the year of me

Failure is not a word in my vocabulary. Have I been rejected? Yes, and a lot of times. But I learn from it every single time. And I’m smart about playing the end game. Failure is inevitable. It’s a part of life. You have to bounce back. You have to keep trying, keep persevering. Life is all about losing the battles but winning the war. 

The answer to being lonely is really to busy yourself. It’s a win-win situation: it provides a distraction from whatever’s on my mind, and it gets me further ahead with my goals. Honestly I’m trying to be alone anyway because I’m much more focused that way, and I’m in a time of my life when I need to hustle.

I know it’s cliche to talk about journaling and gratitude, but those two things have really helped change my mindset. I’m in a time of life right now that should be extremely stressful but instead I go to sleep with no anxiety and happiness in my heart. Getting my anxious thoughts out of my head, and focusing on what I’m appreciate of has helped with that. With a better mindset, I’m able to better focus on my goals, and I am so confident in my future. I’ve found that times of bliss like this is when I am at my best. The future I want is just a matter of time and hard work, and I’m honestly so excited about it.

About to read through @babyphat05‘s checklist again. I read it the first time, and now I’m going to answer the questions and fill out the worksheets. 2020 is coming fast and we are going to end these last few months getting A’s and stacking money and getting FIT. It’s about to happen.

You have to respect yourself enough to have brutally honest conversations with yourself, and ask yourself, “What do I need to do right now?” Sometimes that looks like self-care and taking the night off. Sometimes it’s like tonight. I’ve been sick for the past few days and it’s been a pain, but I still have things I need to get done, because in more minor cases like these, life doesn’t really wait for me. Tonight it’s Friday and I contemplated just chilling, ‘starting tomorrow,’ but I already missed class today and I knew I could dig deeper and find it in me to listen to the lectures I missed from today, do my chores, and work on my projects. I’m pushing myself, but I know my boundaries. Now I’m finished with my lectures and I’m moving on to working on other things, and I’m so proud of myself. I’m going to go to sleep tonight feeling accomplished and ready for tomorrow. 

Hello! This blog was inspired by @doinbetter, @phoebe-does, and @gloupblog. Here I’ll be talking about getting my life together - academics, social, health, etc. Hope you enjoy x