Thank you for the unexpected friendship before the year 2017 ended. Everything was really unexpected but im glad it turned out to be ok. I first met you a year prior and it was a normal encounter. I never thought that you had it as well. My senses really fail me from time to time to notice real lost souls lurking around my reach. Fast forward 2017 prior the party I thought to randomly invite you to the party not knowing I would get to know you more. I had you waited for an hour and when I showed up you were still all smiles in your own natural self. We walked and laugh and waited “again” for other people to show up at the venue. I had snapped couple of your photos prior the waiting game. That’s when I noticed there’s a division from the real smiles and the faked smiles through your eyes. I got curious. I waited and waited and still took photos of you because I can’t really fully understand what’s behind those eyes and I was afraid you might notice I was curious decoding your soul. I had my first chance to see your aura in an unguarded state when you laid down on the bed and I was on the other side taking a photo of you. I was crushed when it got in me. The sorrow was unbearable and was way too deep. There are wounds but there were scars deeply inflicted inside you. If you had noticed after that moment I almost never left you alone and kept bugging and annoying you while the party was ongoing. I kept you busy with taking photos. Because i noticed it was a temporary escape from the reality. Then after everything calmed down. I’ve gotten my chance to ask you what’s wrong. You’ve tried diverting it to no avail but i was really persistent and you broke into tears after that. But my moment was halted because others noticed you were crying. I distanced my thoughts and let the moment get into you. After hearing partial stories from you I reflected back on my experiences and connected the points that led me to that assessment that you’re turning into something beyond repairable if not helped or fixed soon. Hours passed by, everyone was already sleeping but we’re among the last one’s standing. We’re treading waters talking about petty things and photographing the moments as we wait for the time to sped up. You were playing with my camera exploring the taste of monochrome. While I was there beside you contemplating on the things that you already lost hope. I fell asleep. Then when i woke up there was a letter in my notebook. It brought me to tears and decided to do something for your soul. I was persistent damn too persistent and impulsive. I felt the time wasn’t enough to see through your soul. I went with you to your hometown and that was when all things started making sense. I saw my former self in your soul. Lost, damaged, and way too lonely. I still took photos to document the moment. It was a normal thing for me. But this time I felt it had a purpose. The purpose to convey you the message that you’re not alone. From that series of documentation I had hit the holy grail of the moment, that’s when I snapped your photo with a closed eyes holding my photos. No words was enough to describe the purity of the moment. I withheld my tears from that moment because you would notice something is wrong if I gave in to the sadness I saw. The day ended with you taking another ride home while I boarded a different vehicle on my way home I was crying on my way back, after all the things i saw the past 2 days. It felt like home away from home. The same emotions that burdened me for years before I became a hopeless case. I was slapped with that reality that I can save someone and have a deeper purpose aside from being shitty with my life. Few days passed by we were still talking. Like everyday seemed like first. We were getting into this convos about life and your sadness. And i offered to help you without anything in return but you rejected. It was a normal “stubborn” defense mechanism but thank goodness I was really persuasive enough to push it through and have the idea that i will make you smile as much as i can. Out of that craziness i asked you and your mom to take you and see some waves but i got rejected by your mom.. But it was totally understandable because im really a stanger but i didn't stopped me and we both knew what happened next. To be honest it was the most fulfilling Christmas gift I’ve ever done. When i saw you teared up I was speechless and just gave my hanky so you can wipe your tears. Everything is really worth it. I guess the minimal improvements from your mood made my holidays meaningful. I wouldn’t mind travelling hours and waiting another couple of hours just to bug you off and see you and your soul smile. Everything in life has a purpose. I found mine through your soul. I’ll keep you warm from the coldness of reality and the pains that froze your soul. I’ll be that small light to keep you out of darkness. I’ll reiterate I’m not expecting anything in return aside from you being happy and not feel alone. Let’s spend time making yourself better while I still can. You know how destructive my soul is. But atleast at the moment it is calm and busy making you smile. Thank you. For unexpectedly showing me Tranquility from the chaos inside me. Let’s fill your soul with good memories I’ll always try to keep my word to stay longer for your soul. I’ll try to be more mindful of the negativity spilling out of my soul. Thank you for the being part of my 2017. Let’s keep the bucket list rolling and make your soul happy. Always remember I SEA YOU.
