Who am I

It had been a long and tiring week—a feeling that was never unusual in Severus’ eyes. Ungraded parchment that he had been putting off for weeks were stacked on top of his desk in unorganized piles while he sat on the other side of his study, swirling a nightcap in one hand and pinching the bridge of his nose with the other. His eyes shifted slightly, moving towards the clock hanging on the wall next to the doorway—seven-thirty. You were expected to walk through the door any minute now and Severus could feel himself getting more and more desperate as the minutes ticked by. He hated that he had become this way—a man who now clawed at the armrests of his recliner to distract himself from the pulsing feeling beneath his trousers. 

Severus never had much experience with anyone in his thirty years of living and definitely never had any interest in changing that. He had too many priorities and in his mind, the touch of another person was the last thing he needed or wanted. After meeting you, it took awhile for Severus to understand that he was starting to enjoy the caring touch of another person and in fact, he began to crave it. He laid his head back against the headrest of his recliner, placing his palm against his groin in an attempt to combat the aching feeling that was only growing. When the doorknob began to turn, he found himself sitting up immediately in an almost desperate manner, which would have filled him with shame in any other situation. 

His eyes locked onto you the moment you stepped through the doorway and began unbuttoning your cloak to hang up. Your eyes drifted across the room, seeing Severus leaning back in his chair while not letting his dark eyes leave yours for a second. A small smile crept onto your face, knowing exactly what was wrong with the man you loved so dearly. For the first few months in your relationship, it took everything to get the man to not wince at the feeling of your touch, and now it is all he wants. And who are you to deny him that? 

You unbutton the last of your cloak, pulling it off and tossing it on to the coat rack behind the door before slipping your boots off. You take your time crossing the room, stopping to light a candle and make small comments about what your day was like as Severus sits and listens. When you finally begin walking towards the recliner, Severus sits up slightly, spreading his legs so that you can slide perfectly to sit on his lap like you do every evening when you get home. 

“Did you have a good day, love?” You asked softly, already brushing your fingers through his hair. 

Severus hums at your touch, leaning his head further against your fingertips as he nods once. 

“I am now.” 

You smile softly at his words, leaning forward to press a gentle kiss against his temple. Then another. And then another to his cheek. You could feel him shutter against each kiss and his fingernails had already begun pressing into the palms of his hands. 

It had taken some time during your relationship for Severus to get used to giving physical touch back, but the more comfortable he had gotten with you, the easier it became. You felt his thumb resting gently on your thigh while rubbing small circles as he tilted his head back slightly to give you more access. You leaned forward, connecting your lips to his neck while lightly swiping your tongue against his cold skin. The moment he felt the small kisses and flicks of your tongue, a low groan escaped from Severus’ mouth followed by a twitching feeling underneath you. You continue to leave small trails of kisses alongside his neck before eventually switching sides while shifting to straddle him completely on the chair. 

Severus’ hands naturally moved to rest against the curves of your ass covered by your robes. With a slight shift, you placed yourself directly on top of his hard and covered bulge while pulling away from his neck to look into his eyes. Severus’ eyes were darker than usual as he stared into yours. You could almost see a look of pleading before you finally started to grind slowly against him, feeling his bulge rub against you. The moment Severus felt the pressure, his head leaned further into his headrest and his eyelids had already begun fluttering. Keeping a smooth grinding motion on top of his trousers, you felt his hands move to squeeze your ass in an attempt to ground himself. 

“God.” His voice shutters in your ear. 

You snake your fingers in between the both of you, already moving to unbuckle the black belt secured around his waist. Severus’ eyes just watch you undress himself, enjoying the feeling of being completely at your mercy. It doesn’t take long for you to begin to shift the sides of his trousers down his thighs as you feel him lift up to let you pull them down the rest of the way. You lift the bottom of your robes above your waist as you move to straddle him again so that your mound, covered by the silk fabric of your panties, is now pressed against his now tented boxers. Your fingers move to the many buttons on his robe as you begin to pick up the grinding motion once more. 

“So many buttons, Sev.” You whisper, keeping your eyes locked on to him. 

With each shift of your hips, you could feel his fully erect cock twitch inside of his boxers, putting a smile on your face each time. It never took a lot to get Severus shaking and you often took a big liking to that fact. You were proud to admit that you enjoyed watching the normally gloomy dungeon bat writhe under you. You pressed your body down further onto him as you worked your way through the last half of the buttons before eventually pulling the rest of his cloak off. He sat in his recliner in nothing but his boxers and a black tee as you continued your grinding pace on his lap. You felt his fingers snake up your sides, asking for permission to pull your robes off. You lifted your arms, feeling the heavy clothing slip over your head before Severus’ hands returned back to your bare sides, placing gentle kisses against your stomach and your breasts. Your warm body almost stung against his usually icy skin, and the heat radiating from your cunt as you grinded against him was not helping him any. 

He felt your hand reach between the two of you once more as your fingertips began kneading at the head of his cock covered by his boxers. A small smile crept onto your face as you felt the slight dampness on his boxers from his precum. Your eyes locked onto his as you leaned forward to whisper in his ear. 

“Careful darling..” You hummed, “I just got here”

“Please…” You heard him beg with his voice practically cracking. 

You knew what he was pleading for. For a man so used to silence and solitude, letting someone close enough to be intimate was its own kind of surrender. And in all the time you and Severus had been together, you were the only one he had ever allowed to touch him so intimately and each time was like the first. Severus did not like to plead and especially did enjoy hearing himself sound so desperate, but you had a certain way with him that felt like an addiction. Your movements were delicate enough to soothe him, yet deliberate enough to almost sting with each touch and bring him to the edge each time. Severus had always felt ashamed about how quickly he came undone around you. Yet part of him craved that fleeting loss of control that reminded him that he could still feel. And you enjoyed watching every moment of it, feeling satisfied in how quickly you could bring him to the edge. 

You moved the hand that was kneading his groin slightly, slipping your fingers through the front slit of his boxers to feel the only warm part of his body. The head of his cock was already dripping with his precum as you swiped your thumb across the tip for extra lubrication. You leaned forward, pressing your lips against his as you squeezed your fingers around the base of his cock, causing a low groan to escape from his mouth mid-kiss. 

“Please keep doing that..” Severus spoke in a low voice in between kisses. 

Your fingers continued to swipe around the base of his cock before moving to squeeze the tip gently, continuing this pattern as you moved to kiss either his lips or the side of his neck. 

It had only been a few moments before you began feeling the light twitching of his cock followed by his grip tightening around your waist in an attempt to hold himself back. 

“Darling, I-I..” He spoke in between gasps, “Fuck..Please c-can you just..”

You watched him tremble, unable to form words, but you knew exactly what he was pleading for. You had brought him to the edge of his orgasm in only a matter of minutes and he was begging to be enveloped by you completely. With a quick shift, you slipped your panties down your thighs before moving your hands to the sides of his boxers to tug at them, freeing his hard cock. Your legs moved to straddle him once more as you lowered yourself gently to swipe your folds against his cock glistening with precum. His eyes never left yours as he let out a breath he did not realize he was holding in. 

“Say please again, love…” You whispered in a low, seductive voice as you hovered gently above him. 

Your words made him shudder, but he was far too desperate to stay quiet.

“Please..God please..” His words spilled out in a manner you had only heard in your most intimate moments together.

His pleading felt like music to your ears and the pleasure only increased when you finally allowed yourself to give him what he wanted so terribly. The groan he let out when you finally lowered yourself completely around him was guttural sounding. Severus’ back arched in the recliner, causing his cock to press further against your cervix, making your own back arch. 

“I love you” Severus began saying the words in an almost desperate manner, “God, I-I fucking love you.” 

Severus did not often express how much you meant to him—emotion was a frequent struggle for him. But in moments like this, the mask slipped completely and you had him in the palm of your hand. His undoing only made your inner walls clench around him more, followed by another low throaty moan escaping from him. 

Severus leaned forward in the recliner, shifting himself so that he could sit up straighter to give you more room. Your hips began to grind forwards and backwards in a slow, smooth pattern, feeling the thickness of his cock grind against your g-spot with each shift. 

Your hips rocked once, letting out a loud, pleasure-filled moan from your mouth as you arched your back.

Your hips rocked twice, hearing Severus inhale a sharp gasp of air as his fingernails dug into your back. 

“F-Fuck I’m..” You heard him gasp. 

Your hips rocked a third time, feeling him sit up entirely as his face moved in to press against your chest.

One of his hands moved to grip a handful of your hair–the only sign of dominance coming from him at that moment–and his other hand moved to grip your shoulder, keeping you pressed firmly on top of him. A smirk spread across your face amidst the pleasure. Severus had never used protection with you. The first time the two of you were intimate was after a drunken night where protection was the last of your concerns. Pulling out was something he had never been concerned with. You never questioned him on it, but you knew that he had an insatiable fixation with releasing inside of you. 

Severus’ deep desire was never rooted in the fact that he wanted to start a family with you and in fact, he always had a contraceptive potion brewed for you immediately after. But the idea that he could put a baby inside of you made from pure love and adoration seemed to make his heart race in a way that confused and excited him. 

You didn’t even get to rock your hips for a fourth time as you felt his hand that had been grasping your shoulder increase its grip. His moans were muffled due to his face being pressed into your chest and you could feel his entire body twitch beneath you. A familiar warmth spread within you, feeling Severus buck his hips into you roughly with each twitch, only increasing your pleasure as his cum spread within you.

His moans sounded like stifled cries as he continued to ride out his orgasm. You bucked your hips a few more times, riding out your own high and bringing him completely over the edge. 

“O-Oh fu- god..” Severus managed to moan out, feeling your cervix continue to grind against his sensitive tip. 

“Shh..” You whispered, leaning forward towards his ear, “Breathe, love.”

He barely heard your words due to the ringing in his ears and vibrating sensations throughout his body. Your hips continued to buck back and forth as his release continued to pump deep inside of you. With one more swift motion of your hips, your back arched as moans escaped from your mouth and your walls clenched around him, making him shake. 

Your body fell limp against him in the recliner and the two of you sat in silence, attempting to catch your breath. His thumb traced circles around your back-–a tactic he used to calm his heart from beating so fast. His hands never left your body as you both slowly came back to reality and eventually, you shifted to slowly lift yourself from his now softening cock, covered in both your orgasm and his. He leaned back in the recliner, breathing in slowly to calm himself as his eyes watched you pull yourself from him. His eyes traveled down your body and between your legs, seeing his orgasm leaking down your inner thigh. His cock twitched once more at the sight as Severus imagined you filled completely with his seed.