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every few years of being online i tend to get like. this odd restlessness about having old works up? in the past i think i’ve purged my entire internet presence like 3 or 4 times, erasing all fics and art that i didn’t want to have around anymore. it actually happened not long before i joined the ouat fandom. i know a lot of people like keeping their whole history up for anyone to still enjoy later on, even if they’ve moved on. i respect that, i even get that it’s a really generous thing to do. personally, the longer i tend to leave things up, the more weird anxiety it brings me? i don’t know.

when i last took down a handful of works, several people reached out to me to 1) tell me i might regret it if i take them down and 2) request that i orphan works instead of deleting them. as far as the first point, i gotta say i have never once regretted deleting old things. actually, it tends to ease my anxiety. it feels good for me on a personal level. as for the second point, while i understand the attachment others have to things i’ve made (and i appreciate it. years ago the comments and conversations i had with many of you made me feel so wonderful) orphaning works for me is not an option. it takes the control away from me, and there’s no way to ever get that control back, and that is truly unbearable for me.

all that to say, sometime soon, maybe in the next week or month or months, i plan on purging all my works from ao3. i’m giving it some time so anyone who wants to download any specific work can do so. i’ll keep copies of all the works too, they will only be gone from ao3, not wiped from existence. i’m leaving this blog up for the foreseeable future and i’m not deleting the ouat art. (if there ever in the future comes a time when i do decide to do that, i will once again give a heads up)

i’ll reblog this a few times to try and make sure it gets seen, that no one is blindsided by suddenly empty links.

sorry to say my ask box will remain closed, and while i don’t mind messages about this, please don’t try to ask me to reconsider

every few years of being online i tend to get like. this odd restlessness about having old works up? in the past i think i’ve purged my entire internet presence like 3 or 4 times, erasing all fics and art that i didn’t want to have around anymore. it actually happened not long before i joined the ouat fandom. i know a lot of people like keeping their whole history up for anyone to still enjoy later on, even if they’ve moved on. i respect that, i even get that it’s a really generous thing to do. personally, the longer i tend to leave things up, the more weird anxiety it brings me? i don’t know.

when i last took down a handful of works, several people reached out to me to 1) tell me i might regret it if i take them down and 2) request that i orphan works instead of deleting them. as far as the first point, i gotta say i have never once regretted deleting old things. actually, it tends to ease my anxiety. it feels good for me on a personal level. as for the second point, while i understand the attachment others have to things i’ve made (and i appreciate it. years ago the comments and conversations i had with many of you made me feel so wonderful) orphaning works for me is not an option. it takes the control away from me, and there’s no way to ever get that control back, and that is truly unbearable for me.

all that to say, sometime soon, maybe in the next week or month or months, i plan on purging all my works from ao3. i’m giving it some time so anyone who wants to download any specific work can do so. i’ll keep copies of all the works too, they will only be gone from ao3, not wiped from existence. i’m leaving this blog up for the foreseeable future and i’m not deleting the ouat art. (if there ever in the future comes a time when i do decide to do that, i will once again give a heads up)

i’ll reblog this a few times to try and make sure it gets seen, that no one is blindsided by suddenly empty links.

sorry to say my ask box will remain closed, and while i don’t mind messages about this, please don’t try to ask me to reconsider

every few years of being online i tend to get like. this odd restlessness about having old works up? in the past i think i’ve purged my entire internet presence like 3 or 4 times, erasing all fics and art that i didn’t want to have around anymore. it actually happened not long before i joined the ouat fandom. i know a lot of people like keeping their whole history up for anyone to still enjoy later on, even if they’ve moved on. i respect that, i even get that it’s a really generous thing to do. personally, the longer i tend to leave things up, the more weird anxiety it brings me? i don’t know.

when i last took down a handful of works, several people reached out to me to 1) tell me i might regret it if i take them down and 2) request that i orphan works instead of deleting them. as far as the first point, i gotta say i have never once regretted deleting old things. actually, it tends to ease my anxiety. it feels good for me on a personal level. as for the second point, while i understand the attachment others have to things i’ve made (and i appreciate it. years ago the comments and conversations i had with many of you made me feel so wonderful) orphaning works for me is not an option. it takes the control away from me, and there’s no way to ever get that control back, and that is truly unbearable for me.

all that to say, sometime soon, maybe in the next week or month or months, i plan on purging all my works from ao3. i’m giving it some time so anyone who wants to download any specific work can do so. i’ll keep copies of all the works too, they will only be gone from ao3, not wiped from existence. i’m leaving this blog up for the foreseeable future and i’m not deleting the ouat art. (if there ever in the future comes a time when i do decide to do that, i will once again give a heads up)

i’ll reblog this a few times to try and make sure it gets seen, that no one is blindsided by suddenly empty links.

sorry to say my ask box will remain closed, and while i don’t mind messages about this, please don’t try to ask me to reconsider

every few years of being online i tend to get like. this odd restlessness about having old works up? in the past i think i’ve purged my entire internet presence like 3 or 4 times, erasing all fics and art that i didn’t want to have around anymore. it actually happened not long before i joined the ouat fandom. i know a lot of people like keeping their whole history up for anyone to still enjoy later on, even if they’ve moved on. i respect that, i even get that it’s a really generous thing to do. personally, the longer i tend to leave things up, the more weird anxiety it brings me? i don’t know.

when i last took down a handful of works, several people reached out to me to 1) tell me i might regret it if i take them down and 2) request that i orphan works instead of deleting them. as far as the first point, i gotta say i have never once regretted deleting old things. actually, it tends to ease my anxiety. it feels good for me on a personal level. as for the second point, while i understand the attachment others have to things i’ve made (and i appreciate it. years ago the comments and conversations i had with many of you made me feel so wonderful) orphaning works for me is not an option. it takes the control away from me, and there’s no way to ever get that control back, and that is truly unbearable for me.

all that to say, sometime soon, maybe in the next week or month or months, i plan on purging all my works from ao3. i’m giving it some time so anyone who wants to download any specific work can do so. i’ll keep copies of all the works too, they will only be gone from ao3, not wiped from existence. i’m leaving this blog up for the foreseeable future and i’m not deleting the ouat art. (if there ever in the future comes a time when i do decide to do that, i will once again give a heads up)

i’ll reblog this a few times to try and make sure it gets seen, that no one is blindsided by suddenly empty links.

sorry to say my ask box will remain closed, and while i don’t mind messages about this, please don’t try to ask me to reconsider

probably not the most exciting post to see pop up on here since this blog is mostly inactive at this point, but i just wanted to give everyone a heads up that i’ll be removing some fics from AO3; just the unfinished works [Special Instructions, Periphery, and (sleep)(dream)(wake)] and a few PWP oneshots that i’d rather take down at this point. i’ve had too many messages over the past few years either begging me to continue or berating me for abandoning Special Instructions, and honestly it’s worn me down, so as much as i truly, truly appreciate everyone who’s given it love, i’ve reached a point where i know i won’t be able to finish it, and i don’t want to feel the anxiety that goes along with that. the other works i’m just deleting on a personal basis, trying to clean out my works as best i can rn. anyone worried about Every Letter, don’t worry, i’m leaving that series up in its entirety.

i won’t be taking them down for another few days, so if you have any attachment to any of those fics, feel free to download PDFs or do whatever you need to keep a copy, i don’t mind