This year has been a very rickety rollercoaster. It has been so stressful and I had a really bad lead up to the WRO this year. I wasn’t believing in myself and was allowing people who were my teammates to get into my head. I was an absolute mess in the lead up months. Then on dance day one of my teammates was missing her shawl and her and her mom were mad at me because “I” packed the dress bag. My teachers had to talk me out of panic mode and I ended up dancing the best jig of my life. I danced slip jig alone and even though it is my weakest round I received my best scores in that round! I wasn’t letting anyone talk down to me and I wasn’t allowing teammates who are supposed to be supportive get me down. I was the only recaller from my school that day and my set wasn’t what I was hoping for so I didn’t have much hope at awards. When they called my number out as a World Qualifier I almost broke down.
I was standing with @bellairishdancer and I finally felt like I had people to support me! I don’t get any support from my fellow teammates but I received so much love and support from Bella, Alexis and @themissingbeat !!! You guys have no idea what it meant to me to have your support! I was always the first one to congratulate all of my teammates through the good and the bad, and when it came time for me to need them I was left behind. My teachers were so proud of me and that is all that truly matters, but it would be nice for my teammates to be able to put their jealousy behind themselves to muster up a simple hug or congratulations. Oh well. I have learned that it is hard and lonely to be at the top, but I know I have support from my friends and that is all I can ask for!
I am now 2 for 2 with my time at the Oiraechtas. I have been to two and have World Qualified at both. I could not be prouder of myself! Dublin here I come!!!!!!!!!
You are absolutely amazing! Its easy to support someone who shows nothing but kindness and respect to friends and even other competitors. I consider myself so lucky to know someone like you and I am beyond grateful that you are apart of my life. Being at the top or even getting there is lonely. We all get that feeling. Just know your AZ girls are always cheering you on! Congratulations again! See you in Dublin!
