Shapes!

Normally, he would drown his sorrow and love-sickness in as much alcohol as his friends are currently consuming but being out in public means he can't because even though it has never happened, he's still afraid of losing control of his quirk and just going around, brainwashing people left and right.

So if they are out and about Hitoshi sticks to his non-alcoholic drinks and boxes all those ugly, jealous feelings up inside of him instead of drowning them in alcohol.

"What crawled up your ass and died there?" Katsuki asks him suddenly, having sidled up to Hitoshi's side unnoticed, beer in his hand and a scowl on his face and Hitoshi frowns at him.

"Where's your admirer?" Hitoshi asks in return because he's not about to watch someone hit on Katsuki up close and personal and he was just getting accosted but Katsuki sneers.

"Couldn't take my bite, I'd guess," he almost carelessly says, shrugging as if it doesn't matter to him, but there's a tightness to his posture that tells Hitoshi he does care.

"Sorry to hear it," Hitoshi forces out, the lie tasting horrible on his tongue and even the fruity non-alcoholic cocktail can't wash the taste of it down.

Hitoshi has tried before.

"Whatever," Katsuki grumbles as his eyes slide over to Hitoshi briefly, a calculating look in his gaze, but before Hitoshi can inquire about what's going on with that, someone else has the audacity to come up to Katsuki.

Hitoshi glowers at them, subtly shifting so he looms even more but not even that seems to deter the determined girl.

Before she can even open her mouth though, Katsuki speaks.

"Barking up the wrong tree," he shortly tells her, clearly expecting this to be over but the girl cocks her head.

"You sure?" she asks, batting her eyelashes at him and Katsuki rolls his eyes.

"I'm into dick. So as long as you're not hiding something juicy down your very short skirt I'm not interested."

The girl goes bright red in the face before she turns around on her heels and stalks off and Katsuki scoffs into his beer, clearly over all of these attempts of getting his attention but Hitoshi is blue-screening.

He suspected. It's hard not to when everyone knows that Katsuki and Kirishima hooked up during their school days but there was also this thing with Camie way back when and Hitoshi always assumed Katsuki was bi.

Mostly he convinced himself that Katsuki is straight, though, that his fling with Kirishima was just something born out of curiosity, only to spare his heart and not get up his hopes that he might have a shot with Katsuki.

Who is way out of his league and now knowing that he's into guys doesn't help Hitoshi at all because that just means he's just really not Katsuki's type.

Because not once has there been an attempt on Katsuki's side to flirt with him or otherwise get it on with Hitoshi, so he mustn't be on his radar at all.

And isn't that just a blow to Hitoshi's already bruised heart.

"Fucking idiots, always barking up the wrong tree," Katsuki mumbles into his beer, his eyes tracking the retreat of the girl like a hawk and Hitoshi somehow manages to hum agreeingly.

"Here comes someone smarter then," Hitoshi mutters, having tracked the guy stalking Katsuki forever ago but it seems as if him blowing up the girl made him brave because he's coming right over.

Hitoshi wishes he could melt into the background or simply magic himself home because he's sick and tired of watching this and deep down he's a little afraid because one of these days, Katsuki is going to say yes.

He's going to say yes to one of these brave souls and he's going to take someone home who is not Hitoshi and in all honesty, he doesn't know what he's going to do then.

Hiding himself away under his blanket and crying his eyes out for three days straight probably, but that's between Hitoshi and his repressed feelings.

"The fuck do you want?" Katsuki asks when the guy has positioned himself way too closely next to him and it jolts Hitoshi out of his thoughts.

He watches the guy wince, clearly not expecting Katsuki to be this abrasive but he powers through anyway if his smile is anything to go by.

"Thought I'd come to say hi," he says, leaning into Katsuki's space, who gives him such a scathing look Hitoshi is surprised he doesn't catch fire immediately.

"Good for you," Katsuki dismissively gives back but the guy isn't deterred in the slightest.

"Saw you brushing off that girl so I thought I'd give it a try."

"So you have working eyes, congratulations. Anything else I should be impressed by? A beating heart maybe or working lungs?" Katsuki wants to know, his voice very clearly letting everyone know how not into this he is and the guy seems to at least have a working braincell somewhere up there, too, because he takes a step back.

"Didn't mean to overstep," he says apologetically with a considering look at Hitoshi, as if his presence has any impact on the situation and then he simply walks away again.

At Hitoshi's side, Katsuki sighs.

"Stupid, spineless idiot," he scoffs out and Hitoshi's heart drops down when he realises that maybe Katsuki had been interested in the guy after all and is now affected by how easily he was scared off.

For a moment, Hitoshi struggles to find words, struggles to figure out how to comfort Katsuki but his need to soothe him wins out over his own ugly feelings.

"Sorry he was scared off so easily," Hitoshi says as if it's his fault and who knows. Maybe it was his presence that drove him off faster than Katsuki's words might have.

Katsuki's gaze slides over to him before he drops it and shrugs.

"'s not the first time it happens," he gives back and Hitoshi finds that hard to believe, even though he's seen it over and over again.

He just doesn't understand how no one is jumping on Katsuki after realising that he's kind of mean because to Hitoshi that only sweetens the deal.

"But it shouldn't. You're a catch."

"Right," Katsuki scoffs, a self-deprecating smile tugging on his lips and now that Hitoshi can't let stand.

"I'm serious! You're a catch all around. You look good. Anybody would be lucky to have you and you're such a good person, like—"

"So date me," Katsuki says out of the blue, his entire attention suddenly fixed on Hitoshi, whose mind simply goes blank.

"What," he breathes out, doesn't even have the capacity to make it a question and Katsuki's eyes blaze.

"So date me," he repeats as if there's a chance Hitoshi didn't hear him the first time and it makes just as much sense as the before, which is to mean it makes no sense at all.

Because there is no way in hell Katsuki just said that to him.

No one wants to date Hitoshi, least of all Katsuki.

"I—I mean—I'm not—" Hitoshi stammers, his silver tongue abandoning him in the most crucial of moments and Katsuki huffs out a laugh.

"You said I'm a good person, so date me."

There's something so expectant in Katsuki's gaze and Hitoshi doesn't know what to do with it at all.

"Yeah, but—"

"You said I look good."

"You do," Hitoshi weakly gives back because he's not about to lie to Katsuki and it's not as if it's a secret.

Katsuki is conventionally hot and pretending as if that isn't the case would just be stupid and Katsuki nods as if he expected that.

"You said anybody would be lucky to have me. So be lucky. Date me."

Hitoshi blinks at him.

Katsuki sounds so serious, so certain and it's kind of messing with Hitoshi.

"You don't mean that," he mutters, his chest almost caving in with all his want but he knows better.

There's no way in hell someone like Katsuki wants Hitoshi, that's just not how this goes and Hitoshi knows it.

"Have you gone fucking deaf? I said it, so I mean it," Katsuki says, sounding more exasperated than anything and Hitoshi clenches his jaw.

It's true, Katsuki doesn't say shit he doesn't mean, but maybe this is different.

"Maybe you've had a little bit too much to drink," Hitoshi weakly says, eyeing the beer in Katsuki's hand, who immediately puts it down.

"That is my second one, so don't even act as if alcohol is the reason I'm saying this."

"Then what is the reason you're saying this? Did you lose a bet? Are you making fun of me?" Hitoshi wants to know, his chest feeling tight and painful and he can feel every beat of his heart slamming into his ribs.

"Did it ever occur to you that I'm saying this because I'm into you?" Katsuki shoots back and Hitoshi takes a step back as if he's been hit in the face.

Katsuki watches him almost carefully and his shoulders drop at Hitoshi's reaction.

"Taking that as a no, then," he muses, right before he squares up and looks Hitoshi dead in the eyes. "I'm into you, idiot. Have been for a while. So do something with that or tell me to get fucking lost."

"Like you have to all of your admirers?" Hitoshi asks, just to give himself some time to figure out what the fuck is going on and Katsuki scoffs.

"It's not as if I'm asking them to hit on me and I keep sending them away, don't I?"

Yeah, actually, Hitoshi realises after a moment. Not once has Katsuki entertained a conversation with any of the many people who regularly hit on him. Not once has he made the first step.

Not like he did now.

"You mean it?" Hitoshi unsurely mutters, shuffling forward until he's firmly in Katsuki's space again.

"You said anybody would be lucky to have me. And I think you should be so lucky. If you want that."

Katsuki says it as if he isn't sure if Hitoshi even wants to be that lucky and how Katsuki doesn't know that Hitoshi is head over heels for him is a complete and utter mystery to Hitoshi.

"Fuck, do I ever want that, angel," Hitoshi breathes out and leans in to nose at Katsuki's temple. "But there's not much to be lucky with me, so you sure?"

"Shut the fuck up, no one talks like that about my boyfriend, you included," Katsuki almost spits out and punches Hitoshi into the stomach.

Hitoshi wheezes and lets his head drop to Katsuki's shoulder.

"I've been trying to get you to say something for ages," Katsuki admits and slides his hand under Hitoshi's shirt, caressing the place he just punched. "You're just too dense to pick up on it."

"More like you're too out of my league for me to even entertain such an outlandish idea," Hitoshi gives back and turns his head so he can press a kiss to Katsuki's throat.

"I would like to be lucky,” he then mutters.

"Then fucking be it," Katsuki snaps out and Hitoshi laughs as he slings his arms around Katsuki.

"Alright," he agrees and he's surprised when Katsuki practically slumps in his arms, the relief clearly radiating off him as if Hitoshi blowing him off was a valid concern he had and that's just ridiculous.

"Angel, there's no universe out there where I'm not into you," Hitoshi admits, hoping to make Katsuki understand that this really never was a worry he should have had.

"You're just saying that me being into you is a miracle," Katsuki very accurately says and pinches Hitoshi's side but before Hitoshi can move away from his hands, he slings his arms around him in return. "Which is stupid because you're a catch, too, and I'm just as much into you."

"Sounds fake," Hitoshi laughs out but he has Katsuki in his arms and he can feel his lips ghost over the side of his head and Katsuki is holding him just as tightly back and maybe, just maybe, what he's saying is the truth.

Hitoshi will have to verify that a whole lot later, but if Katsuki is honest, then he'll have all the time in the world to get to that.

For now, though, he is very much content with where he is right about now.

And if Hitoshi is honest, there's this lingering, nagging thought that maybe Aizawa and Yamada took Eri in because they didn't want to care for him, for just him and it's eating him up.

Hearing that this fear is the truth might just break him but at least then he'll know and that simply has to be better than this stupid, useless hate inside of him.

If he hears he's right, then at least he'll have a reason to hate her.

So with his mind made up and with Katsuki's lingering warmth still clinging to his side, he enters the living-room, determined to get this talk over with.

Aizawa and Yamada are on the couch, the TV running in the background, though neither of them are really watching. Yamada is smiling at something on his phone and Aizawa has his eyes closed so clearly it's not as if Hitoshi is interrupting something important and so he simply plops himself down on the coffee table in front of the couch, instantly snatching their attention.

"What's going on, kiddo?" Yamada asks, immediately pocketing his phone and Aizawa blearily blinks his eyes open.

"I have to talk to you," Hitoshi says, suddenly shaky and afraid but he powers through because he needs this out there.

And should they give him away because of this then so be it, even though the thought makes him sick to his stomach.

"About what?" Aizawa wants to know and sits up, clearly already more awake than a few seconds ago.

"Eri."

"What about Eri?" Yamada frowns and Hitoshi would like to accuse him of being more alert now that it's about her but his face barely changed and he's just as concentrated on Hitoshi as he was before.

"I hate her," he says without preamble, because it's true and because it makes him feel like shit and it's more than apparent that he's nothing more than a bad person—a villain, really—and it's time Aizawa and Yamada know the truth, too.

There's a beat of silence before they nod as if that makes perfect sense and then Aizawa asks "Why do you hate her?"

Hitoshi stares incredulously at him before he scoffs.

"Can't I just hate her for no reason?"

"No, kiddo, you can't," Yamada gives back. "You can dislike someone for no reason, or even for petty reasons, but hating someone? That's personal and that's deep and it only happens for a reason. And we'd like to know."

"Why? It's not going to change anything," Hitoshi hisses out, wringing his hands in his lap and he wonders how they can still bear to look him in the eyes after he admitted to hating the sweetest child the world has ever seen.

"It's not," Aizawa agrees, "but we're not trying to change your mind. Right now, we're just trying to understand where your hate comes from."

"Does it matter?"

"Of course it matters! You matter to us and we want to understand you!" Yamada seems earnest in his wish to understand how Hitoshi became such a horrible, vile person and seeing how the admittance did nothing for him yet, maybe he does have to explain to make them see that he's nothing more than dirt.

"I got thirty days here before you brought her home," he says and while the confusion is very obvious on Yamada's face, Aizawa clicks his tongue in understanding.

"Before you had to share again," he infers and Hitoshi nods, because yeah.

Before he had to share again. Before he had to share something that was meant to be his alone and yet here they are.

"We asked you if you're alright with us taking her in," Yamada says, almost accusingly and Hitoshi scoffs.

"Yeah, right. And who ever cared about what I want? I could have said I don't want her here and then you would have kicked me out."

"We wouldn't have," Aizawa tells him, sure and steady and yeah, maybe Hitoshi knows that now, or at least hopes that he's telling the truth but back then?

No chance in hell.

"Did you take her in so you wouldn’t have to deal with me anymore? So you could divert your attention to someone else?" he bluntly asks, that thought eating away at his mind night after night and to their credit, their shock seems genuine.

"Of course not, kiddo, we never once thought that! Have we made you feel like that? As if we don't pay enough attention to you?"

And that's the loaded question, isn't it? Because the truthful answer is no, they didn't. They care just as much for Hitoshi now as they did before and he gets the same amount of attention from them. One of them always has time for him if he wants something and they are invested in his life like no one else ever has been before.

And still he hates Eri.

"No. No, you don't make me feel like that," he admits and now even Aizawa frowns at him.

"Then what is the problem?"

"The problem is that I had this all for my own and now I have to share it and I hate her for it!" He doesn't know how else to explain it, how to put into word the all-consuming ugly feeling inside of his chest whenever he thinks too long about her, looks at her for too long and maybe it's better that he can't.

Maybe he doesn't need to make himself more unlikeable than he already is.

"Ooookay?" Yamada is clearly unsure how to proceed here, if his helpless look at Aizawa is anything to go by.

"You have never, not once, given any indication of that. You're a good brother to her and a good son and—"

"Don't call me that," Hitoshi interrupts Aizawa. "I don't want to be a brother, I never have! For once in my goddamn life I wanted something for myself!"

He almost chokes on all those ugly feelings crawling up his throat but he has to tell them the truth, he has to let them know what kind of horrible person he is because otherwise he'll always wonder and fear and hope that maybe he'll get accepted anyway, even though he doesn't deserve it.

"Oh, baby," Yamada cries out and reaches out to pull Hitoshi into his arms.

He didn't think he would cry, was prepared to bite any and all tears back but now it all comes bursting out and they slide burning hot down his cheeks.

"Your feelings are valid, kid," Aizawa reassuringly tells him as he cards his fingers through Hitoshi's hair. "You're allowed to feel that way."

"But they make me a bad person," Hitoshi cries out because they do, they make him something horrible, hateful, something jealous and greedy and he hates himself for that most of all.

"They don't, kiddo, they truly don't," Yamada rambles, stroking up and down his back. "Because not once, not ever have you acted on them. You're sweet to Eri, you're good to her and not once have you shown any sign of hating her. That makes you a good person, because your feelings don't define who you are or what you are but what you do with them does. And you decided to not show her that hate."

"Hitoshi, it's okay if you don't want to be her brother and it's okay if you wanted to be an only child and have us all to yourself, that is valid. It's valid for everyone but especially for someone with your history and background."

It only makes Hitoshi cry harder because how dare they be so goddamn understanding and despite his tears and wails they don't berate him even once. They simply hold him as if that is a normal thing to do after someone admits to hating a literal child and yet they do.

"I'm sorry," Hitoshi gets out once his sobs have died down. "Please, don't give me back."

Because for all that he hates that he has to share this family now, he thinks he would hate it more if they sent him away.

"We're not giving you back, Hitoshi, that's not going to happen," comes Aizawa's immediate response. "You're our son and there is no going back on that."

He says it with utmost surety as if not even Hitoshi's confession could change that and it only brings out new tears, though this time they slide silently down Hitoshi's face.

"And you don't have to be sorry," Yamada mutters. "It's okay that you feel that way. We're just grateful that you told us."

"How can you be grateful for that?" Hitoshi chokes out and Yamada presses a kiss to his head.

"Because it means you trust us enough to be honest with us and you're comfortable enough to talk about things that matter to you."

"But I shouldn't hate her."

"Maybe," Aizawa gives back. "Maybe you shouldn't and maybe you should have been allowed to have something for yourself and maybe we should have talked about this more but we're here and the situation is as it is now. There's no changing that. So it's okay for you to hate her, and it's okay for us to feel regret over not talking this over extensively enough with you and it's okay for her to be happy here. Those are all valid things."

"You don't think I'm a horrible person for hating her?" Hitoshi quietly asks and Yamada sighs.

"Kiddo, I already said it: you're not a horrible person because never, not once, have you let her feel that hate. You're not mean to her. You're not bullying her. You haven't hurt her in any way and that makes you a good person."

"And now that we know, maybe we can do a few things to make it easier for you. We can't change our situation anymore, because we are her legal guardians, but Mandalay has asked repeatedly if Eri can stay the weekend, and maybe that is something we should do more often."

"You can't kick her out!"

"Oh, sweetheart, see? You're so good," Yamada whispers as he presses a kiss to his forehead.

"We're not kicking her out. It would be good for Eri to be around a woman and a kid her age and it would be her decision, too. And it's not permanent; it's not even for an entire week, at least not during the school year. But it would allow her to stretch her wings and it would allow you to have more time with us."

"Or do you think you'll hate her more when she comes back?"

It sounds like a genuine question, not as if they are baiting him for an answer and Hitoshi shrugs awkwardly.

"I don't know," he admits because he has no idea if that is going to make it worse or not and Aizawa pats his head for it.

"Then we'll figure it out. Thank you for telling us, kid."

"How can you just—accept all of this?" Hitoshi blurts out because how are they so unbothered by everything he said but he's only crushed in a hug again.

"Because those are your feelings and we're just happy you shared them with us."

It should sound like a bullshit answer but it's so earnest it brings tears to his eyes yet again and he buries his face in Yamada's shoulder.

"I'm seeing Katsuki," he mumbles into the fabric, because he thinks that's also something he should share and if they are in the process of dragging out all these feelings then that's definitely something that should be out there, too.

It earns him a bonk to the head and when he picks his face out of Yamada's shoulder to glare at Aizawa for it, he's met with a gentle smile.

"A loud blonde, really? Now, that is something we have to talk about."

"Tell us everything," Yamada excitedly gets out and despite the tear tracks on his face, Hitoshi blushes.

Well, maybe it's okay to be honest about his feelings. At least with the right people.

"Run one more time and I'll fucking kill you," Katsuki pleasantly informs him, slowly sitting up on the bed, his gaze fixed on Hitoshi and his every muscle coiled to chase after him.

Hitoshi honest to god debates running away again, Katsuki can fucking see it on his face, but in the end he lets out a defeated sigh and steps into the room, closing the door behind himself.

"Wise decision," Katsuki remarks and Hitoshi slumps into his chair at the desk, a look of absolute defeat on his face.

"What do you want, Bakugou?" he asks and well.

Doesn't that sting more than Katsuki wants to admit?

He's not going to let Hitoshi know about that, though, because he no longer knows where he's standing with him and Katsuki would rather die than admit to being hurt by him if he means nothing to the idiot and so he schools his face into something much more hostile than hurt.

"Oh no, we're not going to do this, you absolute fucker. You kissed me. You kissed me first. And now you act as if it didn't mean anything? That's not going to happen."

Hitoshi stares off into nothing for a few moments before he scrubs a hand over his face.

"Maybe it didn't mean anything. Did you ever consider that?" he wants to know and Katsuki bares his teeth at him because how dare he.

How dare he pretend that it meant nothing when it meant everything and they both know it.

Katsuki still remembers the almost desperate sound he swallowed straight from Hitoshi's lips. He still remembers how his hands were fisted in Katsuki's shirt, reluctant to let go even after the kiss broke and Katsuki had been in the same boat.

It was mutual—it is mutual—and it means something.

Katsuki bites back his instinctual curse because the way Hitoshi is already curling in on himself makes him look like a beaten down, wet kitten and Katsuki is really not looking to hurt him further but goddamit.

They have to talk about it.

"It's okay if you don't want anyone to know. It's okay if you don't want anyone's noses in this," Katsuki says because he would be fine with that, he doesn't want any noisy opinions in their thing either but Hitoshi presses his lips together. "Lie to them if you must, but don't lie to me."

It's a plea more than anything, really, and Katsuki is almost ashamed of the way he's basically begging, but he just doesn't get it.

Hitoshi kissed him first, after weeks and weeks of dancing around each other and even if for whatever reason it turns out that Hitoshi doesn't like him romantically then that still makes them friends.

And being treated like this from someone he considered his friend really fucking hurts, Katsuki has found, so he damn well wants an answer.

He needs an answer.

Hitoshi simply will have to clarify this whole situation because Katsuki is tired of being in this limbo.

"You don't get it, Katsuki," Hitoshi hisses out and okay, back to a given name basis, that's good at least, even if the rest of the statement only pisses Katsuki off more.

"You're right, I don't fucking get it, because you won't explain yourself. You won't even talk to me!"

"It's because—it's—you don't—"

"Use your goddamn fucking words, Hitoshi," Katsuki interrupts him when it becomes apparent that he's going to stammer and stutter his way through another minute or two and finally, finally, some of that fire Katsuki was missing blazes in his eyes.

"I don't get to keep good things!" he almost yells out and his words leave a stunned silence behind because for a moment, Katsuki doesn't know what to say.

"I'm a good thing?" is what finally makes it out of his mouth, more vulnerable and quiet than he would like and Hitoshi jerks his head to the side, working his jaw while he tries his damn best to avoid even looking in Katsuki's general direction.

"Hitoshi," Katsuki says, more demanding this time because what the hell even. "I'm a good thing?"

Hitoshi very visibly grinds his teeth together and Katsuki's heart squeezes inside of his chest in a way he came to associate with a heart problem but before he can panic, Hitoshi finally nods.

"You are. You will be. Would be. I don't know, Kats, it's just—I don't ever get to keep a good thing and if I do, then it comes at a cost."

"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?" Katsuki blurts out because he doesn't understand. "You're still living with Aizawa and Yamada, right? Isn't that a good thing?"

Something like pure hate flashes over Hitoshi's face, closely followed by disgust and Hitoshi drops his gaze again.

"I am and it is, it's just—" Hitoshi lets out a rough breath. "This is going to make me sound like the worst person on the planet but—they took in Eri a month after they took in me."

"So?" Katsuki asks, because he doesn't get it and it earns him a hateful look from Hitoshi.

"So that means I got people caring for me, for just me, for a grand total of thirty days before I had to share that again."

Okay, yeah, Katsuki can see how that would suck. He knows enough about Hitoshi's story to realise that two guardians, who want him around, who care for him, are a novelty for Hitoshi and to have that for only a month before then having to share that attention, that love again—

"And don't even start," Hitoshi hisses out. "I know how that sounds. I know they can love us both and they are doing it, and doing it well at that, but—"

"It still sucks," Katsuki finishes for him, not even arguing because he understands that point.

What he doesn't understand is—

"It's not as if you're going to have to share me."

"Right, yeah," Hitoshi bitterly says and pushes a hand through his hair. "I'll have you. At least until you realise that I'm a little bitch, and depressed, and that I need my downtime. I have you until you realise that I'm a fucking nutjob who can't stand touch some days, who doesn't sleep, who has panic attacks when I have to use my quirk too much, who has panic attacks period. You'll see any of that and you'll wisen up and you will leave and I will have had you for a grand total of however many days I managed to fool you and then it'll be worse."

"Because you know what you had and what you lost," Katsuki finishes for him in a mutter and Hitoshi nods.

"So, yeah. I'm running. Because I never wanted to have that conversation."

"Shouldn't have kissed me then, fucker," Katsuki gives back and gets up from the bed, stalking over to Hitoshi and caging him in by placing his hands on the armrests. "Now listen to me," he demands and waits until Hitoshi finally meets his gaze. "I know all of that already."

"But you don't understand," Hitoshi tries to argue and Katsuki cuts him off with a sound that's not unlike a growl.

"I do. I do understand. Because we're friends first and I’ve been there when you had a panic attack and you did already cut me too deep with one of your scathing comments and you did blow me off for previously established hang-outs in favour of being alone and I'm still here, aren't I?"

"That's—different," Hitoshi gives back but he doesn't sound too sure himself anymore.

"How's that? How is that different?" Katsuki demands to know and watches Hitoshi open his mouth several times without a word ever making it out. "And while we're on it, it's not as if I'm all sun and roses either. I'm rude. I've yelled at you and called you every name under the sun. I’ve blown you off for training more than once already. I threaten you with my quirk and I nearly blew you up when you touched my neck. We're both fucked, so what?"

"You—you'll realise I'm too much," Hitoshi mutters, his eyes big and Katsuki rolls his eyes.

"And what if you realise I'm too much?" he shoots back and watches Hitoshi frown.

"You don't get it, Katsuki, I don't get to keep good things."

"I think we've just established that I'm an okay thing at best," Katsuki gives back, the corner of his mouth quirking up. "Maybe even just a neutral thing."

"It doesn't work like that, not when it makes me happy," Hitoshi says and then blushes as if he didn't realise those words were leaving his mouth.

"Okay, but if there's something that makes me happy then I'll fight literal death itself to keep it and you're going to make me happy, Hitoshi."

It's more honest than he likes to be, reveals more about his feelings than he's comfortable with but it's worth it for the way Hitoshi's eyes go big.

And then his eyes start to water and Katsuki curses himself.

"You mean it?" Hitoshi weakly asks, his voice all shaky and Katsuki can do nothing but nod.

"You know I fucking do. As if I'm going to let anyone but us ruin this."

And it's true, too. This is theirs and if it's supposed to go up in flames then because they both decide to set fire to it and for no other reason.

Everyone else can fuck right off and the same goes for Hitoshi's insecurities. Doubly so, even.

"Us, huh?" Hitoshi whispers and reaches out to gingerly take the hem of Katsuki's sleeve. "You sure?"

"You were the one running, so you better be sure," Katsuki gives back and bridges Hitoshi's hesitation by reaching out and tangling their fingers together.

Hitoshi looks at him for long, long moments, clearly thinking things over before he eventually gives the tiniest of nods and then he leans up to kiss Katsuki. Again.

"If you run one more time, I'll kill you for real," is the first thing out of Katsuki's mouth when they part, because he's sick and tired of being avoided but Hitoshi only gives him a crooked smile.

"No more running," he promises and squeezes Katsuki's hand.

"Good."