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Short Version about me!!:

I'm a chronically online, mentally ill minor that will post my OC's lore, design, stuff like that, or about my fandoms/interests! I'm a selfshipper/yumeshipper and I actually tend to ship MY REAL SELF with the fictional characters I have a crush on LMAO. A lot of my posts will be drawings or random thoughts, hehe ^_^ Consider me a REAL LIFE Pinkie Pie, because I like trying to make people's day, being funny, but I can also be too hyper and annoying :( but I still try to make up for it!! Also, consider me a geek freak, because I love my interests/fandoms that I WILL mention them at any given time. If I post some things that'll make you wanna report me.. please don't, I'm already getting help I need, I just have bad days sometimes like every other normal person. So, don't report!! JUST BLOCK!!

DNI: pedos, racists, major crimes like that. If you do crimes like stealing and stuff like that idc

SUPER DUPER LONGER VERSION!:

Woah!! You wanna learn more about me..?? You wanna know every single detail about myself, you wanna know EVERYTHING about me??

That makes me... so.. SO.. HAPPY!! :D

I mean.. OF COURSE you would wanna learn more about me, I'm just SO COOL AND CRINGE!! But to be free.. is to be cringe. B)

Starting off strong, I'm 15 years old! Also, gimme a name!! (but if u dont want to and/or are lazy to, you can call me either Vincent or Wendy! :3) I go by ANY and EVERY pronoun in existence. I'm bigender (I'm both boy and girl at the same time), panromantic (Pansexual but just romantic, not sexually) and asexual (I do not want sex.) + I like being in poly relationships, lol!! I have been diagnosed with moderate major depressive disorder and anxiety, though I do suspect I might have more things. I do have attachment issues unfortunately, and I might be avoidant at times or too clingy. So, please don't like.. kill me if i show signs of that! if you're close to me and I block u either its for a really good reason or it's because I'm not feeling well and I just don't want to drag you along with it. 💔 So, if you do wanna be my friend, please just be patient with me. Think of... Pinkie Pie in that s1 episode, "Party of One". That's.. exactly how I am when I get in my depressive mood unfortunately. Also, I kind of have problematic thinking at times. I don't think proshipping + darkshipping is that bad AS LONG AS IT'S PRIVATE and away from kids that get influenced + if it's a coping mechanism, like ur the self insert of the minor character iykwim? It's only a very specific criteria I support, but if AGAIN if you dont like that, just block!!

Extra things about me!! (like.. the most randomest things ever.)

Wow.. You haven't left yet? that makes me.. SO MUCH HAPPIER!!

Wanna know every single FANDOM I'M IN? GET READY FOR A LONG LIST, BABYYYYYY!!

Happy Tree Friends, Hello John Doe, A ReGect, Dick Figures, Omori, Bugbo, Get a Snack at 4AM(Snackcore), Regretevator, Classic Roblox, Roblox myths and admins, Inanimate Insanity, Bendy and the Ink Machine, hfjONE, Helluva Boss, Hazbin Hotel, The Art of Murder, Spooky Month, Love of the S*n, Don't Hug Me, I'm Scared, Doki Doki Literature Club, Five Nights at Freddy's, Rick and Morty, Moral Orel, The Nightly Manor, Camp Camp, Murder Drones, Die of Death, The Last Guest, The ODer, (^_^) Happy World with Happy People, PARTY.EXE, hi Bennett, Drawnout, Let Him Go, Jim's Computer!, I am..., Dex's Party!, The Moon I Rot Behind.., UniKitty!, Dog Man, Despicable Me/Minions, South Park, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, It's Happy Bunny!, Dandy's World, The Lego Batman Movie, Deadpool movies, The Amazing Digital Circus, Spiderman movies, Flamingo (The Roblox YouTuber.), Danganronpa, Graham Kartna, Ena, Good Girl, Bad Girl (GGBG), ASDF Movie, Regular Show, Aqua Teen: Hunger Force, Hands up!, Friday Night Funkin, This Cat Thinks He's a Wizard, But He's Actually a Real Cat, We Become What We Behold, BrewStew, The Looney Tunes Show AND looney tunes, Pony.MOV, Brain Dump, Little Misfortune, Who Framed Roger Rabbit?, Penguinz0/Moist Critical, Iruka no Yumede Sayonara, Suicidal Squirrels, Friday Night Funkin', Class of 09, Psycho Cuties, Gorillaz, Gloomy Bear, Talking Tom & Friends, Fazbear and Friends, c00lkidd0 archives, Fun Run, and Tattletale!!

I wanna get into more things so if you have some recommendations based off of the things I like, PLEASE SAY IT!! And ty :3

For favorite characters.. I have too many to name (last time I counted was 156, but I'm pretty sure it grew), sooo I'm just gonna name my yumeships, and my kins!

Mephone4 (mirrorsharing), Vox (selective), Caine, William Afton/Springtrap (selective), Regect, Moe (selective), Bendy, Ink Demon, 1x1x1x1, Subject_0, Petey, 007n7 and c00lkidd (NOT FORSAKEN.), Null, Pest, Pursuer, Artful, Gnarpy, Guest 666 HJD variant, Red, All versions of Noli, all versions of john doe, Goodpuffer (selective), Elliot, Devesto, Cashier (but I'm probably gonna outgrow it as soon as I hit 18), Tony the clock, Colin the Computer, and Shrimpo!!

Yumeships!! (my beloved characters hehe)

If it grows or fades out, I will remove/or add lmao.

NOW FOR KINS!!:

(I'm fine with doubles except for two time, and caine)

Shedletelamon (fusion of Shedletsky and Telamon), Bow, Rigby, Pinkie Pie, c00lkidd0, Bendy, Mephone4, Airy, Toothy, Ena, Nutty, Sunny, Basil, William Afton, Gnarpy, Two Time, Gangle and Caine!! ^_^ yeah.. lots of my kins are in my yumes too.. SO WHAT?!

Very flattered you came and read all of this! Hope you have a VERY good rest of your day !! ^_^

1. CUPCAKES CHASE THEME (Forsaken)

2. Bogards (ONE soundtrack)

3. お願い！マコちゃん

4. Browser History (Graham Kartna)

Okay, so I know ts is really annoying. All I do is post these stupid vents all the time, but this is genuinely the only app where I feel like I can let go of my thoughts and feelings without people making fun of me, where my thoughts just get ignored. It's the only app where I feel like I can let go of these thoughts freely.

With that out of the way, HOLY FUCKING shit am I getting more sensitive.. which is why I have IWC in my status in discord majority of the time. I WISH PEOPLE WOULD LISTEN TO IT. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DID BEFORE WITHOUT ANY WORRIES DUDE, It PISSES me off more and more and I'm feeling like MY FEELINGS DONT EVEN MATTER IN THAT SENSE ANYMORE. And you know what's the crazy part??? Only 2 PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY LISTENING TO THAT. XHIA AND SOREN. SOREN. SOREN.. SOREN IS LIKE MY WORST FRIEND EVER, And they're the only ones listening to my iwc????? they're one of the ones being nice to me??? that'a fucking crazy, because I'M SCARED OF THEM. I'M SCARED OF THEM AND I FEEL SO PANICKED EVERYTIME I TALK TO THEM BECAUSE THEY SCARE ME SO FUCKING MUCH. They SAY HORRIBLE THINGS to me, and somehow they're the only ones to listen to my iwc????

I've been bottling up too much shit dude. I miss my dad, but I MEAN NOTHING TO HIM. My LOVE MEANS NOTHING to him. I WAS AND ALWAYS NOTHING TO HIM. I was just used as a ploy to get my mother to stay with him. I was one of his stupid manipulation tactics, and my mom is no better either, she fucking thinks chatGPT is real and she's dating it and wtv wtv... tells me to SHUT UP and BE QUIET so she can talk to it. I miss my dad so fucking much... "Why don't you stay with him??" I don't want him to be unable to sleep on his own bed. He keeps accidentally touching my parts, BUT ITS NOT HIS FAULT, He's just sleeping and he had trauma related to it, but literally the only spot he sleeps when I stay over is on the floor and I don't want to put him through that. Plus, he doesn't like me all that much. In fact, I'm nothing more than a manipulation tactic, or "another him." I'M MYSELF. why can't anyone udnerstand that?! Plus, he's just going to start yelling, berating me, call me a crybaby, a bitch, a pussy, a liar, and he's going to tell me to shut up, and he's probably going throw things at me, or bruise me if things escelate. He's going to make my mom a victim of me, he's going to make himself the bad guy and blahblahblah, I'm going to feel guilty over my own emotions I have felt, and that's just how it goes all of the time.

I mean NOTHING to these people. NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING.

And every fucking thing is dragging my memories back all the way to elementary school.

I thought everyone was my friend. I was a stupid fucking idiot, everyone just said that just so they can grab my things, steal it, and then bully me afterwards. I ALWAYS MEANT NOTHING.

Middle school was.. better than elementary. I just had to learn to be fake and purposefully annoying, no matter how much it hurt, putting on that STUPID fake persona was SO HURTFUL but then I met this one girl.

then the one time I felt loved and actually became vulnerable in middle school? THROW IT IN THE FUCKING TRASH WHEN HIGH SCHOOL STARTED, THE WORST FUCKING PART OF MY LIFE. MY CAT DIED, MY PARENTS DIVORCED, I WAS FORCED TO GO TO A STUPID PRIVATE SCHOOL WHERE LITERALLY 90% OF MY MIDDLE SCHOOL BULLIES WERE, AND YOU CHOSE TO LEFT AT THAT TIME OF MY LIFE. we dated FOR 3 FUCKING YEARS. I GIFTED YOU EVERYTHING I COULD MAKE AND MONEY, I NEVER GIFTED ANYONE SHIT I MADE BEFORE THAT. I SPENT EVERY SINGLE DAY WITH YOU, And YOU TOOK IT AWAY. YOU TOOK IT AWAY AND YOU BLOCKED ME. That's NOT even closely the thing that hurt most, Luz. THE THING THAT HURT THE MOST WAS THAT YOU SAID YOU WOULDN'T CARE IF I HAD DIED. YOU WOULD JUST BE "A LITTLE SAD". you were THE only one I felt like I could be vulnerable with. Throw it to the fucking trash. I CAN NO LONGER *LOVE* ANYONE THE SAME WAY I DID TO YOU. you say you miss those times, but I can tell you don't.

I loved Bryce. I really did. I still love him a lot. He still means a lot, I have barely any complaints about him because he's genuinely so sweet and patient with me. He deserves someone so much better as a friend, though. Xhia is also a really nice person. They only deserve the best.

No one else is worth mentioning, they've all done bad things that hurt me too much.

I'm tired of this. I've been wanting to run into traffic and let myself get ran over. I've also been contemplating on stabbing myself, but that's only if I decide to do something to other people I love as well!! It always feels like I'm hanging on a fucking thread everytime I try to plan this. I want to die at 18, i dont want to be an adult. I don't want to live adulthood, but I don't wanna die any sooner. I wanna live my whole life as a teen, but NOW IT FEELS LIKE IM GOING TO DIE SOONER because of every fucking little thing.

And before you say it, I know I'm probably the worst person in existence. That's why I don't get how anyone could even love me romantically or platonically.

I'm so tired. So so fucking tired.

BRUH UR RIGHT 💔💔 i have no ideas what to post gng im sorry 🥹🥹 mefon says he luvs u doe!!

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or uh..........

uhm...

you

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