Ugh

It’s been a bit but I’m slacking in my lactation lock in.

I’m going to make my tea tonight, and go to the grocery store to pick up a couple lactation encouraging foods. I’m also going to do some self care, a little bit of a beauty routine, and probably order a breast pump using an afterpay service for the normal $35/month. I found a bunch of reviews on the one I liked and they all say it’s super quiet.

But anyways, my boobs have been hurting soooo bad. Like hurting deep inside, I just want someone to massage and play with them. Suck on them. I’ve got one side hooked up to my single silicone hand pump rn, and I’m about to switch to the other.

I’ve been ovulating and so fucking horny, it’s killing me. My pussy has been wet for days, my breasts are aching, it’s all I can think about. It’s a terrible thing that I don’t have anyone on hand to just defile me.

I might add a couple more of my less desirable kinks to this blog, in the realm of somno, cnc, and ddlg. On the ladder I have difficulty getting into, not because it’s not wrong and appealing but for several reasons I should probably discuss with an actual therapist- but I do want to state I am not one of those “binki/paci, diapie, Dawdy?” People. EXPLICITLY not one of those people.

Made my tea late last night, so I only drank about 2/3 before bed, but I’m ovulating rn and I am one of those afab that experience the “Breasts can swell in size about 25% of their normal volume while ovulating and menstruating” thing. They are so big and heavy rn.

I think I am going to get a pump so I can start working towards actual lactation instead of just enjoying the process again. I’ve settled on one I’ve read reviews about that says it’s exceptionally quiet, and I’m going to do some form of afterpay so I don’t have to drop the full $ amount at once.

Once I’m successfully producing im going to make a listing to sell my milk like I have before, I always make sure to post the listing specifically stating that my milk is not for children because I’m a 🌲and 🚬 user; I prefer to market to gym bros/body building community people because I used to be an exercise addict but broke my back in an unrelated accident and the resulting injuries prevent me from being as active as I used to be, or as active as I’d like to be period.

Doing this allows me to live through them vicariously, they get their clean calories and hormones and I get $, so the pump will eventually pay for itself as long as I can keep it away from the Brat I had as a nursing partner previously, who kept breaking my pumps.

Turns out fenugreek encourages blood flow to the genitalia, so she’s just super swol rn