Tyro's whatever this is

Pain beyond repair 

I must continue practicing 

A day so vibrant A day full of laughter A day full of similarities from before and hereon after

A day with your smile and that look in your eyes A day of our future and all the reasons to try A day full of moments and other reasons why You're my perfect woman and I, your perfect guy

I'm bored of spending my time standing there taking orders from people I hate, being the victim of aggression, verbal abuse and borderline physical violence for minimum wage. 

I'm bored of working myself up into a jealous state, constantly being paranoid and thinking the worst of situations. I do this to myself. 

I'm bored of feeling inadequate to the point where I just don't care .

Trying to describe you is near impossible,

to pin point the minute details,

of everything I love would take me eternity,

So I attempt in words used many times before. 

Your eyes have the ability to lose me, 

swallowed by the depths, 

Your smile evokes the joy, 

of which the waves I am swept,

Beauty that is unique,

You are mine. 

Your body belongs entwined with mine, 

take away everything, with you I am fine,

the laughs and smiles,

the jokes and the trials,

You are mine. 

The warmth only you could provide,

the comfort and soothing, 

to which I can hide, 

words were never my strong point,

this may you forgive,

but my love for you is strong,

Have you ever felt, 

the absence,

an entity that is not controlled, 

the inability to define,

the inaudibility of the mind,

Falling down an endless hole,

unable to slow or halt the descent.

Colliding with the bottom, 

with shakes and dry tears, 

is it in the way? 

Does it obscure the vision of later life, 

it cannot be fixed,

through endless strife. 

Seconds turn to hours,

and minutes are unbearable, 

you're losing your grips, 

sliding through hell, 

the desperate feelings, 

you wish would go away, 

but deep down, 

cant even try his best 

he got left behind by other

they laid him to rest 

he swears his life's just watching clocks 

wishing time would fly 

putting on a smile 

with the repeated lie 

"have a good day" 

he has to say 

but given any moment he'd beat them 

if he had his own way 

the rest is dark 

just crashing down 

dealing with shit 

but to express people think he's a clown 

so what next 

there's no need to think about his steps 

just jump and hope you dont fall