he feels he is not without sin

the one thing about it fic that drives me up a wall is that everyone goes "we have to make myra complex... we have to think about her side of all this..." like well personally i dont. i dont have to do that. i think we can all use our brains and not do that. like it just makes me crazy we all can logically see the way that bev married a man exactly like her abusive father and say to ourselves "yes tom is the scum of the earth" but we see how eddie married a woman exactly like his abusive mother and everyone wants to go "but what ☝️ if she was complex" like im. good actually im chilling without needing to do that. sometimes the way people write myra is the way eddie would be psychologically torturing himself to convince himself he wasnt abused. except these people actually fr believe it "myra wasnt abusing eddie in fact HE used HER" like i need you people to think for ten seconds

eye twitching EYE TWITCHING

nothing i could go for more in the world for than a cigarette and an italian sub but im nit going to get either im just going to stare off into space

one thing about the universe it loves to put me and my brother in some fuckass situation

i moved around so much as a kid and as much as this house has caused me crazy amounts of grief it has also been the place ive lived the longest in my life. i have never lived somewhere with the idea that i could stay there for as long as i needed but i thought that about this place i thought this would be my home until me and amalia moved in together and now it all just feels so weird.

NEVER FEEL COMFORTABLE NEVER FEEL STABLE EVERYTHING ENDS EVERYTHING GETS WORSE EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET YOU

if it wasnt literally impossible bc of my fuckass schedule i'd get a second fucking job at this point

THERE'S ALWAYS ANOTHER BILL THERE IS ALWAYS ANOTHER FUCKING BILL

said out loud "oh i think im in a better mood than i have been in days" then immediately burst into tears #alwayskeepthemguessingevenyourself