Big.Brotha.Ray.

I'm am not happy. We all throw things in front of us to keep our depression suppressed. But once everything is out of the way, we all face or demons once again. Ive came to realize beautiful things come and go and we truly don't appreciate it until its actually gone. Its ok not to be ok, but its not ok to act like everything is ok when its not. Pain is temporary, but only if you allow to feel and take notice of it. I don't know what it is, but I'm now allowing myself to feel the pain I should have dealt with months ago. I honestly believed I was over everything; the thought of you, the thought of us. But as we actually became more and more distance, the more it became real. I know i lost something real and amazing.