Blondified

“hey blonde, did you finish your homework? what’d you get? you can do better than a B.”

“hey blonde, make some money to afford a car. make sure to keep dashing for money! but don’t dash alone at night. no you can’t drive the car during the day, we need it! why are you giving them half your paycheck?? it’s under your name! Don’t forget to fill the car with gas-but don’t use our money to fill it! You need to be self-sufficient! And no you can’t take the car, it’s under our name! Buy your own car. ”

“don’t go in that neighborhood, it’s bad news.”

“why are you hanging out with her? she only wants to hurt you. she’s going to end up in somebody’s trunk.”

“blonde you need to get your shit together!”

“then move out blonde.”

“why are you being dramatic? don’t pack your things like you have somewhere to be.”

“stay out of that friend group.”

“why don’t you have any friends?”

“start talking to them.”

“they’re bad news, stop talking to them.”

“don’t rot in your room”

“you’re grounded and not allowed to leave the house.”

“why don’t you have any friends?”

if you ever find this account, hi! yes I have an alt account that I post publicly on and yes it does actually help a lot to work out my feelings.

anyways, if you find this account I wanted to tell you the truth without the confrontation of something that may risk our friendship. You’re an incredibly great friend and I can always always ALWAYS rely on you which is something I never expected when we first became friends. you’ve been one of 2 of the biggest helps to accepting myself. You being from a wealthy family and still having your personality has helped me TREMENDOUSLY find my place in the world, even if I’ve been raised to believe otherwise.

That being said, I’ve thought about this for a while. I told little bri-bear(purposefully misspelled) about this and I worded it in such a terrible way. When I was mad at you, I told him that you were “everything I didn’t want to be”. I was talking with him about everything: the nic addiction, littering, drunk driving, partying every night, all the drugs, etc. which, to be fair, is a major issue for me. I’m never gonna like stop being friends over it because I do hold out on the notion that you are capable of change. I know how your head works both inside and out, and inside of there it truly displays this ability to change into something better. But, as much as I know you could change, it’s never going to be my place to decide. If you want the honest truth, I really love you. You’re one of my greatest friends. I will never stop being friends unless you do something to me in particular on purpose. Which, obviously, you’ll never do.

I do get a little worried about telling you sensitive info about me and I’m worried that one day I’ll fuck up on accident and you’ll hate me. If that day ever comes to pass, and you find this account, I want you to know that I love you, and I’m sorry for whatever I said or did. I would take a bullet for you. I came to your house when you got into that accident because I was worried you would feel depressed and wouldn’t get out of bed. I’m ALWAYS looking out for you. My mom will always look out for you, too. So if we’re not friends and you’re reading this, please just don’t take it too hard.

I love you!! Thank you for always being there for every phone call, doorbell ring, and TikTok notif.

I’m not joking. A beautiful fat woman posted herself and these are the men commenting.

I recently saw a very young girl commenting “Miracalories” on a Miraculous video with that really corny, unfunny, stupid ass gif of that girl laughing with her eyes crossed. It’s unbelievably upsetting to know that there are girls being raised with the same values as men who think its okay to comment on a woman’s weight but subscribe to the onlyfans of a woman with a Down syndrome filter on. It’s sickening, truly.

Edit: Just found it:

1. Scrolling thru notes app(includes writings of meltdowns from early 2022 that was not supposed to be seen by anyone, a list of my KINKS and things I was into that they actively made fun of people for being into, and embarrassing info. we’ve known each other since march 18th btw.)

2. Looking at messages w my bffs(includes angry messages about not just them but other people they know, screenshots/chats of things that my bffs don’t want other people to see, etc etc.)

3. even went as far as to look thru my chatgpt history. (Includes issues with my family, drafts for what to say to my parents, my OCD thoughts, and stuff that unironically keeps me up at night)

and btw they wouldn’t even let me have their phone. memorized my password and address and highschool name and even my long, 15 word major. My PARENS don’t even know it.