if i can't have love, i want power (2021) rp meme.
an album by halsey β COMPLETE ALBUM. i've modified some lyrics to fit better as a spoken sentence, but please feel free to change any pronouns or sentence structure according to your preferences. trigger warning: forced marriages, possible discussion on themes of human trafficking, discussion on toxic relationships, sex, death.
β oh, the loneliest girl in town is bought for pennies a price. β
β we dress her up in lovely gowns. β
β she's easy on the eyes. β
β her soul is black and it's a fact that her sneer will eat you alive. β
β the buyer always brings her back, because all she does is cry. β
β take what you want, take what you can. β
β take what you please β don't give a damn. β
β ask for forgiveness, never permission. β
β his smiles hide a lie. β
β you smile back, but it's a fact that your fear will eat you alive. β
β she got the life that she wanted, but now all she does is cry. β
β i hope what's left will last all summer long. β
β they said that, "boys will be boys", but they were wrong. β
β it's in the blood and this is tradition. β
β don't call me by my name. β
β all of this is temporary. β
β watch as i slip away for your sake. β
β well, maybe i could hold you in the dark. β
β you won't even notice me depart. β
β i'll leave through the door without a word. β
β i reckon i'm headed to hell instead β so don't wait for me. β
β it's not a happy ending. β
β i needed a three day weekend to sort out all my bullshit, figure out the treason.β
β i've been searching for a fortified defense. β
β [name], you got better lips than [name]. β
β i could keep your bed warm, otherwise i'm useless. β
β i don't really mean it, 'cause who the fuck would choose this? β
β i'm only whatever you make me. β
β you make me more and more a villain every day. β
β you don't know β what you reap, you sow. β
β whatever you give to me from yourself, you take. β
β well, if you're a hater, then hate the creator β it's in your image i'm made. β
β i'll hang myself if you give me rope. β
β i lost all my faith and lost all hope that everything means anything at all. β
β one eye broken and one eye bruised 'cause i gave myself away for you. β
β you liar, you don't love me too. β
β my heart is massive, but it's empty. β
β a permanent part of me, that innocent artery is gaspin' for some real attention.β
β tell my heart, "quiet down, you're bein' loud" but it beats harder every time you come around. β
β losing you is easier than lying to myself that you love me. β
β i'm perfection when it comes to first impressions. β
β well, i romanticize and then i get to stressing. β
β you got me thinking that i was too mean. β
β everything that i say i believe. β
β i am disruptive, i've been corrupted. β
β by now i don't need a fucking introduction. β
β i've been gone 'cause i been on this road too long. β
β you know i get too caught up in a moment. β
β i can't call it love if i show it. β
β i just fuck things up, if you noticed. have you noticed? β
β now i'm wondering if i ever wanted to hold you. β
β it never mattered if i owned you 'cause you'd let anybody with a body control you.β
β the more that you give away, the more that you have. β
β i feel lighter in the waistline with no hands around me. β
β no, i'm not your daydream. β
β stop, cause you're killing my vibe. β
β i'm not a walk in the park. β
β i come loaded with the safety switched off. β
β that [girl/guy/person] is a gun, and we've been having some fun. β
β i could show you if you turn the lights on. β
β i keep waiting for luck to come swallow me up. β
β i feel better when you stop calling. β
β this measuring cup is overflowing with the same damn problems. β
β my newest baby's testing me lately β making me crazy from morning to evening.β
β i cannot take it β if i love it, i break it. β
β i can't be stressing to give you attention 'cause it's never enough. β
β i'm giving you up and you'll be better with a nice person, darling. β
β lemme show you how to touch my trigger. β
β i don't know what you want from me when i'm sunburnt lips and summer feet, tattered like these levi's jeans β
β now what the fuck does all this mean? β
β you know i'm still somebody's daughter, see. β
β i spilled the milk you left for me. β
β go on and be a big girl. you asked for this now. β
β everybody's gonna drown you out. β
β you better show 'em why you talk so loud. β
β who the hell is in your bed? β
β you better kiss goodnight and give some head. β
β well is this the life that lies ahead now? β
β i want my cake on a silver platter, i want a fistful in my hands. β
β i want a beautiful boy's despondent laughter. β
β i want to ruin all my plans. β
β i want a fist around my throat. β
β i want to cry so hard i choke. β
β i want everything i asked for. β
β i really can't remember where i left my spine. β
β and maybe i'll be better if i take my meds. β
β tried a medication that i bought instead, it's working for a little but there's not much left. β
β darling, don't you weep β there's a place for me. β
β see you in your dreams. β
β ever since little, i found it sweet driving past a graveyard on a lonesome street.β
β all the little flowers gave me something to believe in. β
β never knew the feeling of a stable home. β
β couldn't really tell you where they'd leave a stone to visit me when i am dead and gone. β
β foolish men have tried but only you have shown me how to love being alive. β
β until it's time to see the light, i'll make my own with you each night. β
β i'll kidnap all the stars and i will keep them in your eyes. β
β well, i won't die for love. β
β i've got a body here to bury and if truth be told, it's scary. β
β the parts of myself that i've hated β i can't tell which ones are mine, and which i created. β
β ever since i met you, you could have my heart, and i would break it for you. β
β i try to be careful with the thing inside my chest. β
β you shoot for the memory, so you can forget me. β
β i'll leave if you let me. β
β please, don't leave β i'm running out of time to tell you. β
β don't leave me in the shape you left me. β
β i'm running out of things that i regret. β
β she told me "open your mouth, i've got a surprise". β
β you crawled inside. β
β you're on the tip of my tongue, then you're on the top of my thighs. β
β you leave, then you linger. β
β if you're gonna go, then i'm going with you. β
β [she/he/they] was sweet like honey. β
β all i can taste is the blood in my mouth, and the bitterness in goodbye. β
β you're impatient and i'm complacent. β
β you're mean and you're mine. β
β i'm out and about without a reason or rhyme. β
β she's hell in a basket, just making a racket β i love every second, it's fucking fantastic. β
β good things aren't easy to get. β
β it's the thing in your thighs when you're lonely at night. β
β you're scrolling though your phone getting high off the light. β
β you're numb in your chest when you close the blinds. β
β you tell yourself you're fine, but you sabotage the things you love the most. β
β you camouflage so you can feed the lie that you're composed. β
β this is the voice in your head that says, "you do not want this". β
β this is the ache that says, "you do not want him". β
β this is the glimmer of light that you're keeping alive when you tell yourself "bet i could fuck him". β
β why do you need love so badly? bet it's because of your daddy. β
β bet you were brutal and bratty. β
β bet that you'll never be happy. β
β i've got a monster inside me that eats personality types. β
β i am constantly changing my mind on the daily. β
β i think that you hate me, i'm feeling it lately. β
β these are the standards to which you could hold me. β
β think that you know me. you think that you could if you hold me. β
β think you could try to console me, but i do not know me. β
β every day i've got a smile where my frown goes. β
β maybe i could be a different human in a new place. β
β i just wanna feel something, tell me where to go. β
β cause everybody knows something i don't wanna know. β
β i'll stay right here 'cause i'm better all alone. β
β i am not a martyr, i'm a problem. β
β i am not a legend, i'm a fraud. β
β so keep your heart, 'cause i already got one. β
β every morning, got a hollow where my heart goes. β
β i never listen, but i see you with my eyes closed. β
β maybe i could be a better human with a new name. β
β it really does hurt when you love someone. β
β i get undertones of sadness when i think about the moments that i never got to spend with you. β
β i can't decide if i love you more at morning or if i love you more at night. β
β the moon don't pick sides and the sun won't resign until you're by my side. β
β the longing needs the leaving, and the loving needs the bleeding. β
β i never got to tell you how i loved the way my eyes make yours look green too. β
β what's worse β tellin' you my feelings or to die without revealing that you got inside my head? β
β letting go all my insecurity, devour me with certainty. β
β wrap me in a wedding ring - you know i swear i'd give you anything. β
β i'll never know if there's danger in confession or it's memory that presses like a blade against my throat. β
β darling, you will bury me before i bury you. β
dededos
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