🌸Bella’s Journey🌸

Everyone keeps saying let go and I know I should let go but how do I let go of someone that has been a huge part of my life? I look at our pictures and get happy because I see how happy you made me but also get very sad knowing it’s just a memory and I will never be enough for you. I know there was so much wrong, so many things, but yet you were all I wanted and somehow I wasn’t what you wanted. I wish I was, I really did wish I was. I don’t even know. I don’t know. I just know it hurts and I don’t want to let go even though I know I have to.

I went on a date today, it was amazing and honestly the best date I have ever been on. This guy has me falling for his ocean eyes. Good luck from here on out because who knows where things will go from here. All I can say is I’m okay. And it feels good to say that, I’m okay. If I’m being honest I’m starting to be more than okay and I’m proud of myself for all the progress that I have been making. The road of recovery is a long one but I know it can be done. My disorders do NOT define who I am. I will find myself and I will be happy, I welcome the journey that is to come.

But I’m afraid of being sober💗