Hi world wide internet, I’m calling on you guys to help me if possible please 🥺 (using a throwaway tumblr as my abuser has access to my personal)
My name is Blake. I am a black 20 year old male (ftm) and a year ago or roughly about that I entered a relationship with someone who I thought loved me, well it wasn’t until we had officially moved away (from his family, my father and I do not talk) to a secluded area that the cracks started to show.
I could list you all the endless abuse that’s been endured, but I know so many people on here and in the world are suffering enough and tumblr is a place where a lot of us come to vent and to even escape, I don’t want you to read this and be triggered, so I’ll spare all the gory details, but I need to get away, far away, as quickly as I can. My abuser made me quit a local job I had (worked in a little convenience store) because they promised to “look after me” and that all my “needs would be met” so I didn’t need to work (I suffer from fibromyalgia but I can still work to an extent). I didnt realise at the time that this was just another way to cut me off from the world and to have less contact with anyone other than them. I’ve had my own binder cut up by this person telling me that I would never achieve my transition, so it was pointless, I just needed to accept who I am and be done with it. It’s been torture. I have my phone checked to make sure I’m not doing anything I “shouldn’t” be doing so with that in mind, when my abuser is asleep I will do my best to get on here and check any messages I have etc. I will have to keep deleting and downloading the app again just to cover my own tracks.
I’m asking for your help to raise some money so I can possibly stay in a little bed and breakfast for a few days and then hopefully travel somewhere where I can be safe and eventually start fresh. I have managed to contact a particular B&B that is a 45 minute drive away who charge £35 a night. A cab fare there would be around £40. (I plan to eventually travel towards London so anything extra for train fares would be great.)
I know so many people are probably wondering why I’ve not already called the police, or tried to reach out for professional help, but on the occasions where I’ve tried, I’ve been told should I succeed in doing so that before anyone got to me that they would find me dead on their arrival. I am absolutely petrified and this is my last resort, coming to you guys.
I want to be able to escape and then take the steps of being able to report my abuser properly, somewhere where I can’t be found by them.
If anyone needs me to go into further detail about my situation I am happy to in a private message.
If you’ve read this far, thank you. A reblog and signal boost would be amazing.
f you’re able to donate, thank you so much, my PayPal email is [email protected]
Thank you for reading, stay safe 💙❤️
26/08/2020
Edit:hi everyone! I am amazed at the support and donations so far, so thank you to everyone who has donated and reached out to me. I was advised to include an “end goal” so to speak in terms of money. Currently I am sitting at £70, which will get me two nights in a B&B. I guess my overall goal is around £140. This would cover the costs of cab fares, train fare into London and then travel in and around London. The £70 I already have is not included in the £140 I still roughly need. Anything else over this would go towards food costs and travelling locally to secure jobs. (Once I get to London I will be staying at a refugee) or will be donated to other people who need it.
