Benie Writes

I know you, as you know me, perhaps better than anyone does. You know my pain, for you've caused most of it. You know my sadness, for you've been in most of it. And you know my happiness, for you've stolen most of it.Why are you here, now? Why now, just when I have my life together, just when I'm growing out of the darkness you left me in, just when happiness is starting to feel familiar, and…

Do you remember,the time the breath you drewand lived on was that of dreams?You had a clear pictureof where you wanted to be,of who you wanted to be, today.Everything was mapped out,clear, realistic, achievable;everything was as you grew up,preferring everything to be—perfect.You had a vision, a dream,and nothing was going to stop youfrom turning this dream into reality."Life is predictable,…

With pain, you once spokeof how deathis a painful thing;"A parent should never outlive their child," you said,yet you outlived two of your own.When I remember my son in my arms,I imagine how you must have felt,but to also outlive your siblings,and your friends, your peers...it must have been sad, I imagine,to watch the bits of what madeyour life, your life, chip away, bit by bit.Love, you taught…

"to shrink a whole manuscriptof feelings so deepto but a few words would be an injustice,don't you think?" she pauses, her words linger. i look into her ocean eyes,my hand, warm on her chest,"it's here,"i say with a tender conviction, her pulse, alive under my hand."no amount of wordscan describe this feeling; if this is what love feels like,then it's a sky full of stars;and when the sky is…

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nights like these,when the hour is late,when the moon is near full,when the night is still and quiet,and tiny stars are scatteredfaraway across the night sky...i like to gaze at distant lights,i like to feel the pits in mefill with the cold memoriesof perfect, beautiful momentswith you, when you yet livedand filled my life with warmth,light, with laughter, and love.something about what's…

His words still echo in my ears, As I stare out into the empty Blackness of the dead of night,The night sky, starless, moonless,Baren, like my cold, numb heart."Death is a painful thing," he had said,"And the pain lives on after the dead,The pain lives in the memories shared,It's in the nostalgia that sits with you,It's in the flashes of the life in themThat came out in their hearty laughter;The…

Dear one, you must know how deepMy affection for you yet runs, how fresh My memory of the beautiful momentsYet remains, how much with lifeThe place you held in my life yet brims!benie_langat Thick fog gathers at a distance I can barely see anything through it.As I watch it advance toward me,My eye catches a glimpse of a dim light—A reminder of the warmth of your presenceWith which you'd fill any…

...you remind me that because Of the love we share, you and I, You can never be against me Only for me, and I, only for you And that when I'm ready to walk Through my fears, I should know That you will be here, by my side Through every step of the way...

you remind me that because Of the love we share, you and I,You can never be against meOnly for me, and I, only for youAnd that when I’m ready to walk Through my fears, I should knowThat you will be here, by my sideThrough every step of the way,An ally, a friend, the love of my life.benie_langat My face lights up to the sight of youAnd yet, as you draw closer,I can't help but step fartherAnd…

And such is the beauty of living—to hold the best of a passing beat,to hold on not a moment longer,and to be able to let go with grace.benie_langat Fast-moving, I look to the west in awe—Oh! How beautiful, yet how fleeting! The moment, ethereal, breathtaking!The moon's rise amidstthe engulfing pitch darkness,painting a masterpiece againstthe thick clouds in rare orange.Oh! if I was good with…

Another year draws to a finish,You have come so far, this year,A little growth, a little learning, Incremental open-mindedness,Expanding the bounds of possibility,Incremental progress, growth,A little, with every sunrise, A little, by every sunset.With every breath you yet draw, My wish for you is that you use it To give back to yourself before the world,To appreciate yourself a little more, To…

She is a queen,But you don't see it—You see her scars, her flaws, You see her weakness,You watch her fall, And you see a fallen woman, Perhaps, one who deserves it.You see all these of her,And it is all you will ever see of her. She is a queen,But you can never have a woman's lightShine brighter than yours,THEY belong elsewhere—You see someone less, someone weakYou see someone undeserving,You…

Forever, is what it has felt like,Waiting for you to come back home, Fully aware that you never will,Healing, moving on, and drifting back, Fighting to leave where you left me,And always failing, ever failing.Forever, is what it has been like, Looking over at the gate after dark, Anticipating, yet aware That you will never come back,And hopelessly hoping, prayingThat miracles still happen.I could…

I was never a quitter.When I was younger, there were times, tears would soak only my heart.Having acquired questionable habits,I would dry my tears and swear to myself,I would pick myself up when I fell,I would dust myself up, and keep going.The one thing I would never dreamwas give up, quit--it was not an option.I look back at such times with envy,where did I ever draw such strength? Over the…

As I sat, a coffee mug in my hand, And listened to the gentle tones of my heart,As I watched the steam rise above my nose,And watched my past rise with it,As the steam dissipated, my past persisted.I saw myself through every decision,Through every road that led me to that point.Quiet, I listened to the gentle tones of my heart.As I watched my fears rise with the steam,My fears, they persisted, as…

Fear inhibits, and a vision, a dream motivates. Don’t be afraid to dream. Dream away. Dream big!benie “Next year on this date, where do you see yourself? What will you be doing on a morning like this one?” a colleague asked me. I had a vision of something I had dreamed about sometime before. I still think it was beautiful. I kept going back to it in my mind, lying in my bed in the middle of…

You have been with me,you have been by my side,longer than I have been alive. I have asked more than I have thanked you for all that you have been in my life. You are the reason I saw the sun rise, and the reason I marvelled at the moon. So beautiful on the outside, they are, yet, how exquisite you are, wholesome.Today, I made the most of the time you gave me.And I made sure to have fun at it,I…