miles away

i know i am like. not here. but i saw puma blue live tonight. and it was absolutely out of this world. if you were ever locked in with me or SITF like. you may know how important he is to me. and just. fuck! no other fucking words.

i promise i will reply to sitf comments soon. i’m just Going Through It. but i’ve read them and i love y’all. 🥹🥹🥹🥹

honestly so glad i found a new fandom finally. 90% of y’all moved on to other shit. which i love for y’all. truly. but i was feeling so lonely on my little island. now i’m giggling at my dash again like it’s 2021.

(my heated rivalry sideblog is @jesuisilyarozanov in case anyone here is into that.)

that’s it. not very many this year.

"this song's call evil twin, and he's mine." holding miles on his lap on his birthday. leading the crowd in singing "miles, miles, miles fucking kane" at t in the park. asking miles to teach him the "put your duke's up john" solo. writing eycte (song) and star treatment in succession. "there are two superstars: beyoncé and miles kane." standing side stage watching him perform with proud concentration. "he makes me laugh from a place i didn't know existed." wearing matching clothes. sharing clothes. "eyes the color of water left in mud." "saw-toothed loverboy." staring at him in that gq shoot. stopping the middle of a verse just to kiss him because he can’t help himself. "it was me and you and miles kane."

realizing there's a non-zero chance that alex has a shoebox somewhere in his house where there are a bunch of miscellaneous art supplies. like colored pencils and markers and glitter.

not tryna be messy but…. miles kane would never leave the house in a wrinkled shirt lmao

if he didn’t want me to write about getting his ass ate then he shouldn’t have grown such a juicy peach ijs

i love that most of the fandom have all strayed into tertiary band posting, and i know exactly one song from each of them. but i love the song that i know. and i refer to them as the song i know. so i scroll and i’m like awww there’s the starbursters.

time for the annual release of my drafts. i almost forgot.

i may have to start a new tumblr bro. ilya rozanov has taken over my life.