Such a brilliantly bizarre song. 

Thank you so much! (Apologies for the delay, I don’t check tumblr much anymore, if anyone would like to contact me - I spend a lot more time on Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/bekor_/ The lyrics started with the chorus which was inspired by the nightmare a friend had shared with me. It was so fucked up, which of course inspired me greatly.  I then threw in my own experiences of heart break and frustration, making it a strange collage of general unease. 

Dirt. 

Afraid in isolation. 

Thank you so much for sticking around after all of that time - and I’m SO glad you like the new album.  Thanks so much for listening x 

Am I damaged? Am I broken? Am I no good?   I’m not damaged,  I’m not broken,  I’m not no good. 

I thought it was cool to feel Now I'm the fool  What do you take me for? This wasn't the plan I wanna lay down   Get away from me I thought wearing your mask Would let me understand Now I'm just covered in the dirty blood of man Don't think I wanna know.. Is being human just a joke, a fake, a filthy liar? I wanna be like them I wanna tear the smiles right off your skin If feeling happy is being dumb I wanna fit right in I wanna be, I wanna be I wanna be like them So i'll take a knife and i'll try again I wanna fit right in.

A lot of love A lot of grief You’re gritting it between your teeth I don’t think you want this It’s all a stress I’m in a mess I’m trying to take in all the rest I think you’ll regret this You make me never wanna love again You pull the floor from underneath of you and I. I gotta stop biting down on things that I will never understand What have we done? What will we do? It’s so disturbing how our memories grow cold. I’ve gotta learn, I’ve gotta live This part of you I should forgive I don’t think you want this You disappeared without a trace I close my eyes, can see your face I think you’ll regret this You make me never wanna love again You pull the floor from underneath of you and I. Love again, you’re just another stranger. Damned if I do, and damned if I don’t Running a race where i’ll surely fall There is no winner when everything's lost When did you turn into another stranger?

I’m so afraid of you I feel sick in your presence I’m so afraid of you I don’t remember how I got this bad You let me down You let me down, you let me down I came undone & I’m afraid. 

No one’s stopping to believe us We’re just children in their eyes Time moves slow, up all night Soon we’ll know who is right I don’t wanna go to California I don’t wanna go and chase the sun I just want a friend to share the fire We can make a life that I can love We’re flying away with nowhere to go I’m so afraid of the unknown I don’t wanna go to California I don’t wanna go and chase the sun Chase the sun. Waiting for a resurrection Blame it all on superstition Fighting the shadows, block the light No change in seasons make it right