obsession

b. 19 years old. in my day-to-day life, i pretend that i'm completely cured of my eating disorder...what a joke, right? i was in recovery. now i'm not so sure. this is a place where i don't have to pretend to be okay. years of eating disorder treatment centers, therapy, and personal introspection have rendered me very self-aware, even self-confident; what still kills me from the inside out is an irrational need to be above average. hw: 130 // cw: 120 // lw: 110 // gw: 110, 10-15% body fat TRIGGER WARNING: view at your own risk, and please, if you feel yourself falling into these behaviors, LEAVE and go talk to someone who can help you, before you are in too deep. i promise, this is not worth it. if you want to talk to me about something, i'm here. i've been through it. and i love people.