STAND / FIGHT !

i feel like ever since i just kind of accepted i’m probably autistic rather than running around looking for an official diagnosis

i’m stimming a lot more

consciously i know im probably just relaxing and unmasking- especially since i haven’t had to deal with people properly for about a year and therefore have no reference points 

still want to write diana / thor and sigyn / thor

so

bad

my nan had spent a few nights in hospital waiting for a ct scan. i thought it was for her back pain, but a few days ago when she got home she told me that it was likely cancer.

she’s everything to me. i moved in with her at 17 and im still here 8 and a half years later. she pulled me up out of depression, held my hand through my first jobs and helped me through college twice. i dont know where i’d be without her.

my throat still hurts from all the crying i did.

i do still want to write, but for now i dont think it should be a multi unless i was able to majorly cut down to three or so muses for a while. otherwise im trying to figure out who i would choose for a single blog.

you can still always find me on discord, where i’d also like to write, and via ims.