Blood in Your Veins

last night I dreamt I still knew you

I absolutely could stab myself in the eye just laughing at how my life seems to have revolved around mid Septembers

Hahahahahahahhahwhahahahhahahwahhahahahahahhahahah who is to say

Will she unpack this? Who is to say

it is a weird thing, looking back on the books of your childhood and realizing that you never thought you would know such pain

back on my blog bullshit to say I am Instagram creeping an found out an ex’s ex who got married after dating him recently separated or divorced her husband?? wild

so! this is the 6,000th post on my blog, that I’ve had for more than a decade, when I was in 15 and in 9th grade. I’m going to close this chapter, no more posts. But I’ve been thinking about this blog for a few weeks now and I think I want to write a YA novel, my experiences as my source material, but fictional. I’m writing it into existence, final post. thank you!

I feel so depressed

I’m weak and it fucking sucks

I’m in such a high stakes relationship I’ve never been a liar or a cheater but got I’m so fucking scared that I’m gonna fuck up and this guy is gonna leave me he’s just so wonderful and I! Can’t! Fucking! Let! That! Happen!

feelin sad again! yikes!

‪I thought I met a good person who I couldve been in a healthy relationship w (he’s still good) & now I think I may be taking the most active role I’ve ever held in my own emotional undoing! the wild thing abt making bad decisions when ur brain is fully formed is u can blame no one else but urself lol‬