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There's this guy in my mind. Sometimes I love him and would like to write poems about him. Sometimes I hate him for lingering in my mind and not in reality. Sometimes I could remember his face. Sometimes his face is a blur. Sometimes I reconstruct him in my mind. Sometimes I convince myself to stop thinking about him. Sometimes he is a source of motivation. Sometimes I hide from him when I saw him from afar. Sometimes I like the 'him' I created in my mind more than the real him. Sometimes I wish I could catch a glimpse of him. Sometimes I wish I would never see him again to spare me the pain of unrequited love. Sometimes I regret noticing him. Sometimes I wish I'm a guy so I could be his friend. Sometimes I wish to dream of him at night. Sometimes I wish he likes me. Sometimes I fear he likes me. Sometimes I think this yearning is stupid. Sometimes I could not control myself. Sometimes I imagine he's in my life. Sometimes I could not imagine myself being completely seen.