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Heated Rivalry/Hollanov sideblog for @virtualtoybox
ABOUT: Tuesday - 27 - they/he - lesbian - bipolar and autistic
PINNED + THEME ART: x - x
(testimonials and tag directory under the cut)

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Shane & Ilya - I Want You To Love Me, Fiona Apple
and I have been waiting for you to love me
Shane & Ilya - Strawberry Blonde, Mitski
All I ever wanted was a life in your shape, I picture it soft and I ache
shane, its your invasive thoughts!!!! what if ilya rozanov can read your mind right now???
are you joking. because im autistic and i cant tell if youre joking.
if youre not joking the answer is lobotomy
Whatās my trademark hard mode edition you canāt say anything about bipolar disorder. Not a thing.

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I did say that mostly as a joke I donāt think everyone secretly hates me. I donāt think people like me very much but I donāt think Iām like. HATED!!! I wish I was willing to put myself out there more and try talking to ppl more but Iām very very shy tbqh. and I donāt feel like ppl would want to talk with me very much so itās quite scary. I was a very lonely little girl and in some ways I think I will always be a very lonely little girl.
sometimes i wonder if we have forgotten that sharing creative work is, fundamentally, a bid for human connection. like I'm not posting art or fic for 'engagement' i'm posting it looking for other sickos to play with! i'd be making it anyway for my own gratification because there's something wrong with me, i'm sharing it hoping we can have something wrong with us together <3
I would do the handwriting thing but I assume everyone secretly hates me so Iām far too shy to send anyone the emoji lest they pelt me with tomatoes let alone reblog the prompt. Lest I get ignored like a shelter dog.
Seeing a new therapist for the first time in over 15 years cuz mine retired and im In the waiting room filling out the mandatory screening questionnaire and then I get to the part thatās like are you bipolar ? Are you bipolar you dumb bitch? Can we all laugh and point at the pretty bipolar girl in the waiting room? Are you bipolar? And having to circle yes for every fucking question
ilya bipolar disorder most evident to me in that multiple depressive drops he has in tlg are described as him "crashing" and hes explictly stated to have been feeling on top of the world the night before in one instance as well as describing him just generally in a very high emotional state beforehand making the "crashing" feel even more dramatic. its just very much textually a moodswing

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the thing is shaneās orgasms were never his. first hookup he didnāt want to come so fast, didnāt want to do it in ilyaās mouth⦠first time anal he got it fucked out of him without warning⦠tuna melt scene is the closest we get but that was For Ilya so does that even countā¦ā¦
Hi guys I love you I cried thrice today thinking about Shane
shane as padme could drive a person like me to insanity. give me a second i have something to say
i could say more but i feel so crazy i feel so fucking crazy
Iām thinking about Shane as padme again.
lets exist inside each other tonight.

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You know this and I know this.
i have a strangely heartfelt gay temptation island au on my mind .....
okay so walk with me in a world where gay temptation island is real and shane has an asshole boyfriend he goes on the show with because his bf is shameessly looking for 50k+ instagram followers and is like baaaabe cmon itll be funnnnnn youre no fun babe :( youre such a boring buzzkill babe ugh. and he takes it as a challenge like well i can be FUN. lets go HAVE FUN . ON TV . (literally hes so miserable about this btw whyyyyy did he take the bait whyyyyyy) anyways so on gay temptation island ilya is one of the sexy singles and he sees shane and the jaws theme song starts playing in his head. he wanted to be one of the singles cuz him and svetlana watch the show and make fun of the flimsy couples and he signed up like please yes god i would love to ruin relationships on tv for fun get me in thereeeee!!!! shane is ilyas first pick on the island and of course they get really extremely horny about it really quickly but ilya finds himself charmed by shane far too easily :( and the more he hears about shanes boyfriend the more hes like. that guy has the best of them all and doesnt even act like it. culminating in a very intimate make out session that almost leads to sex until shane is like . i cant fuck up what i have just because you think you like me and they argue a bit cuz ilya is like. i DO like you i like you more than i want to admit! and shane just gets so angry cuz you dont even know me, ilya, he knows me and hes willing to put up with all of it. and ilya is so sad cuz he knows shane really thinks that.