shit world

its all one big humiliation ritual no matter what you're doing

I get that there is a group of women who don't want dick and simply wear make up in order to receive better treatment at work and take adventage of the fact le society treats "well kept" and attractive people better, on average. But the very few cases in my life when I had some make up on and wore something else than GNC/baggy clothes/male jeans (which are way more comfortable than female jeans btw) I noticed I got more attention from men and it scared me. It triggered my dysphoria so bad I wanted to run to the nearest bathroom and wash the make up off and change clothes, I couldn't focus on anything because it made me too self aware. I don't know how women can cope with someone staring at them, even when they perform feminity solely in order to climb social hierarchy or whatever. I don't want to be seen as fuckable, I want to be invisible

why it feels like some women are naturally on drugs like some women are naturally crazy and neurotic and not in a reasonable way

what i mean by in a “ reasonable “ way, is for example me i am the defention of neurotic but it’s because of my anxiety and ocd, when it comes to feeling safe or in control, i become neurotic when i feel i have lost control in whatever but what i see in other women is this hunger for being out there ? idk how to explain this, but it’s as if they are on drugs the level of delusion..insane.

I see sex and reproduction at the centre of life and this strange world, like a blackhole at the centre of a galaxy, everything revolves around it, the closer you are to this black hole, the less you see of the galaxy, the harder it is to escape and fly towards the edges or free yourself of the world, sex is a lowly activity that drags you down and away from enlightenment, it is no wonder that spirituality always frowns upon it, nothing good can come out of an activity reserved for animals, reproduction happens when instinct overrides higher reason, and sex happens when body takes over mind. My intuition tells me the path to enlightenment is the path of most resistance, since everything else follows the path of least resistance, enlightenment can be achieved if you break this pattern and go against it.

if women could love each other i will value friendship more

99% of women can't love eachother not even as friends, the male worship gets in the way and prevents that. Women as a class have not learned friendship, they only know romantic love, they don't understand friendship. They don't understand what friendship is or how to be helped by it. It's like they operate based off their biological instincts, just like men operate on their biological instincts to spread their genes, except men understand friendship while women are fully stuck following their biology. Women evolved to worship men on a biological level and everything they do is to secure a male. Every "friendship" they make with other women is all at the end just trying to serve their biological drive to secure a male. You see this all the time; look at who and how women make friends with other women; it's clear there's a strategy there with the end goal being to secure a male. They only make alliances within their attractiveness rank and so that they can look attractive and appealing to men as a group of women. Their biology is not their fault, they simply evolved that way bc they were selected for and being able to have status within a group secured their survival and the survival of their offspring. But they seem unaware of it. If you think is an exaggeration just look at any average family; more often than not there's always tension between all the female family members and they're always eagerly waiting for a chance to tear down their female family members. Look at the mother in law subreddits. Full of women talking about how their mother in law hates them is always trying to cut them down. Men aren't like that towards their male relatives. There's never any major conflict between a married man and how father in law but there's ALWAYS conflict between either a mother and daughter, or a woman and her mother in law, or a woman and her aunt or insert whatever female family member here. Look at how common mothers abusing daughters are versus how rare fathers abusing specifically sons are in comparison. It happens, but it's rare in comparison and it's never over female validation when it does happen. Male validation is at the center of 99.9% of women's lives; whether it's her daughter, her mother, her sister her friend doesn't matter, male validation and the biological urge to tear other women down takes precedence. Women will invent schizo reasons for why they don't like other women, but really it's just their biology. They're clearly wired that way. Anyone who denies this clear worldwide pattern is just naive. Women will be like "oh no you don't understand, I just don't like THIS particular woman, I don't hate all other women!" But next week it'll be another woman she "just doesn't like", and then another, and then another, and then another, and then another, and it'll be every single woman she's ever met that she "just doesn't like" or "just has a problem with this particular behavior". Meanwhile that same behavior, she would adore if it was a man doing it.

This hits hard