Bipolar Confessions

I don’t know how to handle my anger. I’ve flushed my meds, broken things, yelled at those i love. I don’t know my triggers. I’m a monster

I’m only alive for everyone else’s sake. I couldn’t care less if I died at any given moment. I just can’t disappoint people even in my grave.

lowkey wanna disappear for a little

i just have this persistent feeling of “i’m not doing enough” combined with “i don’t have the energy to do anything” and it just really fucking sucks

even though it’s called bipolar disorder, we don’t just experience two emotions. we experience depression (sometimes severe), (hypo)mania, apathy, anger (sometimes extreme), we dissociate, we shut down, we feel numb, we feel anxious or panicked…. It’s not a two-way street. stop stereotyping. 

sensory overload is horrible,,, it feels like you’re falling in an endless void of noise and you want to scream and cry and escape but you can’t. Your body feels like it’s going to explode, your mind is telling you to disappear, you dissociate to the point of shutting down mentally and physically……. it fucking sucks.

it’s like a nightmare where your body is screaming to move because there’s a monster chasing after you but you can’t freaking move