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(guy who hasnt eaten today voice) no no im fine its just yknow the horrors. yeah theyre unending again

Putting it simply, I am obsessed with the inherent, endearing patheticness of Stede Bonnet. I love that disaster follows him, I love that he runs head-first into bullshit yet has the balls to act shocked when he ends up in ridiculous scenarios. I am utterly entranced by how in spite of the loveless life he endured for decades, he remains enthralled by trinkets and stories and the simple act of having hope. That he has the ridiculous confidence to walk into Spanish Jackie's wearing a flamboyant, crisp white outfit (introduced via an equally flamboyant, near painful rhyme) yet lacks the confidence to believe that he could ever be loved, love others, or simply inspire happiness. I love the fact that while running away to be a pirate was his bid at a new beginning- his obscure dream- he wanted it to be a safe space for his crew, too. How ridiculous to apply those bizarre, novel concepts of pirating to a crew who just wanted to pillage and slay- to combine their wishes with his stubborn belief that pirating doesn't have to be an abusive, loveless space. I find such amazement in his ridiculous tale of misguided actions and misplaced hope. The simple joy in the exhaustive journey of living authentically.