I Hold On

benjifarnham‌:

““Nah, sorry, mate. Got some green and a blunt I am willing to share if you partake.”

Ben considered that for a moment before nodding his head. He had been trying not to smoke as much weed as he normally did, which was probably driving his need for a cigarette. Clearly, marijuana was calling his name a lot more. “Alright, sure.” He said with a smile, patting the man on the shoulder. “Thanks.”

benjifarnham‌:

“Athlete to athlete, what are you doing looking for one of those?”

“It’s been a fucking stressful day and I don’t want to buy the whole pack or I’ll smoke all of it. Just one is all I need.” He said with a shrug.

benjifarnham·: 

Constance wasn’t buying him, but at the same time, she wouldn’t press in this subject anymore. ❛ Since you came to my table, I think it’d be fair enough if we share our names. My name is Constance. ❜ She spoke with her thick Irish accent. Normally she’d stretch her hand for a polite handshake, but he seems wanting to pretending he knows her. Otherwise, he wouldn’t sit at a random table like he did.

“I’m Ben.” He replied with a small smile. “Have you already ordered?”

39:What are you most likely to become famous for?Probably for being on America’s Most Wanted or some shit. Maybe for being an MMA fighter, but let’s be real..

40:What are some of the events in your life that made you who you are? The biggest I can think of right now is mom going to prison because it opened my eyes to getting sober.

11: What’s the thing you regret the most?Things that I did when I was on heroin. I wish I could take most of it back.

13: When was the first time you said “I love you”?In high school so this girl would sleep with me. Worked!

16: What is something unforgivable that could destroy a relationship?Cheating or really anything that makes you lose complete trust.

25: What have you given up on?My mom. I don’t know how to help her anymore.

benjifarnham·:

Constance was minding her own business when Benji came to wake her up from her thoughts. The Irish frowned a bit confused with the menu in her hands. ❛ Okay… Is everything good?!  ❜ She couldn’t help but asks. Especially if she is spending a time with a stranger.

“Everything is great.” He said with a smile. “Couldn’t be better.”

benjifarnham‌:   

“We’re friends Ben, it’s what we do.” She said, finally deciding on something to eat. She handed the menu over to him, “Pick something out to eat and make yourself comfortable.”

Ben took the menu and read it over before deciding to just get some fries and a drink. When the waitress came by, he ordered and then sat back. “So, how are things with you?”

Vivian: I should go to bed, I just wanted to call you and tell you about tomorrow. I love you.

Vivian: Things are going to get better soon. I feel better.

Vivian: Maybe like around noon. I should know by then. And if they don't let me out then at least you can visit. Baby, I miss you.

Vivian: I'm sure everything will be good and I will be able to leave. Will you come pick me up? My mom has to work.

Vivian: It's just not 100% yet. I talked to my doctor on Friday and he said he wanted to aim for me to be released tomorrow as long as my pass with my mom went well. So I'll talk to him in the morning, and if I tell him that everything was fine and I feel ready, then he'll order the discharge.

Vivian: I think I'm getting out tomorrow...

Vivian: Oh, that's so good, love. I'm happy for you. I have some good news too.