Guys I will be writing your asks out soon I promise... I have the flu which is kicking my ass and unfortunately it’s given me the craziest brain fog. Pray for me.
hi i had a question and i dont mean this in a mean way im a big fan
but Lexi is very conventionally attractive both in your art and how you describe her but she still gets bullied really badly
wouldnt it be more realistic if she was either less attractive or didnt get bullied as much?
again dont mean it in a mean way i was just curiois if there was a reason
Hey, not mean at all - I get where you're coming from!
Just as a starting statement, people who are conventionally attractive can still be bullied like Lexi is. I've said a few times that all of Lexi's experiences are based on my own. Throughout most of my school years, I was bullied for being the "weird kid", despite the fact that I myself am considered conventionally attractive (not tooting my own horn; I just get told that a lot). Even as an adult, I still get treated negatively by some people based on my interests and autistic traits.
There is a certain degree of "weirdness" that society is willing to accept in someone based on their appearance, and unfortunately, Lexi very much exceeds that. I think I've even said before that Lexi gets told often that she's a "waste of a pretty face". People do acknowledge her appearance, but that doesn't mean they spare her.
Lexi's appearance is important to her character because the overall theme of her character is that, from all sides, she was never seen as a person. If not treated like an alien for her interests and mental state, she was objectified for how she looks. In fact, for most people in her life who negatively affect her in some way (Randall, Nia, Brayden, Allegra), it's a combination of both that leads them to treat her the way that they do (apart from their personal agendas).
Being sexualised is something I have personally struggled with and am still struggling with. Honestly, it's one of the reasons I don't show my face on here, as I want people to value me for my art and my words, not for how I look, which unfortunately happens constantly in real life. Which is why I wanted to make it an aspect of Lexi's character!
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Nia’s birthday wasn’t long after Lexi’s attack, and despite her still recovering, she decided to go celebrate with Nia anyway. Except Brayden was there and it really sucked
I remember ages ago I wrote a short story from the perspective of a creepypasta who was really close to Lexi, and for some reason they were watching her sleep and commented on how the only time they saw her not consumed by resentment was when she was asleep. I was reminded of that when sketching this… much to think about…
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Hey Fawn, I just want to say I'm really glad I found your blog. Not only do I genuinely love how much effort you put in your creations, I also found flock of the Divine through your blog where I met some of my great mutuals and friends from. And it motivated to take some of my characters out of the base and polish them off.
All this helped when I was in a dark place, surrounded by some not so great people and drama. I think based off your tags on your DNI post you may know what I'm talking about.
I had to ponder on including the second paragraph. It's embarrassing to admit and was a harsh wake up call to notice but I've set my boundaries now.
Sorry for being sappy, but I want you to know your content have left a positive mark. I wish you nothing but the best with your work and life. I hope your fantasy book gets published and Lexi Kills is warmly welcomed into the fandom! ♡
Hi there!
This ask means so much to me; I genuinely can't put it into words. It really warms my heart to know I've made such a positive impact on someone. I often forget that my work has any value, since it isn't in galleries or on shelves, so to hear someone say it's helped them, whether big or small, is very nice.
I'm very glad I was able to be somewhat of a pillar during a hard time in your life. That entire situation was very distressing for me to watch unfold, especially as I myself had been very vocal about my opinion, yet it seemed only a select few people received any harassment over it. Not that I wanted to be harassed, but it seemed very targeted and cliquey, and it seemed like they were using the situation as an excuse to attack people they didn't like.
That's all I'll say about that, to avoid making it an issue again for everyone's sake. But rest assured, we've all been there. I've definitely been in situations where I've realised afterwards that the people I cared about didn't have my best interests in mind, or where I've been in the middle of a conflict that I had no idea how to escape. Sometimes, to learn how to swim, we have to drown a little first.
Anyway, I'm very happy to hear that you seem to be doing better and that I was able to help you indirectly!
WE COULD HAVE HAD CLOCKWORK AND LEXI?? MOVE ASIDE TOBY.
LMFAO YES HAHAHA
I do think Clockwork and Lexi would be quite toxic together, to be honest, for a few reasons. They both have pretty deep-rooted trauma and deal with it in completely different ways. But what they do share (at least in my AU) is pretty poor communication skills. Lexi shuts down and pretends she doesn't give a gaf when she really does, whereas Clockwork will only push the more someone pulls, and will be very, angrily vocal about it.
Which, as we know, is the very opposite of what Lexi needs. For her to trust someone, she needs a lot of patience. Which Clockwork doesn't have much of, even for her partner.
But they would work in other aspects too. They're both very loyal and self-sacrificing, and in the rare moments where they drop their egos and are transparent, I think they'd be very raw and affectionate with one another. Which for both of them, would make up for all the arguments.
That is, if we ignore the fact that Clockwork willingly kills people, which is a huge no in Lexi's book. Although I could see Lexi possibly gaining unwanted feelings, regardless of how much she fights against it, which could be possible considering she would be quite desensitised to murder (as much as she opposes it).
Alternatively, if Lexi was a fruit, what kind of fruit would she be?
STOPP I LOVE THESE QUESTIONS THEY'RE SO CUTE (Also hi I haven't seen you in a hot minute :>)
If I had to choose a song for Lexi, I'd say Petals by Hole. I think the song ties in really well with what happens to her. Some other songs that remind me of her are Move by Sol Seppy, Youngest Daughter by Superheaven, and When I'm Small by Phantogram. All of the lyrics mirror her pretty well!
As for fruit, I think she'd be a Kiwi! Not just because it's green, but the sour, tangy flavour reminds me of her a lot. The sourness overpowers you at first, but the underlying sweetness is what keeps you eating. Also, you have to cut it open to get to the delicious centre. Not saying you have to literally cut Lexi open, but in order to know her, you need to get underneath what she shows you.
I've never been big on Toby x Lexi but it's her most popular ship 🧱🤛😭
Yeahhh, HAHAHA, I definitely shared that sentiment until recently.
I absolutely loved all the fanart, AUs, fanfics, and hc posts, mostly because I just love whatever people do with Lexi, but Toby x Lexi/Ticcikills was never my go-to when I thought of a creepypasta character to ship her with.
My go-tos, in order, were always E.J, Cat Hunter (although that one would be one-sided), Kate, X-Virus/Liam and Clockwork.
But then I gave it a shot because of an ask and realised I didn't see the appeal because my canon Toby is a fucking asshole and I couldn't get him out of my head LMAO. Now that I'm seeing them together in a different light, though, I can absolutely see the appeal. They were both bullied for things they couldn't control and didn't really have any friends, it would make sense that they'd find comfort in each other!
To be honest, I haven't actually seen anyone ship Lexi with anyone else besides Toby and Jude (and one for Kate). At least not that I can remember. I've had a few asks about it, but I haven't seen any actual posts on it. So you're definitely correct in saying that it is her most popular ship!
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Slenderman decided that Lexi would be his daughter the day he saw her playing in one of his pine forests (which some human who called himself her father had decided belonged to him, WHO does he think he is?).
He’d already wanted another child, and when he saw Lexi, he knew he’d found her. Little by little, she became one of his favorite humans, despite her behavioral problems—like trying to run away from home, disobeying him, talking back to him rudely, etc. But Slenderman knew how to see beyond that, and it turned out that Lexi was the one most like him (according to him, and unfortunately for her).
Skully secretly reads Slenderman’s diary and knows what he thinks of Lexi, but he’ll never tell her, he knows it wouldn’t do any good for his sister’s already deteriorating mind to learn that the monster who ruined her life considers her “the one most like him”
Excerpt from Slenderman’s diary (undated)
My daughter Lexi.
We both love animals. My favorite animals are humans, They're so small, so adorable. They come in all colors, and you can even change their body shape if you adopt them young enough. Lexi’s favorite animal also seems to be humans. She goes to the human town on the edge of the forest and stays there so long that I have to send one of her siblings to find her and bring her back.
She also seems to want to be like me and adopt her own humans, she’s always talking about these people named Nía or Jade, James, Jude.
We both like to collect bones or just take walks through the forests I own.
Since we already looked alike, I decided to change the color of her hair so we’d look even more alike; she didn’t even notice at first, that’s how natural our resemblance is.
I cant find anything about it on your page, what did brayden actually do to lexi? bc im picking up sa undertones but i wasnt sure
Spoiler warning - if you want to learn as you read Lexi's origin, I'd recommend not reading this response!
TW for mentions of assault, both physical and sexual
Hey, this isn't weird at all - because it's actually intentional!
All Lexi knows about what happened is what she has been told. She knows she had broken bones, blood loss and a severe concussion, and she knows she would have died if the paramedics had got there only a few minutes later.
But what she doesn't know is what Brayden actually did to her.
The incident gave Lexi memory loss. There are some issues with her short-term memory because of it, but mainly, she doesn't remember the attack at all, nor the few hours leading up to it. The only reason she knows it was Brayden who did it is that he had been harassing her earlier that day, and she has blurry memories that come through here and there (mostly during PTSD episodes, or when she sees him or someone mentions him).
The reason I never clarify what he actually did is precisely because of that. Lexi will never know what happened to her; therefore, nor will the reader. It's a burden she'll always have to carry. I drew from similar life experiences for this, which is why this particular event is incredibly important to Lexi's character (at least pre-proxy), and why I take how I write it very seriously.
In fact, at some point in the story, Lexi ends up confronting Brayden, promising she wouldn't take action against him and that she just wanted to know so she could finally let it go. But he denies his involvement completely. So, neither Lexi nor the audience will ever know.
Ultimately, it's up to the reader's interpretation - I'm happy with however it resonates with someone. Some may think Brayden just went too far and nearly beat her to death, while some may think SA came into it. Personally, I like keeping it vague because it mirrors how I'll never get closure for some things that happened to me.
